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First post for 2009! Happy New Year!!!

2009-01-01T23:06:00.009+08:00

This will be my first blog for the year 2009!

Wishing all Happy NewYear and may all your wishes and dreams come true =)
Just realise that i have been wasting money at the last month of 2008 =(

Getting poorer each time hai and i think i have to restrict myself more =)

Want to blog what i have bought this dec and the last two weeks for the year!

Just let the pictures do the talking hehe...

My new wallet using now =)

My new earnings

My new shoes (so happy as i got big foot)

Our couple watches =)

Detox tea - need to cleanse my stomach

Our dinner @ The Soup Spoon

Tokyo Chicken stew and Clam chowder

Our shots after meal... Tired faces

We went bugis that day and this is consider one of my big buys as i don't usual shop hehe =p

Last night, we went to our first ever countdown party as in the past we have curfew but this time no, yipee!

Met dear after my work and we went to had dinner at marina and well as marina square is close to the floating platform, there are tons of people like the chinese saying: people mountain people sea. We had dinner at waraku pasta and after dinner went walk walk while waiting for the fireworks (for more laughing stuff, refer to dear's blog. hehe p.s lazy to talk about it)

Anyway, it is a fun experience with dear on our first countdown and more to come i hope... hehe (but doubt dear is keen -_-'')

Will edit my this post tomorrow as i am fed up bwith my hotmail and blogger when uploading photo hai... tata

got to work in 7 1/2 hours later tired...

night..

2008-12-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

long time never post le... been busy and lazy all this while haha.

busy with the usual stuff, work, studies, earning money and all tat.
looking back, this year has been a tough year and to think that just less than one week more will be yr 2009. hai so much has happened and all seems to be gone in just a flash.

year after year, people say will make resolutions for the new year, so do i. but the percentage of keeping to the resolution is not alway easy and as i can think of, i have failed my past resolutions =(

so this year for the new year, maybe not making any resolution will be better even though we may have things in mind and hope to accomplish it hence, we shall wait and see, just like a quote: ' somethings are left to be unsaid...' wahaha.

guess the last few days for the year will be a tough week as i have to do up my project synopsis which is 20 credit module and i have to keep up with the remaining 2 modules in order to graduate, but they are tough as it seems. it is a mixture of everything we learnt and kind of like in accounting term and the other is financial term (which i am not very good at =( ) but will try my best to give it my best! hence wish me luck! hehe.

Just a quick update what i have been doing during my absence hehe:
- exams and tons of stress
- work (during the day in clinic like fighting a war)
- earning money that is never enough
- online shoppin for the 1st time (yah i am very outdated for online shopping had been popular dunno since how many years ago, wahaha)
- mum went to taiwan and i have to manage the house.
- resting but never seems to be enough
- 2 weeks break from sch
- JLPT 3 exam (again not prepare but who cares =p)

Update on this week:
- went for chalet at dar's family gathering (at SAF seaview chalets, so isolated)
- got tease by them hai
- dar got sick and i took care of him hehe =)
- got promoted to biao sao hai dunno happy or what
- bbq for dinner =)

for the full story ask me, as i am too lazy to talk about it but is definitely something happy for me as i got the recognition from his family, and interaction with his cousins not been neglected.

hehe just happy to getaway from stress!

Bad day today...

2008-10-10T18:26:00.002+08:00

I wonder if i recently stepped on dog shit or what, things have not gone well this 2 weeks. let's say today, i was late for class (only recently) and then i got caught by one of the school staff (who has got nothing better to do) who claimed that i did not dress properly for school. and guess what they caught me for, becos i wear Flip Flops to school. WTH! I alway think that those shoes with strips are considered sandals but why now classified so differently hai. Suai day to start with. Then right now i'm in office and i got say by my uncle hai. piss off. not that i cant let people say me (to certain extent i cant accept what people say) but then i just find it ridiculous, want me to do it his way and think fast as he is. hai. i dunno lah just not my day.

This past week can say my lowest peak of this year. Never feel like this before. hai. Problems after problems and dun seems to be ending hai. See what i have encountered recently.

1. Bought new phone (Samsung i780) then cant open the battery cover (now can, but cant close back -_-'')

2. Send phone for service within 1st week of use (but in the end change battery only, so not that serious)

3. Change mobile phone plan that time and now bill received in a big mess, call to complain and enquire = no use (they simply use pro-rated for everything)

4. Receive my last term result did not do well but passed so alright. hai disappointed results

5. Receive result slip from school for advanced diploma that i never took before and the result is fail. what the hell. then the funny thing is that they ask me to sit for supp paper on 20 Sept but the letter i received was on 26 Sept, what a joke man. -_-''(call to ask coordinator and get him to settle he say ok BUT

6. Receive another letter from school about the advance diploma, now say that i fail not 1 BUT 3 modules and have to re-sit for the exam or supp paper (whatever) piss me further.

7. Parents went for trip, use car and drive out to have meals with frens and then we split the cost equally despite they order alot of food and we only sample it also pay for it. -_-''

8. This whole week, weeknights all burnt!!! Damn tired... (Still got mock test on tues and i didnt even touch the book.

Just when is a good day or time coming my way lei... faster lei...

i'm waiting.....
dun take so long to come....

Chalet!

2008-09-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

Went for chalet last weekend with poly mates and did not enjoy it at all. Though was looking forward but it turned out as a big disappointment hai, but nevertheless, manage to spend some time with dear. hehe. Everything backfired and me as the organiser was greatly fail in my task, not becos i never do well but is just that frens they all disappoint me. hai

Fri: went to chalet with dear after his class, and we took a cab down and it cost $30 wat the hell cos i went to fetch dear. hai. Reach there about 4pm and the room was damn hot and stuffy hai. went to switch on the aircon but all it gives was just wind and no air con at all. took almost 2 hours before the room was consider cool. hai Dinner at 8 plus while waiting for fren and turn out they came in late, hai then so call take turn for dinner haha. after they came back, dear and i went to watch Boys over flowers: final aka Hana Yori Dango finale. Cos cant manage to have good seats for mama-mia so no choice but guess it is a good choice. hehe. The movie is based on jap version which i never watch the drama but not bad quite nice hehe. first midnight show with dear, know that it may be common for some couples but for us this case is forever special due to our family background, but anyway was a great experience. After the show went back and play Big 2 with my fren (couple) they lose so badly that they say they want to strip off every piece of their clothes when they lose, but didnt haha. slept at 3am and wake at 11am.

Went for breakfast cum lunch with them, and then fren went for class, so alone with dear, went to ntuc to buy some food for the night bbq and then went back to sleep haha. we damn pigs for that day. after wake up went to book bbq pit and then went to have a stroll with dear. initially want to go to one of the event organized by the singapore sports council - the water fest at pasir ris but we cant seems to find it and continue walk till one hour plus hehe. Reach back chalet damn tired. haha. thought that my fren will come at 5 plus when they say they will but i'm wrong all came in around 7 plus and piss me off hai. dear and i have to start the fire and us been inexperienced, use the lousy fire starters and nearly finish the whole box wahaha.=) finally it manage to start but then hai... no need to further elaborate. hai

how i wish that there is an equipment that can record wat i say and convert to words so that i need not type it out haha. hope tat the invention will come to me soon. i'm becoming a lazy person hehe.

got 2 tutorial to do and yet to get started and i'm not sure if i'm getting too easily agitated nowadays or i feel that people are using me hai. wat a feeling. sian i hate people taking me for granted, but wat to do.

anyway i'm buying e71 to enjoy my $100 voucher that singtel have given me to retain me wahaha so little but better than nothing. want to buy omnia but than damn ex dunno why hai...

tata, 40 more min to my csi show =)

Slacking slacking

2008-09-14T20:41:00.002+08:00

Haven been blogging almost for a month, recently alot of things happen like
- laptop got corrupted
- stop my jap course
- planning for chalet
- trying to catch up with schoolwork
- sign up new facial package
- looking for new phone
- not meeting dear for long time
- sick
- repair hp
- went for phonics class =)

haven been able to study though keep saying must but has ben busy almost everyday. is draining me badly and i have breakdown last night hai. after crying out feeling much better becos have been 'suffering' for almost 2 terms (= 6mths) with all work and no fun nor leisure tired me out thoroughly hai. wanting a well deserved holidays even for a single day will do.

hope that i will be able to relax and enjoy during the chalet at least better than nothing and i'm looking forward for it. guess that i have to adjust for exam mood soon if i dun want history before my exams to repeat itself hai. jia you bah.

have been watching alot of anime recently and the most favourite is itazura na kiss, so cute and nice and it makes me cry and feel so happy at the same time. hehe you all should watch it damn nice, i think better than the taiwan though i never really watch it cos i think they overdo the show le. haha.

been planning to look for phone to replace the current one as it has went cranky, hang tat time and cant open it waste $30 to repair and dunno is the sim card got problem or wat, message keep get corrupted or is wrong or old message sending as new, hard to explain ah. anyway got few phones in mind but not all match my budget =( so sad.

they are : nokia e71, e66, htc touch dual, touch diamond, touch pro(in love with it but look guyish and bulky) and also samsung omnia. hehe like i say i just sign facial package haven finish paying means tat i am running low in my finances and phone i getting may need to be budget too. so contradicting sia.... hai

went for a phonics workshop organised by the bookshop i'm working in and i tell you man, you must really pei fu those teaching phonics as it is so hard to teach or should i say tat i have no clue at all on wat the speaker is talking about and i think i got lost 85% during the class keep having the -_-'' look and speaker keep asking me things tat i dun even know seems like embarrassing me hai. still got 4 more classes to go but i think i will be missing one due to chalet and left 3 more hope i wont get lost inside haha.

tonight went out for dinner with family, long time never do tat le and the best thing is tat i mange to drive =) however it was raining so visibility a bit poor and i have been driving a bit fast and got scolded by dad =(

dad is strict in his own way when it comes to driving, will scold you for the slightest thing but it seems reasonable after all so cant argued with him since he has been driving for so long and is his car. =( but nonetheless, i am happy to drive the car hehe. my average driving of the car is almost like less than 3-5 times in 3 months, tat's long and i am glad that i have not gotten very rusty and at the same time my parking has been improving each time hehe.

*PS: alw need a few time to park a vertical parking but now is about 1-2 times so is improving and my mum was shocked too since i hardly drive =)

so proud of myself =)

need to iron, watch anime and do work now. jia you then.

tata

23.08.08

2008-08-23T18:58:00.003+08:00

Tomolo is supposed to be a special day for me and dear but i dun think so now as we have quarrelled this morning and have been on 'cold war' since then. to think that i specially take a off from my work and thought will be celebrating with him but forget it.... just thinking and talking about it piss me off. Hai.

anyway, i didnt realise that i have been looking at ppl's blog for more than one hour plus, really what a way to waste my time =x

need to be reading up and studying what i have been studying for the past 2 weeks, yes it has been already 2 weeks but what i have learn in this 2 weeks seems like more than what i learn usually in the past -_-''

have to start to buck up and have more time for my studies as all lecturers have alerted and warned us not just once but alot of time that year 3 that wont be a supp paper for any module. fail means fail. wth... hai have to buck up.

sometimes i use to think if i really getting useless and helpless about my studies. i'm not llike what i used to be in the past, will study and will not fail or even think of deferring from exam but it seems like i'm getting the idea that i'm not cut to be student hai. pressure is piling up and it's so hard to get rid. results have proven what it takes. and i wonder why though some feel tat i study more or got the study look will fail modeul when those who dun seems or like to study never fail at all. though they may pass but is still a pass but my result fail is alw a FAIL! hai

dun feel like blogging at all... how i wish there is a device where they can record what you say and translate it into words without the need to type =p

tata

going to watch my itzura na kiss and do my project and after that is ds time! yipiee!

*ps i was damn piss that i got my game overwrite by an old data.
wth -_-''

3rd day of the new term...

2008-08-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

Today just had my 3rd lesson for my yr 3 term 2 and guess what, it seems like i am in either a seminar or likely in a research class as the module(about international biz) become so professional and so real in that sense that what my lecturer is so history and happen in now in the current situation. hehe. and i must pei fu him as he can remenber his fact and figures so clearly (wonder if it is true hehe) but he seem so knowledgable and makes me so knowledgableafter his class and also make me feels so stress as i have to prepare alot for this module and know the current happenings well as wat lect says was it is tested on the current affairs. hai. sian sian stress....

Since the start of school i have been spending $$ le, bought an international bk for $65.50, need to pay for my phone bill nearly $100 and i dunno why so expensive sob sob. still have to spend money for chalets all that. really money not enough!!! ( though i haven watch it yet =( )

have been very tired and lethagic since the start of sch and i guesss i will feel better i hope so....
came back from work just, dunno why today so many patients and it drag till 9.30 pm =( cant rest early. now damn tired but i have to go bath and do my jap hw to submit tml sobs sobs ....

want to zzz.....
but how to.....
help me........

1 month later....

2008-08-07T12:04:00.002+08:00

I guess i have missed my jlpt class for a month (4 lessons) and to think that i have spent a bomb on it but wat i learn there are disappointing, is just worksheets and practices and going thru at the end of the day. i dunno how effective it is and how well i can make it thru this yr jlpt. going to register with my jap fren tml though i can register from sch but i scare that they will know how much u score and grade u so hence, change my mind hehe. play safe. i scare i cant make it to it again which i hope not as i dun want the $ and the time spent on it go down to the drain hence must jia you. what's more the exam is after my uni exam in late nov and i wonder how am i going to cope again hai. have to start now i guess. no matter how not-motivated i am have to try then... sob sob.

cant even have a good rest during my break and not only got to work but the period has come to pay me a visit. wth make me so sick for the first few days hai.

now slacking, dun feel like going to work later as i haven finish my hw. alw drag to last min and have no mood in doin hai sian....

p.s. i can go to sch last wk but i pon cos haven finish hw. wat a lame execuse.... shhh....

DS on the way... yippie!

2008-08-05T21:00:00.003+08:00

Left about 5 more days to starting on school hai haven been enjoying yet have to start school soon sob sob =(

Redang trip is cancelled and we have change to 3 days 2 nites instead as andy and gf for some reason not going, then my bf cant go and hear from boon that the season may have monsoon hence cancelled and change to chalet instead. Though still in spore, but just hope tat it canbe enjoyable after all i feel that the thing is that we get to be together and enjoy our times! Having not been able to meet up alw hence it would be a good time to get together and enjoy! Looking forward to it!

Has been delaying on buying DS since before exam till now. Initially thought of not buying cos over a certain time was crazy over it but it die off, but the interest to it came back after a month later and then have been trying to get hold on it. initially strike a deal on last sat with my fren's god bro but it backfired as he say tat he is unable to provide a good deal for me and hence i have to source other. finally, just confirm my order via a blog and will be collecting soon =) happy!

It costs me about 300 i guess (including warranty and casing) and it is bought by someone for me. hehe. Though it is not the color that i initially wanted ( light blue) but i have chosen metallic rose which i feel that i will grow to love the color and at most i replace it with the casing that i want hehe. guess will be collecting tomorrow or thurs, hopefully the earlier the better.

I know that it is not a big deal to own DS or PSP now cos it has been in the market for a long time, but to me it has a special meaning to me and it is so far the thing that i yearn so much. I dun usually have such yearn for stuff as brands or things to me is either have it or dun. haha....

hence looking forward for it!!!
=)

Gone with the wind

2008-07-30T01:12:00.002+08:00

Exams are officially OVER!!!
EC, USM, ASM and HRM all be gone...
Gone with the wind, hope when the time u fly back, it will be with flying colors (i hope so)

Talk abt last paper, never sleep the whole night of mon (28/7/08) just to stay up and finish writing and reading thru HRM, Being slacking for the weekend and thus unable to study hai or should i say, motivation has long gone holidays and not coming back to stay hehe.

i know very cranky but sometime too many things to write, but writing out is another thing.

Just a short overview of last week,
Mon - EC
Wed - USM & work
Fri - ASM (spent a long time to complete it, wth)
Sat - Slack whole day, watch anime after anime. I love itazura na kiss and special A. how?
Sun - Pon jap class to go to Callen's first month (he is sooooo cute and chubby!!! loves to see babies)

All exams driving me nuts term by term, getting worse and worse, need medication to calm me down and i think it wont be long that i'll be invited to MH for check up, check if i am too cranky during the exams, suffering from depression, too crazy over in need of $$$. Anyone who know anyone that can help me, let me know.

Holidays are here to stay, but i dun think i can enjoy it need to work... sob sob. (no $$$, do nth) only can work n work n work nth else.

Today after HRM, went to dar dar's house for a home-make lunch, he cooks all by himself (though all are almost instant made, just need to heat up/ cook it but he done a great job, quite nice. Oh by the way, we had fish n chips for lunch, with a bowl of campbell's chicken soup and gardenia's garlic bread. Look out for the pictures as dar has taken pictures as memory of the first time cooking for gf. hehe so xinfu!!!

Later we went to P.S for dinner, wanted to watch movie but have to go home early, need to get stuff from jap fren and wanted to watch CSI cos miss 2 episodes the previous weeks due to exam, but guess wat, my effort are down to the drain, instead ch 5 is showing the Mon's match between Singapore and Brazil. Make me 空欢喜一场. 我的妈啊...

now loading and watchin anime though i am dead tired cos i dunno wat to do other than anime hehe, my favorite. tata then

p.s. i love ur lunch =)

2 more to go...'bad' student.

2008-07-24T18:19:00.003+08:00

Leave 2 more papers to go. Tomolo need to submit the report. finally!!!!
It has been dragging me for a very long time and have affect my 2 previous sob sob.
The previous 2 papers have been tough... Everytime study the number of question but always not all came out, only one came out and nothing. The others are those that i have read thru only sob sob.

Leave HRM only and i hope that i can do well for that paper as the previous two all i hope was pass.... justhope that this wish will come thru.... hai....

There has not been anything recently. hai, all that i can say is that i pon class pon alot that i have become a 'bad' student. hehe.

Left one more paper to go and i can be free and relax. dunno wat i will be doing during holidays but then i may need to work everyday after holidays. so ma fun hai cant even rest a while sob sob.

I'm not the gal who is poor, no time for myself and damn busy. sob sob...
I want my freedom!!!
I need $$$$

hehe
=p

*PS. need to rush for project and finish it!!!!

Busy weekend; 8 days to 1st exam

2008-07-12T18:42:00.002+08:00

Mum decided to cook today so help her and in the end, no works has been done on my side =(

morning: went to help mum carried stuff back from marketing and left it the way it is as mum has to go out for a while, so eat breakfast while watching Pokemon, hehe. after that study a bit and she came home.

afternoon: no lunch and help her to pluck vegetables. yes pluck them away from the stems. and do other misc stuff till 3 plus. rest a while then help her with the cooking, can say that the food is nice and delicious and i'm still very bloated (had dinner at 6pm).

feeling contented... =)

now: intend to do up my e-commerce so that can send to my grp mates as they have already sent their part to me, so have to edit a bit and send to them. after tat hope to finish up ASM, at least have a body for the parts i haven touch yet, at least look i really finish but need editing.

Telling myself not to slack but it seems the case never happen. and tomorrow and mon will be packed as well, help me!

1 more week till first paper. not to say haven send to sir for clarification if i'm on the right track. hai. haven finish reading thru, studyin thru, writin thru and not to say memorise and understand what is needed for me to do hai....

sian sian sian....
die die die.....
save save save me!!!!

ps. tomorrow got work at clinic (1st time working longer hours dunno can cope or not; and if can wake up ma and after that got jap class. hai), mon - work cos mid of the month, to help with billing and clinic in the night. cant really skip clinic hai.

Random thoughts

2008-07-06T21:33:00.002+08:00

I wonder why people get so sensitivce and insecure when others just send their greetings to them? is it a wrong thing to do? why i have those treatment. Word of concern seems so wrong that you have to avoid? Just what is wrong. Perhaps i have become insensitive and my words become too blunt for people to accepts? I wonder....

Left 2 weeks till first paper have yet to done anything though previous post state what is to be done hai. But 事事都不如意， WHY????

难道要先苦后甜吗？没别的办法了吗？
需要一点希望来克服眼前的问题，好让一切回复原状。
救救我吧！！！

Anyone willing to lend a hand to me? hai

Things to do...

2008-07-04T21:09:00.002+08:00

Things to do:
- finish my ASM
- start reading up
- preparing for notes
- preparing to stop work
- re-engerize for exam
- send sir on my answers (if possible)
- stop slacking and get on to work
- STOP WATCHING ANIME!!!

My favorite song right now:

Title: I'm Yours
Artist: Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

There's no need to complicate
Coz our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

P.S. i love you...

18 days and counting down

2008-07-03T19:42:00.002+08:00

18 more days to the first exam and i cant believe that i have yet to start any of more readings or preparation. Slacky these days and no one to blame to but myself. given a dateline to finish my report last week but i gave yet to start any and not to say about my preparation. finally when i was prepared to give my best and planning to plan my work, i was down with food poisoning. hai. not to say that i was supposed to be in orchard for my jap class, have to skip one more lesson hai.

time flies and is the second half of the year and not to say that exams are coming. hai hope to do well this term to make up for last term and to pull up my results to get 2/1. but all these have a price to pay and not by saying only. so hope i have the strength and put in effort to the exam. how i wish i can be like my cousin -in -laws, who got A for every module and i dunno how he manage to do it despite having a job and family to look after. really 佩服. and congrats to him for having a baby boy. born on mon i think.

What i have done last week and this half week:
- Finish watching absolute boyfriend (ぜったいかれし）, vampire knight
- Bought my first online products
- Slack for a week
- Spent $50 ++ in NTUC
- Watch movie (Kungfu Panda)
- clear my table

hai wat an achievement =p

Happy Anniversary!

2008-06-25T11:41:00.003+08:00

Met up with dear yesterday to celebrate our anniversary. long time never celebrate and kind of looking forward to it. met him after my class which happens to be the last day of school before closing for exam break. went to PS to catch a show: Kungfu Panda. know it is a very old show but both of us still want to watch it cos received good reviews from frens. Not bad and quite funny haha. had a good laugh. after that just went window shopping and i bought a pair of slippers. nice colors as chosen by dear. he had a good taste after working in Robinson =p

dear surprise me by bringing me to couple lab and bought couple ring. cos he feel tat the old one like it said is already old and the design kind of faded, so it's time to get a new one. i treat the ring as one of the gifts for our 6th year anniversary (ya awaiting many more gifts to come haha). ya is very long. 6 years and i guess not a lot of people knew we had been very long. haha. but time had proved to us that we had withstand all obstacles . so happy love u muacks.

so we went window shopping, playing mario karts, shop at john little, daiso, couple lab. dinner went to ichiban sushi and the food was quite nice, filling and affordable. will try it again =)

Tuesday blues

2008-06-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

I just went for a haircut just now, trim my hair and cut more layers but my mum still think that it’s still long haha. Thought of cutting hair becos the weather is too hot, hair too heavy and I want to cut some hair to reduce my burden. Just like what they say: 三千烦恼思. Too many problems these days; with projects, homework, studying, work and relationship hai.

These days I dunno is becos I have been piling my feelings or I have changed or what. Hai feel so lost and isolated and no one to turn to but what to do. Forget it and get on with life. How they treat me I just bear with it. Things I hate most is being taken for granted and seems like a fool. Want to backstab or what say in front of me dun show me two side of you. You expect me to help you and when I need your help you turn your back against me, is it the way you ought to do? I’m sick of acting in front of you. Why cant I be the way I want to be. Just what you want me to do. I will try to learn to be smart and not be manipulated by you anymore. I’ve been truthful to you and this is what I get in the end, then fine. I got nothing to say and I will go with the flow then.

Now have to rush my assignment as I heard that one of my fren has completed her work and that’s so fast. Hai I have not do anything at all and I’m worried and panicking but nothing seems to go the way I wanted. Just what is happening to me, I’m lost hai. Been very tired these days and tends to get sleepy, perhaps my body is reaching its limit to my busy schedule hai. Didn’t even have the time to recover nor relax at all. Nothing seems to be helpful. Hai. Please give me more time and strength to get thru this period of time, though it may drag to year end.
The more I want the thing to do it my way, the worse it stray away from the course. What the hell hai.

Exams in 1 month’s time and I have done nothing,
AND I hope HISTORY WONT REPEAT ITSELF ANYMORE!!!

BYE TO HISTORY!!!

random thoughts

2008-06-15T21:13:00.002+08:00

long time nevr blog le but first

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUAI EN AND ENG HOW!!!

wish that you are stay happy and healthy and all your wishes come true!

=)

recently have been thinking alot about numbers.

Yes numbers, what do you think of numbers?
In my view, numbers show a no. of things like:
- money $$$
- age
- results
- weight
- seat no
- bus no and many more.

Think the numbers that revolve around me that are so sensitive are weight and results haha.

Well weight, everyone hope to be slim and have the weight they yearn for, well so do i, but just that i need to slim down, must exercise hah. Results for exams all that are also important as they indicated how well you perform, but no doubt, results that are bad does not mean that you never put in effort, but also becos of luck, on the paper and the cohort of the group taking the same exam. Well i got my results for last term and i fail one module Market research by 2 marks and tat piss me alot that's why i sound like tat. haha, dun want to think that i never put effort but true enough, i really didnt put in alot effort and that indeed impact and affect me alot hai.

but now trying to get over and have project to do and i dun seems to be getting anywhere. hai, and i quaarel with bf with things that i dun wan to talk about it.

i know it is my fault to lie, but telling you the truth didnt make me feel better and why cant u understand. hai tell you the truth you dun like, dun tell you and it makes me guilty, so is it really true that i should straight to your face.

Sorry is all i can say now and hope that u accept my sincere apologies.

sorry.

2 months to exams

2008-05-25T19:57:00.001+08:00

Exams in two month and have yet to prepare for it and have to do a project this term. hope that i can just buck up and excel in everything i do. i dun wan the history to repeat itself nor i want to have the same feeling again. hai

One page write up is due tomolo and have yet to start have to start soon. recently, things arent getting the way i wanted and i'm pissed with everything. why all these things happen to me? Physical and mental strength are weakening and i dunno what i can do to boost it and definitely not going to let it drop till 0 too. hai. Project, results for last term, jap, uni, jlpt and work are piling up that i cant breathe.Is like i'm carrying tons of burden that is 1000 times than my strength and on the verge of been crushed to death by them hai. someone help pls.

きょからがんばります！

Bad Start

2008-05-21T10:05:00.002+08:00

F**k, ealry in the morning quarrel with my mum. I should have go to work instead of staying at home to do my research. Every time stay with her alone at home nothing good will come out, alway end up quarrel as usual. She think she is so big ah, always just know how to say me all tat, bias towards the other two sis. Say she bias she always say where got. Bloody hell, just faking on things that you did for them and denying it. What have you done for me? Nothing, i only when i need $ very desperately for fees all that then i find you other than that what have i ask from you.

Always say my attitude sucks wat about yourself. my attitude and character is all been brought up by you or else why they say like father like son, like mother like daughter. only know how to praise yourself, you really think you know it all? You dun even know what i like or dislike about food. so simple thing you also dunno, whereas sis all tat wat they like all tat you know. This two years, only buy clothes during new year time or sometime only yet you keep saying i buy alot. Go see all the cousins around my age and then define your alot. Always say they are they, wat about me, i am who i am, why you keep using your damn old and traditional thinking to judge me. Go ask anyone who would lend them the jacket or accessories that their bf buy to mother and sister. I may be selfish but wat about you, did you think wat you do is right ma? Asking people to lend their bf's gift to their siblings is that the right thing to do also.

Just becos of a jacket and you quarrel with me and say i side my bf, go think wat you say does it make sense ma. i just treasure things he buy and you are all out to insult me all tat. even if i end up with him or not in the future is my problem, even if future have to stay with his parents all that also my problem, why you care so much. If you really care, you wont insult me at all be it you very angry or wat.

Say wat only ring and necklace cant be borrow out, what kind of crap is this, only this two cant borrow out, then borrow out all others can ah. Bet you also never share things with your siblings too and now expect me to do. what the hell.

How i wish i can be in those drama, or come from rich family, stay by my own or study overseas without you being around, just give me allowance and all those monetary can le, dun need your care and concern, seem so worthless....

20 May 08

2008-05-20T10:31:00.002+08:00

Just had a 3 days break but it seems that i haven been doing things that i ought to do. Have an assignment module this term and i have yet to find the company that i want to do and we have to submit the company chosen this week. Wanted to wait for lecturer to tell us the information before doing it but i guess it's hard and maybe will be good to do it before the announcement, at least have a headstart on what is going to happen hai.

This whole week will be only 2 modules inter-related and be taught by the same lecturer. hai. hopefully everything will turn out well and i will have motivation to study since i always have motivation to work haha. suppose to go work one but call office and no one pick up and i feel that when i go there will be late and wont be able to work long so cross out the mind of going in today hehe.

Exams in 2 months' time and i dunno what i have been studying, everything seem alien to me and i hope that i will grab hold of this alien's module and do well. When exam dates are close, it will also mean that the last term's result will be out soon. perhaps this few weeks and i do not want to receive it as i was covered with fear of not able to perform well due to my depression and last min studies. of cos, dun hope that the history will NOT repeat itself.

Busy busy and only leave 1 month of lectures and tutorials le. hope to maximise all my understanding! That's all for now.

2008-05-11T22:02:00.002+08:00

Lots of thing has happened recently.

- Spent a bomb on 3 face products at body shop; spent $100 plus (+ mum's mother day gift)
- Wasted one week of break
- Started my jap class after 1 week break (got retain sob sob =( )
- Got my pay for the month (all 3)
- Got paid by govt
- Bought a $60+ textbook (so far the most ex textbook i bought)
- Chat with dear very long on the phone till wee hours
- Have not study what i learn for the 3 weeks of uni lessons
- Recovered from flu
- Went to eat Shokudo with jap frens
- Take various of bus to reach school from office
- Been extremely tired this week
- Finally mange to get hold of 恋空漫画1
- Waste a bomb on cab today (even took the most ex taxi starting @ $3.20. wth)
- Slimming down (haha hoping for more)
- Cook for the family on labor day (when mum is not around)
- Read thru the notes that i have photocopy
- Read and listen thru the jap conversation book that i have bought
- Starting to prepare for prep course for jap and starting soon for uni (hope will pass all last term's exam)
- Wash my pencil case, cloth and all

All this to start anew for a brand new life; more healthy, more well manage schedule and of cos happier life!

=) looking forward!

End of April

2008-04-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

Very fast is already month end and it means that i'm getting my pay and going to spend it! Ya spend it for transport, pay off my bills and cpf and left nothing else not even saving. hai. this has been going on for a year( since i start my uni) and i have been thinking if i have done the right thing of studyin full time instead of part time as part time not only got monthly salary that can save and spend but also gradually pay off the uni fee which my frens are doing. So by the end of the uni, they will have to just pay back to their parents perhaps few thousand remaining and nothing else, but for me, is another case.. I have calculated, by the end of my uni, i will have an outstanding of perhaps SGD $25,000! and maybe more as my parent loan me the money and have to pay hai.

Whatever i'm earning now is to meet my daily needs and monthly needs for payments and NOT saving hai. Alot to write always but when it comes to typing, it tires me out... Tons of things to say yet type only few para hai. next time i should really buy a PDA or Tablet PC so i can treat it as writing rather than typing. feel like i love writing than typing.

Tomolo will be 3rd week of school and kind of still slacking which i shouldnt do it yet i did, hai. Seems to be breaking promise set for myself , and forgeting the bad memory that i did not wan to repeat again. Mind is turning slow, memory is failing and i hate myself this way. Memory becoming damn short, cant remenber wat i say 30 seconds ago. hai maybe need to check my brain see if any problems. hai.

Going to pay for nearly 600 plus of money on jap, for both pre advance and jlpt preparatory course. but with my brain like that, started to worry hai. dunno just let the nature takes its course.

been very tired recently, perhaps that my sat has been burn since i went back to work at the bookshop and i have to not only manage 3 jobs but 2 studies as well, leaving little time for myself hai. hope that i can plan my time well and relax. actually feel less stress compare with last week so should be a good sign, have to buck up and do my best.

getting tired of typing, signing off then.

Jya ne

Start of the new month: April

2008-04-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

Just went to see one of my ex classmate's blog. Though she and i are not that close but feel happy for her as she has just uploaded her new born baby's photo so cute really happy for her and congratulations to her and her baby.

Time flies, today is already the second day of April. and if i'm able to go japan with my jap frens, i think i have already reach there yesterday afternoon le. sob sob... miss the chance, so sad. hai.

After exam my life hasn't change much as before and i think i will be more busy as i got another job, at where my aunt is working at the clinic and the doctor is my family doctor! Quite funny and confused feelings cos i have been the doc's patient and now becomes his staff haha. not bad quite fun for the first day on mon. colleagues are friendly and helpful though only 2 of them plus 1 is my cousin really can learn alot so ok, i think is better than f&b cos f&bno doubt you will be exposed to interacting with cust, but nth more is learn other than that, unless you are the in charge or cashiering all that. so no offends to those working in f&b industry cos i work before too, just my view towards it now.

What bothers me now is my bookshop job, dun feel like going back to work cos:
1. pay too low
2. lot of things to do
3. dun think will get pay rise
4. need to work long hours then more pay
5. boss seems to be stingy lately haha

above are 5 big reasons that i dun wan to work there, but working there also got its ' good, i get to know more things abt early childhood, time is flexible and relaxing when no cust around. but it seems like cant weigh over the bads haha so hai confused. dunno how to reject the offer then is good. thought of workin for her on sat but i feel that i wont be able to have time to study and i just hope can pass for all exam taken earlier this week cos i dun wan the same old bad memory and habits reviving again hai. hence have to plan well.

decided this is wat i am going to do after my 2 weeks break and when new term starts.
here goes:
Mon to fri mornings - work for uncle
Mon to fri afternoon - school time (follow most unchanged schedule)
Mon, Wed and fri nites - clinic
if plus bookshop then sat - bookshop
SUN - JAP CLASS

again my week are fully packed and i'm desperate for $$$. hai

trying to save up to buy DS and money for my sept trip (though unplan) with poly frens but becos they work full time coughin out few hundreds will be much easier than me who earns barely to meet my monthly ends =(

Sleeping soon... tata

oyasumi nasai

1 more exam to go...

2008-03-29T21:07:00.002+08:00

Left mon's exam which is econ the one with the highest FAILURE rate!!! Though this time they have change the format but i think the diffculty will still be there bah. Well since the lecturer not happy with the failure rate doesnt mean she wont reduce the standard haha.

Format has change to 20 mcq and 2 essay qn instead of 3 essay which may be good. but it may be bad too cos it may mean that the essay may be tougher and here i am still slacking omg....

Other exams are killer and i really hope can pass can le. cos this time i'm totally prepare for it ans during the break to study before for exam, i think i'm suffering from depression, maybe due to over stress and i can read a chapter or any one of my module including marketin(which i hate) for 3 hrs and writing notes for it worse 4 to 5 hr for ONLY ONE CHAPTER!!! how to finish studyin?

First paper: marketing -> dead cos went into the hall brain dead and wat i remenber to mixed up and i forget totally. really hope just pass happy le. hai

Second paper: Resource planning -> manage to finish studying and came out what i study but i forget some -_-'' hai manage to do and finish same hope to pass too.

Third paper (yesterday): - > DEFINITELY THE ONE I HOPE TO PASS BADLY COS I STUDY ALOT OF THE TOPIC AND IT DIDNT CAME OUT. WTF. we do some prediction feel tat those that came up recently wont came out and will came out those long time never came out one but we are WRONG!!!!

INSTEAD IT CAME OUT THOSE THAT HAVE CAME UP LAST TERM AND I NEVER STUDY ONE!!!! WTH.

And when i see the qn, my brain went blank cos nth seems to be familiar one as i didnt study one all came out. only 1 which i only read thru came out and i manage to do it but not good enough and the other one i glance thru before cos is a calculation plus theory so i thought if the calculation can get the marks why not although is only 30 marks and 70 marks for theory. So kind of lucky cos the theory is more to the pros and cons then i use wat i can think of to back up lo hai.

Never feel so lost and so last min studying and writing notes too omg. hope next term wont happen. guess i really overstress and too intense. all these cause me to suffer and having headach and all sickness at one go oh my....

exam be gone fast be gone....

or i will be the one be gone.....

1 week before first exam

2008-03-17T22:55:00.001+08:00

Exactly 1 week before exam, not prepare and still slacking...

what the hell...

oh god, PLEASE help ME!!!

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

2008-02-25T03:57:00.002+08:00

One year older again and time flies, was still thinking how to celebrate my bday cos last year didnt celebrate becos fall during CNY that period but this year is not good either as it falls on weekday and it's a monday blues.

Suppose to be sleeping now but becos i have to submit a tutorial by 6 am later, have to rush it as i have been dragging it too long and hence now have to sacrifice my sleeping time to make up for not doing it earlier. hai. sad sad. just hope that this tutorial will score well though the marks is not part of the module just want to do well haha.

Result for the other 2 modules are out and i'm really not pleased with my QMM (statistics) thought can get A but got B and is a JUST B. OMG, dunno wat happen, perhaps they have make the bell shaped curve so narrow as alot who got As are High A and quite a few fail or just pass. And the Most Annoying thing is that we cant review the paper even if we are willing to pay for the viewing. WTF. Thinking of that just piss me off and i have been feeling demotivated ever since i knew cant review even though i pass. Just bu gan xin. Even my OD i short of 1 mark i'm not even this fed-up. MUST COMPLAINT but no one is supporting, all those who initially wanted have sort of given up. hai WHY?

alot of thing to blog but i guess i will update it again when i free...

Got to zzz le as later i got to wake up at 7. What the hell. HELP!!!

New Year Week...

2008-02-11T22:02:00.001+08:00

Today is the 4th day of chinese new year. suppose to go to work but then stomach not well so didnt go and stay at home. want to do my 5 essays and jap hw but not motivated hai. been playing psp (cousin lend me) and watchin online anime. so this is how an afternoon is wasted in my hands not to mention last week when i was having study break. worse still nothing has accomplished!!! need to rush. hai

1 has to send to fren to edit on 15 so die die must finish cos it is tutorial qn and have to submit on 18th (mon). so basically can say all must be done by this week.

receive terina (uni ) and jiayi (best fren since sec sch)'s present. Terina gave me a small square glass bottle filled with chocolate eggs and jiayi gave me kino voucher (which i request or else maybe hippo again haha. cos i'm a crazy fan of hippo). this way not only i can buy the jap book i want and also the money will be well used. Anyway, thanks gal.

V day and birthday is coming has yet to plan what to do on these two days cos fall on weekday so kind of hard to meet up with dear cos he is studyin while i'm working hai. not expecting much lah cos no energy to plan haha. as u know i'm not the creative kind but i expect ppl to do creative things for me wahaha. so hard on dear.

hongbaos didnt receive alot cos didnt go visitin due to some reasons and then i think this is the only time when all of the cousins are gathered together to do things together. (cos we go visitng in a big grp every year yeah!) enjoy that kind of visiting cos only that time feel that it is really new year.

These few years feel that that is no longer much atmosphere in the air to announce that it is new year time. only chinatown feels the atmosphere, while my area seems like normal day nothing special. hai. 越来越没气氛.

最近, 情绪很不好动不动就发脾气. 难为了dear. 在这对你说声对不起. 或许作业做完后就不会再经经常发起脾气.

很多事总是想写下可是一要写的时候总是想缩短,快写完就好.总比没写好.哈哈!

晚安.　　おやすみなさい。

1 more week to Chinese New Year!

2008-01-31T22:50:00.000+08:00

Have not been feeling well these few days, either got flu if not is sore throat and dry cough making me easily irritated and pissed off cos new year coming and now i in this condition definitely will not enjoy the new year goodies moreover eat them haha.

Went out with Uni fren today for the first time (apart from first clubbing), quite a nice experience and went to fish and co for lunch. food is nice and just nice, plus we got discount too so can say worth it and each pay $15 for mussels, seafood platter and sambal fish.

After that we went to Zara and taka to shop, follow by centrepoint as serene want to change shirt, and after that went home quite tiring as today's lesson the course book is heavy hai, shoulder nearly break haha but still manage the pain till get home.

This evening is also my saddest day as i got 2 of my module results for last term ok i should say cos i only expect pass cos 1 module have to do 3 but i only do 2 due to leak of time so hopefully can pass and it did so ok loh at least no Donkey (D) for this term. Keeping my finger cross for the other 2 module.

VEry tired these days and feel like a zombie due to lack of sleep and feel tired easily plus now holiday 'season' keep on shopping and never go work make myself even slacky and turning more to zombie wahaha.

Die alot of things to do but done nothing hai.

sleeping soon i hope.... (Lazy to elaborate anymore haha)

Sian Sian

2008-01-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for almost two weeks, busy as usual. Mon to fri - study and work after that. sat went to work bookshop and sun suppose to have a break but i have jap lesson and is at afternoon but quite fun though the sensei is the senior teacher and look very fierce.

Initially not very used to her teaching cos very strict and she want us to speak in full sentence and with polite, not those like you talk to fren hah. so not used and initially she want us to think fast but come to think of it is a good thing to do and now manage to cope with it and get to know how her style is though sometime i am still lost in her sentence have to ask fren. Luckily my fren sittin beside me is an expert haha.

Very tired nowadays cos not able to rest all that plus full of thing everyday and dun even have time to train then how to slim down haha. hai a tough thing to do hai. want to stop work but hard.

These days i'm angry with my parents cos they dun allow me to go japan with my jap fren during april. hai borrow money from them also cant have to stuck in singapore again. they that time go australia and i didnt go now i wan to go also cant hai.

Fri meet ai zai gang out to celebrate keng's birthday @ kbox cineleisure. Buy their karaoke plus buffet package about 40 bucks each pax but they charge less haha and also quite fun meeting them again. Plus boon is also there to join us since he MIA for a long time so good to have him back to the gang haha.

After that we went to starbuck at wisma to have a catch up and they intend to go on holiday just like last year but this time is going to either thailand, taiwan or hongkong but yet to confirm cos keng dun wan to go thailand, shari dun wan to go taiwan cos she is going in april with company so hard haha. i suggest japan but expensive. haha. out of point so now dunno. hope that this time will be able to go. looking forward.

Suppose to do research for my econ now but come blogging haha. now have to do and do a good job since i request from lecturer that i hand in tomolo instead of last thurs. haha.

ganbate!

2008 Plans

2008-01-06T00:33:00.000+08:00

One week of 2008 has past and this will be my first blog. Haven been blogging alot as been too busy these days. Work everyday and now even sun are taken up (jap class starts again), dun even have the time to rest moreover dating haha. Just meet my poly's fren to celebrate andy's b'day. Quite fun, ate at manhanttan (andy's paying, dunno why and he say he treat), then went to eat Hokkaido ice cream which i thought was hearto haha make a mistake. Later went to TCC for a chat. Finally get together cos ah boon dunno how long have been MIA has finally join us haha. Nice outing hehe.

Have yet to plan what to accomplish for 2008 but have give a rough thought though haha. Here goes:

- To slim down wahaha
- To study even harder so that can aim to the honors i want
- To earn more $$$ to meet ends (if possible win lottery)
- To remenber things better (poor memory these days)
- To be able to have more fashion sense
- To be able to do more things with dear
- To control my temper more
- To have better skin
- To be better in japanese
- To be able to go holiday (possible japan or hongkong)
- To have more free time
- To clear as much debts as possible
- Hope to move house and have a room of my own (not within my control though)

Things to buy/ do:
- specs
- DS lite or PSP
- Do braces
- Do facial at affordable rate

I suppose that is what i want for the time being. My motto is " SAY OUT MUST DO IF NOT DUN SAY AT ALL!"

Btw, i was suppose to promote my fren blog as she is selling online clothes. Do have a look and i think her clothes are trendy and not that expensive.

Her blog is: ladykirei.blogspot.com (Pls have a look!)

Now have to struggle to do my report, due on monday. sob sob hai tata

Signing out...

45 things a girl wants but won't ask for

2007-12-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hang out with her and your friends together.
11. Do smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more,deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say I love her more than you, deny it fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends it makes her feel loved.Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love youwhenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around thewaist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel abouther.One last thing you need to do to showher you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22 . Do tell her she is you’re everything -only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something wrong, it meansSHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KIN’DA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US
26. DON'T LIE to HER.
27. DON'T CHEAT on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text message or call her in themorning and tell her have a good day atwork {or school}, and how much youMISS her.
30. Be there for her whenever sheneeds you, & even when she doesn'tneed you, just be there so she'll knowthat she can ALWAYS count on you.ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTERDO ITBECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT
31. Hold her close when she's cold soshe can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her closeand kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK, (it willgive her the hint that you want to kissher).
34. While in the movies, put your armaround her and then she willautomaticall y put her head on yourshoulder, then lean in and tilt herchin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Don’t EVER tell her to leave evenjokingly or act like you're mad. Ifshe’s upset, comfort her.REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU AREWITH HER NEXT
36. When people DISS her, stand up forher.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tellheryou love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and putherhead on your chest so she can listen tothe steady beat of your heart, Linkyourfing ers together while you whisper toher as she rests her eyes and listenstoyou .
39. When walking next to each othergrabher HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in yourarms as long as possible.MAK E SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED
41. Call or MESSAGE her at night towishher SWEET DREAMS.
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipeaway her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS REMINDE her how much youlove her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her howmuch u love her and then bend down toher face and kiss her while sitting onher.

You will never know when she needs just a little more love.

2007-12-25T20:11:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas to all. Long time never blog le hehe

been very busy and tired these few days; attending b'day party, shopping for gifts, busy earning $$ and studying hard at school wahaha. alot of things to do yet little time but at least all time are worth while. haha

very busy and didnt celebrate christmas but went to have dinner with dear (yah ok with him le) haha. ate at swensens and have fondue too damn nice and full but we never have pics of it wahaha.

school starts the second week le and seems that module is getting harder and harder compare with the previous term so must buck up. and plus too many holidays tends to slack alot too so muct buck up. Tomolo sch will start again after 4 days of rest hai. so stressful now hai and have to work. haha

watch alvin and chipmunks damn nice and must watch though i feel that the story can be extended and the ending can be bette and not seems so rush. well my view haha.

very lazy nowaday to blog haha so pardon me!

busy week

2007-12-14T10:28:00.000+08:00

Have been helping my uncle and begin to work at his office more to data entry but then it is better than the bookshop (cos the $$ is more and better benefit haha - uncle drive me home so save $$ cos aunt's workplace at my house there haha. earning and saving $$ at the same time where got so good but indeed so good haha.) bookshop pay is only $5 and quite alot of work to do so not that good lo but there is livelier than mu uncle's cos there got 4-5 ppl while my uncle there only got 2, he and the accountant so kind of boring. haha.

been working hard to earn $$ so as to pay back wat i loan from mum and then can start to save $$ without any loan accumulated. things are ok so far but very tired cos didnt even got time to rest after the weeks' of preparing and taking exams so very tired. maybe he is right cos he is now enjoying his holiday at home and not working just playing games, watching anime and relaxing, while i have to work to earn $$$ different lives and perspectives hai. that's why we drift apart. dun wan to talk about him and just let the things goes it nature course since no one is doing anything. he is not doing the thing i want and i'm not taking the thing he is doing ( or never do at all). getting draggy and tired of it and wan to leave it as it is.

if we are fated to be together things will be done, changes will be made but if not too bad then. parting may be better for both of us then. i'm look very positively now towards this, not going to let myself have the excuse of i love him but i couldn't put down the relationship since we have been together so long hence thing have to be made and i have done it -> i have force myself to put down the relationship and not regret thinking that we have been so long and this happen. not going to let this go over me for this will only drag on and cause more pain and hurt between us that are so wounded already.

hence thinking positively ios the way to do it be it you like it or not and to get on with life. i have no life at all and now it is time for me to get some life out of myself!

school starting on mon and have to prepare anything cos too lazy and tired, rather watch manga or anime after coming home from work then to pack things hai. perhaps tomolo have to do it and have a clean desk before the start of new term. jia you bah!

Weekend's here

2007-12-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

have been workin for the past few days and very tired. didnt even have time to rest as just finish my all exams hai.

just 10 more days before the start of school and it seems so demoralizing hai. wat to do, no choice one lah but wat to do hai have to change my feelings and attitudes towards studying to prevent from anything happen like score badly for it hai.

this is the third day of cold war between dear and i. dunno wat happen everything happen just becos we missed wilber pan's concert at ntu. hai. i know tat he spend his time queuing for the tickets. whatever no point talking about it now for it will be yue miao yue hei. just leave it as he is. if he is not doing anything then so be it, i won't do anything for i dun think is my fault and i should apologize. if cant get along then dun then.

afterall these few days dun contact, he seems ok so am i then. just take it now as a warm up to get used of not having one another then. i dun see whyy i have to do things all myself and no one seems to care.

hai working tomolo again sian. hai

Holiday time

2007-12-03T12:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday just took the jlpt wah all damn hard and i think i will pass cos all is like tigam one(guessing) so not having high hope but really the japanese school was cute, with aircon and small tables and chairs and we are sitting on it, just like a giant visinting little men's country haha.

quite alot of ppl came to took the test and i suppose got maybe few thousands taking both jlpt 2 & 3. and you can see that when the exam is over, everybody rushes out of the school and waited for buses to get to the mrt damn crowded.

my jap frens and i have to walk to the previous bus stop to try our luck but then it was crowded too so we make up our mind to go to the next previous bus stop. damn find but fun cos got company. we even past by changi prison cluster and man it was hugh and then like those you seen in movies, have to drive van or cars in cos got deep. like those country clubs with golf facilities. initially we thought was air base or wat but it didnt turn out to me. man, now i know where the prison is cos initially i only know abt the existence but not the location so now know le haha.

went to ah ma's house to have dinner cos sis's birthday, the food not bad cos it is my aunt, (my sis's godma) cook one, even delicious than mum's haha. but then by the time i reach very little food leave hai. sian.

but the ice cream cake was nice ( first time eating) haha

bought donut before go ah ma's house, seems yummy

isn't it?

sat went to have a sumptuous dinner with my cousin-in-law they all cos he share the same birhtday as my sis, so have two fabulous dinner during the weekend. haha. had shark fin's , prawn, fish , vegetables @ thai village and man it was delicious especially the shark's fin, everyone of us have one small claypot size to ourselves. haha and total cost of the dinner 600+ for ten ppl. can say worth it but half of the cost came from the shark fins solely wahaha. want to eat again.

fri went to watch fred claus movie, damn nice, talk about the brotherly love between him and his younger brother who is the santa claus and a bias mum who have shower the younger brother since young. nice show.

we also have cakes for tea time at secret receipe, want to have their new york cheesecake but they dun have so disappoitning. hai but manage to try other cheesecake, not bad, now growing to love them cos i dun like cheese at all haha. a big change.

as for dinner, we had the jingle meal @ pizza hut, damn nice and filling and we cant finish at all haha. but barely manage haha.

alot of thing that i never do before i will try to do it. cos i feel tat my life is boring, with no fun, one by one i'm going to enjoy what i want!

jya

Exams' over

2007-11-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

Exams is finally over and today got a surprise. By right today's paper suppose to have to do 3 questions but then it has reduce to 2 and we are so surprised!!! Alot of the people ask and then guess wat the lecturer: DO WHAT THE QUESTION PAPER ASK YOU!

wahaha, lucky do two only or i will die cos i've been having difficulties in memorising this and i nearly breakdown for this. too hard and link alot. hai.

this website actually want to put on the web long time but never had a chance so now share with you all bah. Is about the call center settings in a funny way, damn nice and must watch!

http://www.callcentremovie.com/

Go watch and feed back to me ok? damn funny, intro by my last term lecturer. haha.

Now busy watching anime and work to earn $$$$

but now just relax before JLPT!

*ps: just amend my blog haha

bye

WBP and OD is approaching...

2007-11-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

i'm very demoralize now. no mood to study cos ims is not going to be well even though i hope it can.hai.

tues and thurs 's papers have yet to touched or study and i dunno what is going on with me?

why am i taking things so lightly when i want to score well? I have slack alot really alot...

feel like dying now....

i just hope i can memorise and remenber my notes well and i not aiming to pass well, just a pass will do.

really this is wat i hope to... pls....

something tat cheer me up is dear and his donuts.
will upload the donut soons. hai...

IMS: Big killer!

2007-11-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

today is the second paper and it's a killer. cant finish at all and lost about 1 qn marks (which is 100 marks and got to do 3 qns. hai)
wat the hell hai. cant even finish now hoping that i can just pass, 1 more donkey pls i hope. hai no choice.

two more paper to go and i really have to start mugging before this incidents of not finishing happen again hai.

i just got back driving mey sis back and one strange and kind of piss thing happen. i was at my block there carpark when there is a patrol car waiting for me to park in and i dunno why. by right they can cut and drive off but they didnt. hai cos it happen like this:

my dad's lot( he usually park de lot was empty but beside got car, so i was about to park there when i feel that my car a bit slanted and i scare later will crush with the beside car so i drive even further but didnt realise to the extent i cant park in so i waited for the patrol car to past me before moving on, but then instead they waited and off their headlight, thinking tat it affect me, so no choice, i park at the other lot for show and then wait for them to past then my sis was waving to them and the pliceman smile back. -_-'' ( i know i was now triangle plate but dun have to wait to that extent to wait for me park, so stressful siao sob sob....)

=(

praying hard.

got to study even harder...

One down, Four to go...

2007-11-20T19:03:00.000+08:00

first paper is over le, ok lah now three more to go. yipee!

so now have to study harder le.

cold and cough have yet to leave me for good and it seems getting worse. hopefully that i can recover faster wahaha.

IMS on thurs
WBP on next tues
OD on next thurs
JLPT on next sun (have not even touched omg, going to fail le so hard too sian, next year retake and be more prepare if fail.

Sick sick

2007-11-16T23:52:00.001+08:00

flu , sore throat, all attacking me right now, so sick but tons of things to do... sob sob =(

4 more days to first paper. seems it's a drag, haven even happen. haven finish writing notes for paper 3 and 4, haven come up with tutorial qn sample essay alot of things haven do think must speed up to get thigns done though rushing may not helps but worsen hai.

talk to boon today so glad that he called. able to share things with him. must wait for him to join us back so that we can have the ai zai gang again. looking forward but guess will be dec i hope! =)

must speed up and not slack i hope.

praying hard....

Outline for the week

2007-11-13T12:18:00.000+08:00

haven been updating.

so here's a outline:
started to write notes for exam and at the same time remenber bits by bits, but the process is very slow.... hai....

left exactly a week and say 2 1/2 hours before my first paper for the 2nd term. think this term i have been slacking and i'm not satisfied with my results for term 1 and i still slaking -_-''

meet my jap fren on the eve of deepavali to go clarke quay to have dinner at waruku. nice ambience and the good is delicious. But at that point of time my pockets aren't tat deep to spend alot so didnt just order main course and got treat desert by fren (share one >_<) haha but tat is real nice green tea ice cream with red bean and crepe.

After that we went drinking, but actually only 2-3 are drinking, 2 drinking red wine, one drank those mocktail and the rest fruit punch and sensei came to join us so surprise and he brought along another sensei. been talking non-stop.

finally realised that sensei know that i'm the youngest in the group which is to my surprise cos i was never the attention to him wahaha and not only tat was that my class got 4 frens who are just 1-2 yrs older than me so i suppose he thought i'm the same age as them haha.

got home late very late. nearly 2 am ( i know is not late for you all who's looking at the blog but for me is quite late cos my family very strict. =( ) luckily mummy didnt stay up to wait for me or i will get scolding. hai

went to dear's house to study and then got rewards from his dog, alot of scratches. hai. but luckily not deep so recover le. so now have to start mugging if i want to score well!

jia you!

Summary for the week

2007-11-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

mon - wed : working and slacking

thurs : meet aizai gang (with boon n en-> in aust)

finally meet them le after the genting trip and today is the most 'memorable' day for me. went to meet them for dinner, left home at 6+ thought wont be late but then something happen that cause me to meet them very late. i nearly 8 then reach vivo.

all becos of the mrt, there is train fault right from the start when i first board the train. initially it was stated as train fault and have to be delayed for 15 min so i waited (starting from bradell when i board at bishan) so waited, and waited, thought will be all right after next stop but i was wrong stopped and waited for 5-10 min. happen all the way till newton. at that point of time i decide i will alight at orchard to take bus to vivo(dunno got a not but tat was my thinking at that time cos it is delaying for so long. BUT it stop at newton and get all the passengers out of the train and say that there is trach faults and will resume 1 hour later and i happen to be on the last train before it close the entire route to marina. what the hell!!!

Newton alw almost empty station for once, fill out with passengers like the crowded you see when it is after office hours or maybe during ndp time, at kallang station wahaha. alot got stranded including me who never alight once at newton.(never been to newton circle hawker centre ma.) so get out of the control staion and then went to see got any bus tat can bring me to orchard or dhoby ghaut mrt so i can change to NEL line to vivo or maybe take cab to vivo even though maybe expensive (it will be $4.50 once board on the cab hai too expensive for me le) but then the queue for the cab is as long as you can see ppl queuing for 4d this long wahaha. so no choice take bus where it's crowded too hardly cant move to the bus board(indicating the route of the buses.)

nvm abt the details too draggy le and i dun think i make a good writer =p

ok then i board bus 700 and guess wat, the bus i think is fested with 'xiao qiang', luckily an auntie kill it for me and another lady cos it was so gross hai now i still get goosebumps thinking of it. total 3 'xiao qiang' killing under the auntie's hand. superb auntie! thanks alot! wahaha

meet them at secret recipe and they have just order the food sorry guys ah, make you all wait for me so long. but it was great to see them. andy ah now is a boss le, next time if got $$$, i must invest biz with him cos he got lobang and ideas wahaha and he also pass me the cd for the genting trip so many lame photos first time going abroad with frens( though not far la).

keng ah have grown up le, haha cos she has been studying hard for exam which she hardly does in poly, really a big change ah haha but it's good thing, finally settling down to study not like me now =(

shari ah still busy at work as well as studies but you cant see that she is stress one loh haha maybe she can hide it well haha. a great nite to spend and the next time we meet will be after exams for us ( 3 gals) and next time boon will be joining us by hook or by crook. haha make a deal with him le.

going to study le bah i guess so but like no mood lei how hai. sian.

btw good news, my mum finally give in to me and allow me to continue my pre-adv 1 class le startin 30 dec and still can be with jap mates le haha. have a long struggle. hai dun wish to talk abt it. haha.

so must study hard le! gambate!
べんきょください！

going to have dian xin tomolo looking forward =)
ironing =(

here are some of the photos from genting just extract! =)

Love, you know, seeks to make happy rather than to be happy.

Love Today!

2007-11-01T10:32:00.000+08:00

I've ben trying to find a song and i mange to find it a few days ago. i was about to sleep ard 145am when i tell myself why not on radio and i heard the music wahaha, so lucky and it happen to be on 91.3fm where their website indicate the songs been play previously and faster on my lappy and internet (though i jus off it) and download the song. now it is in my phone and i listen to it when i like it =p

mika- love today

Everybody's gonna love today
Gonna love today
gonna love today
Anyway you want to
anyway you've got to
Love love me, love love me
love love

I've been crying for so long
Fighting tears just to carry on
But now, but nowit's gone away
Hey girl why can't you carry on
Is it 'causeyou're just like your mother
Little tikelike to tease for fun
Well you ain't gonna tease no other

Gonna make you a loverl
ove today, love today
Girl with a groovewith the big bust on
Big bust on, big bust on
Wait till your motherand your papa's gone
Papa's gone
Momma, momma papa
shock shock meShock shock me, shock shock

I said
Carolina sits on ninety five
Give her a dollarand she'll make you smile
Hooker, what a lookerwalk away
Carry dresses like a kid for fun
Licks her lips like they're something other
Tries to tell you life has just begun
But you know she's getting something other
Than the love from her mother
Love today, love today
Girl with a groove with the big bust on
Wait till your mother and your papa's gone
I said,
Doom da da di da di...

i have confirm to join the pre-advance class with my jap mates. 8 have confirm (including me) so glad we never jump over to another school (long story) therefore i need to pay for lots of miscellaneous le like registration fee all tat. wahaha.

tonight meeting poly mates instead of tomolo cos shari got thing on. going vivo and they treating me dinner wahaha. i was recalling tat time when keng call me thought i listen wrongly but i'm not. haha they are treating me, they know this gal is the poorest of all ever since she has been studying full time and got a lot of bills to pay off each month and with her miserable pay cant bring her to anywhere. wahaha thanks guys.

looking forward to meeting u all this evening.

initially want to wake up early one, got disturb by jap mate's msg 7 + and wan to wake up tat time but to tired so just forget it wahah.

cya going to study le and write notes, waste half a week le.

Shock of my life

2007-10-30T10:23:00.000+08:00

I wanted to change my blogskin again to make it more friendly for my case, if not for viewers in that senses that i display heading for it but then again i dunno so maybe after exam then figure out.

Haven start my notes sian, but anyway got jap results le. i passed! yipee no need to retake and a burden is load off from my shoulder. but then the way of knowing my results shocked me. i dunno why they sms me cos normally is we called to ask one, so anyway this is wat is written in the SMS:

Int 4. Oral :6/10. Written Mid-term: 63/100, final term:65/100. Please call at XXX to book for you retest. Need to be taken within 1 month. Thanks.

When i see this i was like, wat i fail??? So i give my jap fren a call and she say no lei, you pass overall lei why they msg u like this, so i give the school a call and you know wat they say; is it, sorry then. not you, you pass. I was like -_-''
can also make this kind of mistake one ah...

by right i should be at work right now, but i'm not feeling well so going in the afternoon hai. dunno wat i ate last night when i wake up this morning, stomach seems like in a blending machine. argh hate tat feeeling, pls get welll lei. wahaha

second part: afternoon receive msg from my jap fren that they request to have a class of our own for pre advance 1 , starting 31 dec and have to make payment before 11 nov. so ks of the sch, haven even confirm and now want us to make payment and this will eventually drain me out. my money is at the dangerous level le and now now it is going to the dying or perhaps the gone case le. must work more but exa coming, must forfeit, opportunity cost ah. ever since i start uni, i feel tat my opportunity cost has gone alot, thinking of each mth even basic you will get 1.5 but now is only 1/4 of the pay hai and alot of thing to pay. damn it man. sian sian.

caught my eye in some games and thinking of buying it cos ppl selling at auction. hopefully by the end of the week can get it and play during my tense period. now "hardworkingly" doing statistics.

tata

Last Outing with the jap grp

2007-10-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

Just took my jap final exam for Int 4. although sensei told us that no one fail, i still worried about my results. hai maybe when he mark one of the classmate's paper after the exam, find out alot of mistakes are made and worse is that those answer are correct but i went to change it. wat the hell!

go with my jap fren to dinner at california pizza opposite our sch with sensei but he came later. quite fun as we have ask sensei for 3-4 times but he alw fly aeroplane, so today he didnt and everyone is so happy haha. today see a different side of sensei, not the bad side of cos, but his emotion side and to think he tell us his things that are kind of sensitive; his life. but enjoy his company since is the last meeting le. btut we will be meetin up next next wed bah, eve of deepavali going dinner and drinking, hope i can go wahaha.

actually i never study alot for my exam cos i have been busy writing notes that i learn from ele to the current and i started late so will be glad even i just pass, no high expectation for myself wahaha.

now left main papers in uni and jlpt 3. hope tat i can find some times to do my reading and work for preparing jlpt since i miss my sch's preparatory class. learning jap has been quite fun with ando senssei haha. arigato!

looking forward to learnin jap cos i'm giving it a break first too tired need a long break before starting again. going to learn jap if i got $$$ cos my speaking is like tourist kind not tat kind tat is so fluent and smooth as i have to think before i can say it out wahah. tat is the problem i faced today for my oral wahaha. hope to buck up first.

going to start preparing for exam, 3 weeks left till first paper need to prepare le cant slack. and to think tomolo i have to go to sch just to return my library bk, thinking of tat damn sian.

cya then!

2007-10-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

nearly a week has passed and i have yet to do anything hai dunno very slack nowadays hai. lot of pending things to do hai.

- haven study jap for upcoming final test
- haven finish my IS , OD , QMM and WBP tutorial (can practically say everything not touched and exam is in 1 months time hai
- haven write notes hai

alot of things hai. very sian nowadays dunno wat to write wan to blog but then lazy to write alot wahaha.

cya

2007-10-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

just coming in to blog since i was online. tomolo will be start of sch again and two more weeks to before i will be break for exam preparation so hope tat i can clear my doubts on my modules with the lecturer. haven been doing anything for the past one week when i promise myself to. hai. really so disappointed.

was suppose to do a lot of thing for my modules be it jap or uni. jap i got off today since sensei went back to japan and will only be coming this week bah i suppose. jap ah is getting harder and harder and it seems like i have lost interest in it but will perserve till the end! 2 more lesson to go before the exam (final) not having high expectations on it but hope i can pass it dun have to retake can le cos i have major exams for uni coming up.

lot of things will be having this two months.
1. jap final exam coming
2. major exams for term 2 coming (need to score well if wan to get 2/1 since 1st term score badly cos got pulled by marketing, wat the hell!!!!)
3. JLPT is coming in dec haven even study sure failbut hope can just pass wahaha or else wait 1 more month.

so have to buck up and keep mugging!

2007-10-11T12:45:00.000+08:00

went to power house with dear and uni frens. not bad nice experience though we went in quite early. we are the first few customers bah. got the results for uni not happy with it but a relief cos have been waiting for so long and kind of having sleepless nights hai.

results wise not very good so disappointed but at least pass le so ok. but compares with others still a long way to go. hai want to study hard but hard loh hai no discipline in me, unlike poly life. hope tat i can buck up then. become a mugging student than a slacking student wahaha.

friday wont be joining my jap fren to pubbing cos dear's family going to celebrte his birthday in advance . think wont be going to blog soon after exam.

see ya then

2007-10-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

i dunno when or how my blog is been exposed out and i dunno if it is true cos if it is been exposed, i cant write anymore bad things le wahaha must be guai guai one. but i just feel so pissed when i know someone i didnt expect to know my blog except those who are close to me one hai. whatever. i was thinking that why must i make myself busy and change to blog address or set password???

those who know me tat once i dun like this person or wat, can talk but not close, i have a barrier towards him or her. i can be noe but dun test it. cos u never know how backfired the thing may become. dun think 老虎不发威，当我是病猫。i will when i need to whaha!!!!

today miss eating my carrot cake and afternoon my colleague buy one is not tat nice so die die tomolo must eat wahaha and also i buying for them wahha. make a fool out of myself yesterday. i call my boy but i press his no wrongly so another guy answer, mid 40s bah then he keep saying hello hello, so thinking tat my boy play prank on me which he alw do, i say to the man, dun play lah. then the man dunno reception poor or wat keep saying can hear me ma, so i say dun play and hang up the phone wahaha. it is only when i about to call my boy again then i realise tat i call wrong no. wat a blur queen wahah.

been so worried recently, about jap result and uob result. jap i manage to pass as i didnt expect much when my fren score very well and they act like they will fail ... -_-'' hai now is UOB tat is wat i worried. hai. cant slp well die.

tonight will be going to my first clubbing if suceed. wahaha i know wat u all think, wat so good about it or walao tat is dunno how many years i have been clubbing, for ur info, my dad is very strict, when i go out with boy, i didnt even come home at 12 am loh so to me now can is a good and big improvement wahaha so must cheer for me!

aiya tired le, going to zzz le later need to wake up early to buy carrot cake before work. keep my finger cross!

2007-10-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

today is a happy day. meet my dear for dinner but as usual he piss me off before we met. hai. tonolo have IMS and normally lecturer have the tendancy to let us dismiss earlier compare to other class (nice lecturer and helpful). so i told him to come waot for me around 4.45 pm to 5 pm but instead of meeting outside my school, turn out to be that i have to wait for him hai. and the excuse he gave was i thought i came out early le but i was wrong and guess wat his early is 4.30 out of his house. think his house is a few min walk from my sch ah. to him, hopeless. hai

anyway we went to marina square shop shop and have dinner there as his fren say one of the restaurant not bad so went to try. walk walk but buy nothing but i manage to find a arcade game that i have been looking for for dunno how long le. the game is call go go mile smile if not wrong haha. first play the game when i go for cruise the first time very long ago haha. so happy lucky i suggest to go arcade or i wont know that aactually this game still exist lol.

went to eat @ changing appetite next to carl's junior. the ambience is alright but then the sofa is so comfortable that u cant lean back or else u will be away from the table haha. they serve majority steak which i dun eat so other choice is limited. i ate fish and calamari while dear eat black pepper mushroom chicken. not bad and quite filling. but dear dun like the waiteress there cos one who serve us is a trainee and a foreigner ( phillipines or burmanese) i think. ask her thing she say will check but didnt get back, serve the food but is not mine is another table who order the same and then keep on asking her colleague to clear plates all tat. dear say that she get her colleague to do shit work while she serve. dunno is the culture or wat loh haha, but overall ok loh. quite filling and fun.

then after that went walk walk again when his mum call and ask him to met her as she is about to dismiss from work so ok loh i say u go n meet ur mum go home since ur dad coming to fetch but he tell me that his mum miss me want to see me so he drag me there. went there very reluctant haha. -_-''' so went and i dun wan his dad to send me home so i set condition that i can meet his mum provided i go home myself so he also reluctant agree as he alw wan to send me home worry about me haha.

see his mum le and then msg him did his mum say anything and she say i "grow fat" le sob sob sosad. yah lose figure since sec 4 till now but now worse hai wan to train out but seems so you xin wu li haha. must study and train hard wahaha.

ok lah watch anime time tata

2007-09-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

today jap sux i dun really think that i can pass well. just hope that i can pass and tomolo is OD though is not an official test but i hope to score well as i can assess on how much i have know about OD. hai. been so sian and have yet to do my studies yet. time to prepare it as it is going to be nov soon. less than a month to prepare and i hope i can clear all my doubts before the school ends. still got 3 more weeks before close for exam and i hope i can rush all my notes soon as i got a week break to catch up. not going to work so much and neglect my studies le.

hope i can do it. now looking for source to watch high school musical 2 and i hope can find then later do my research haha play come first as i been "studyin hard" for jap. lol

see ya!

2007-09-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

nearly a week nv blog le, busy lei hai. got 2 exams coming up. one is japanese and the other is OD aka Organizational Design. jap is on sun and it is the mid term test so i have to score well to pass and graduate with a cert upon completing Int 4 wahaha. time pass fast... to thinki have study jap for nearly a year or so. but it seems like my jap is still sucks wahaha never practise loh hai.

od is on mon and have to do research even though the exam is not counted more to a class test. question is given so have to do homework loh. this lecturer is good loh he is angrywith us abt not doin hw he give so he say no hw but later got hw again so funny. though it is a hard module, i kind of can link it but then still hard cos keep overlapping topics all that. hai.

jap i have no confidence is scoring well hai and the term 1 exam results is coming out and i scare of my results hai how. i dunno. just hope all can pass can le, cant really expect to pass well. but if can i also wan just like huai en's mark haha.

ok lah goin to study le, today is wed and i haven study for both test hai.

JIA YOU!!!

*26 days to something special but haven plan
*less than 2-3 weeks receiving term 1 results
*less than 1 month to pass Int 4
*less than 2 months for main exams
*less than 2 and 1/2 months for JLPT 3

2007-09-21T09:18:00.000+08:00

rcently feeling very tired till now have yet to do my jap nor my studies loh hai. sian. feel that i didnt even have a decent day to rest for the week. this is how my days pass by as usual.

Mon- Fri: Afternoon class, then morning work
Sat: Work then meet him (sometimes)
Sun: morning do hw then afternoon jap class

really seems so pack to do anything hai. and for those who know me very well, i eat alot of sweets n chocolate and now i'm very scare to have diabetics cos what i eat is not classified alot but is EXCESSIVELY!!!! trying to cut down now cos i seen a drama every weekend the about doc at ch8, one scene was tat this doc's dad keep on feeling very tired and thirsty and then i have the symptoms like very thirsty and lethagic. OMG i hope it wont happen to be.

I'll promise to change just dun happen to me. just hope tat is becos nowadays this damn hot and warm weather cause it and i'm been paranoid that's all. i'm trying to keep my finger cross X. hai
sian sian

later got class at 1 and right now instead of doing work i'm watching anime, OMG, what is going wrong in me!!!!

SOMEBODY PLS SAVE ME!!!!

2007-09-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

today have been a busy day for me, trying to keep my blog alive. wahaha. today very busy and again i'm late for class hai. tomolo still got a small presentation. think after my 1 week break, i have slacken alot. hai i must buck up or will be like first term so slack hai.

alot of thing to do but i'm still watching manga wahaha. slack till i dunno wat to say for one self hope everything will be ok then.

tata

2007-09-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a hard day for me. my bf broke up with me, but today it seems like we are back together. i know this sound real stupid keep break and patch but sometimes love is so funny that you never realise it. A small misunderstanding can cause people to break up. well fortunately the problem is solved. thank goodness!

went to meet him today for dinner, he buy me a pendant and it to me as a renewal of our love. love him alot and i really hope tat we can last.

love him alot. miss you alot...

muacks.

gonna do my work and slp early have been slacking for last week during the week break, now must buck up and be mugger wahaha.

tata

2007-09-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat have happen these days between my boy and i. have been drifting apart and now it seems like so hard to maintain it and continue. after all 5 years together may mean that we are getting tired and not been able to meet each other's need as we are too in to our own needs and neglect each other. now is meet less, shorter time, hug less, kiss less, concern less and talk less. everything is cutting down dunno for wat reason. perhaps is me who are too packed with my things and neglect his needs. too hard in working and neglect him and studies. but wat to do need $$$ to survive, now practically is really damn poor student. all expenses bear by myself.

want to earn more money to survive and study hard is not an easy task to do. if given a choice, perhaps i will work and do part time studies but then alot say part time is hard and i think it is wat to do. cant ask mum for daily expenses as i still have 2 sister have to spare a thought hai. life is not as smoothly as it seems and i think i start hating myself for that.

too tired for everything and no one seems to understand and i myself dunno wat have happen. damn tired of living like tat now and seems like when u need someone by the side to support is hard too sob sob.

braking down...

Revival!

2007-09-11T20:38:00.000+08:00

I dunno what happen to my blog previously, cant see at all but now i managed to operate and revive and now is in running mode. should say that i have notice the problem about mu blog but i hack care haha. begin to lose interest in blogging cos i have not been using the computer alot these days but to go online to watch anime wahaha.

just finish catching up with my one piece anime, after catchin up about 50 episodes, damn tough but managed. =p

term 2 have already started and now having a week of study break but have been working and slacking, must really find time to study and revise and there is tutorials to be done. this sem is much harder than the previous term as there are 3 new modules that have yet to learn during poly. they are organizational design, information and management system and work performance. and the last module i took is what i hate most (as i score the worst results in poly: statistics!!!) hai sian but happy is i feel that i know better this time compared to the time when i in poly so is a good start. hope that can score well loh (keep my finger cross X)

my jap is now in intermediate 4 and the last level for now. not intending to continue for the time being. have sign up for jlpt 3 (know is a stupid and bold thing to do since haven manage to have a stable foundation for it but will try cos if i fail, at most next yr take again then i can go for preparatory course in apr time haha. already plan ahead so no worries =)

have been very poor recently, yes poor in terms of financial aspect. lose my tution student and now only working in the bookstore and also lazy to find new tution cos i fear that didnt teach long then cant continue. this is wat happen to the previous one and i dun wish to see it happen again hai. initially was ok but dunno why suddenly the mum dun wan me to teach hai sob sob. no luck in finding students whose parents are not that demanding haha.

give me best of luck for everything and pls hope tat you will see me soon =p

tata!

2007-06-24T18:12:00.000+08:00

recently, i have not been able to study nor have mood to do things. and worse, the exam is less than 1 month away and then i have not study. wanna come up with schedule to disclipine myself but i dun think i can. too lazy and slack around hai...

alot of things happen and then i'm kind of getting tired of tired. cant focus both mentally and physically and sleeping has becoming a habit hai. i dunno wat to do to adjust myself. i wan to spend more days studyin then slacking hai.

so hope tat ic an adjust and do more time. more quality and efficient haha
hope it won't be a dream.

2007-06-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

Haiu, got one bad news to talk about. i fail my jap and have to retake =(
hai means that i have to retake and waste more time and no time to study for my school so i have to come up with a time schedule to plan well my time. hai. but luckily i got a bunch of good frens in my jap class that has help me so much. they even suggest to study with me for my retest, so touched. Thanks guys.

anyway, i have a ton of things to do and exam is a month away have to start studying well and focus on studies than working. hope that will score well bah, have to study hard loh. but i think the problem now i have to do is to have a WELL MANAGE TIME MANAGEMENT!

hai sian sian.

2007-06-03T10:49:00.000+08:00

hey i'm back again! After a long time didnt blog le. Later i going to buy laptop yipee! finally going to have a laptop that i can truly call my own. wahaha

i have drive my dad's car again on vesak and drive to 2 different place and also be able to park outside wahaha so happy.

but i've been so tired thru out the two weeks break as i till now have yet to finish my work as well as revise hai really worry about my studies must really focused on. from now i am going to be a bookworm if that is wat it takes to study and score well. haha.

wont be blog ging for long these days until i have settle my lappy. today the jap test results is out, didnt hope to get well but hope can pass can le wahaha . wish me luck then.

2007-05-14T21:26:00.001+08:00

I wonder what happen to the posting site, every things seems in a mess. Last nite was mother's day and i'm very happy and glad as i manage to drive my dad's car from amk to paya lebar, (my grandma's place) haha didnt have accident but drive a bit slow cos i learn manual and my dad's car is auto so got that mentality that i cant press hard on the acclerator cos it will go too fast so so far still ok.

Dying and having hard time in studies as i dunno why recently i get tired easily and there is a ton of things to research on and then not even have time to play games or wat , more alone, check mail or blog hai...

worse day is yet to come, still need to tution and work then still have to prepare for japanese. Jap test even come queuing and i'm going to have my mid term test this coming sun, meaning i have to spend more time on jap and then have to delay my studies in uni le. but thank god, as i will be having my 2 weeks break to catch up.

However, it will also mean i have to work as there is a book fair coming up @ suntec. hai, have to work. sometime dun wan to work as pay too low, but want to quit like very bad hai. so mao dun hai....

got to go bath le, just got back from tution hai. busy day

*keep finger cross that i can stay awake till 12 am, hopefully...

tata

2007-05-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

2007-05-05T19:39:00.000+08:00

Good news to share!!!! I have passed MY DRIVING TEST LE!!!

That's means one big burden is dropped and sink to the ocean, now leave about four more big burden:
1, my studies
2, my japanese
3, money
4, work

and for all these, forever not enough time to do my things nor studies, must really work out a plan to catch up with studies. now already second week in school le, starting third week of school. hai. worried hai...

tata got to bath and study le....

2007-04-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

i have just started my school this week, can tell you that though you need not pay for the notes and notes are ready for you, but you just cant imagine how big is the class! 80-90 plus people per lecture class and out of these, only 20+ are accounting class (same module, join class), wah lao and to make things worse, 90% of my class are foreigners, and they all already somehow are in groups, or same class when they took their diploma, or advance diploma with mdis!!!! make those like me, who are individual so lonely. hai hai

first lesson for the term is accounting and corporate goverance, and the lecturer is an indian and with those slang accent, which is sometime hard to understand. can image how much it strain my ears as his slang is much more difficult to understand than Dr badri (stat lecturer in nyp). haha but somehow mange to get by, as first class is more theory as usual and can you imagine that the exam format is per qn 100marks? hai and you need to wirte at least 1 full page. hai how to squeeze.

second lesson was marketing management, thought more or less will be same as what we learn in poly by billie ooi, but i was wrong, terribly wrong, not only it's so call same in poly of wat we learnt, but they focus on different thing hai. somemore the lecturer is a male and in his intro he say he got teach or set the format in nyp for international marketing, retail management, etc (think is our senior time bah) so kind of funny cos marketing is kind of theory thought guys wont like it. wahaha. NOT BIAS OK?

today got the worse lesson die and the most difficult than the previous modules. cos this module is economics of industry, and the scope it cover is very wide, touch to economics, marketing, organisational behavior, and strategic management. and worse still, not only need to do research, but must also keep up with latest new in the business like the recent buy over of ABN AMRO by barclays, hai....

i'm tired, working through out, no time to do my reading up. if this goes on, i will be depicting the fact of why i am studying full time le when if i study part time i can at least earn 1.5k hai. hope that the workload assign to me to finish fast and not drag so i can work less le. GAMBATE KU DA SAI!!!

jya!

2007-04-10T13:01:00.000+08:00

Nearly about a month never blog le, haha been busy these few days.

here are some of the things that i have done when i MIA from writing the blog:
- went chalet with ai-zai gang and my dar.
- went to Escape with them and got dizzy and almost puke, and got drag to one ride by shari and in the end she ran away. -_-''
- also went to fisherman village for dinner with them and mahjong the whole night!
- been sick during the chalet, with a bad flu and thanks that dar is there to take care of me, so touched. thanks dear.
- went to work at Daiso for 5 days and then now currently working with my ex-supplier's company.
-school starting soon and going to be stress. (forget about how to cope le, die, not in the mood.)

and to make things worse, this sun i going to have my int 1 test and if pass, then can proceed.

tata

2007-03-07T11:53:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for neasrly a month le...

cant say that i'm busy all these but maybe is becos new year is here, that's why hardly log in even though rot at home, been watching animes wahaha. watch Law of Ueki, Bleach, Ouran High and One Piece and all are so funny and nice.

now been looking for job as part time or temporary cos keep lazying around got say by my mum hai. i know i seems very hack care but hte fact is jobs are hard to find moreover i can only waork for 1 month before the start of school. why cant she just understand? hai

new year hasn't been fun as ang baos is slashed by half, this year didnt receive alot hai. then also got less chances to gamble as all are busy haha. but still have 3 steamboat sessions for the new year, eat till scare le wahaha.

b'day didnt really celebrate as well as fall on the new year chu ba. (8th day of new year.) and plus on that day i was sick hai... dear came to pei me and with 4 liang cha and no present. sob sob. then last night was my chinese b'day and had a cake and few ang baos, can lah, at most see next year make up haha.

going to get ready for interview later. tata

2007-02-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for almost a month le, dunno for wat so ever reason, becoming sian on blogging for you still have to remenber wat you have done and write it down again. kind of like memory test wahaha.

till now have yet to resign, BUT this fri wil be the last day and looking forward for that cos i will be able to cut a clear line with the company. now currently can say it's out of job, nobody will be sponsoring me and that i have a bunch of things to do but no $$$$. sad sad.

recently spend alot on things that i have to declare bankrupt le. going to start sch soon yet i still have to cough out $$$ for my own allowance, as well as insurance and for my japanese course hai, really quite a burden, need to find a job that is flexible for me. think tution will be fine, but the problem is that if i go to agency, i have to pay the agency half the cost and that the parents may want to see your qualification. hai. didnt score good for o'lvl but i just hope they wont judge by that haha.

v day, new year and b'day is coming but it seems like i have yet to do anything for all that. 21st b'day coming but it falls during the new year week, cant really celebrate and on the b'day itself i have to go for my first jap class hai.... sian sian ....

anybody that would like to buy me present, it's ok, just transfer me with $$$$ can le. wahaha

have a great day ahead!!!

signing off....

2007-01-24T11:20:00.000+08:00

i know i long time never blog le just take it that i have become lazy bah haha. today is keng's birthday, happy birthday to you. 21st le haha so fast soon to be my turn le hai. yet to plan what to do for that day as that day is during new year's times.

anyway just have a brief overview of what i have done these two weeks.

- i have finish my japanese ele 2 le, didnt score well, but sign up for intermediate 1 le, and the first lesson falls on my birthday so think will skip that one, haha. so if the teacher os ok think i will continue thru out for 8 months to complete everything.

- went to pay my school fees for the japanese on last mon ($210) and my uni school fees of ($6494.25) last night, now i'm broke since i have to pay back my mum so much.

- last sat, dear came to my house to watch bleach (animation) and evening time we went to have dinner with his parents, know that i have been eating with them quite often, but dun seems to make us feel closer haha. his dad is the same as my dad, quiet dun talk one, his mum got talk but dunno talk wat, seems to have communication gap haha...

- i'm going to officially leave the company next wed, and the new gal/guy, i dunno (think is gal) tomolo then come for training hai. got a lot of things to do but i still wasting time wahaha.

- i will be learning my driving again next fri as the test date is nearer (sob sob), really worried now, no confidence in passing. hai

tata

2007-01-15T16:48:00.000+08:00

long time never update le. guess this will be the official first blog for the year 2007.

by right i should be leaving the company this coming wed, but my manager ask me to stay a little while longer so i stay too. till the end of the month then i will be leaving, hai. dunno is to be happy or wat, but i just cant cos i been waiting so long and now i'm extending. hai.

dun ask me why i stay. but i only given two choices, 1 is to stay at home and listen to my dad's nonsense and anyhow scolding, or continue to work a little long while to earn money, so which one will you chose? guess for me the answer is obivious, i dun wan to stay at home and got scolded for nothing..

btw i have confirm studying in mdis for my degree course, will be taking bradford's degree and then will be full time cos i feel that part time i wont be able to commit myself , not enough time to study.

hai now i having sore throat and flu guess going to be sick very seriously hai... drink more water!!! tata

2007-01-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

finally now to my 100th entries. haha.

sorry to drag too long, dear. now here is the post:

Sat: got my sis to go to my office to help me, at first thought with her will be able to do my things faster, but i'm wrong!!! hai, in the end turn out that i have to work with her till nearly 7 pm, from 8.30am to 7pm = to one ordinary day at work. some more is the eve of new year eve hai. treat my sis to secret recipe for her hardwork and went shop shop @ J8. sis wanted to go popular so went with her, in the end is me buying, bought cake mania, cost $19.90. so expensive, but nvm it's a good game. (already play till very far till i stuck cos the customer too impatient and it costs me alot of money and then i cant pass hai. so need help haha.

Sun: ask dear to go out with me in the morning with my family to go cycling,. so glad that dear can join us and we went for our first cycling together, quite fun but then the bike i rent keep having problem, in the end have to change twice, first time with my sis and second time with dear. however dear dun seem so happy, cos he took cab down and we wait quite long for my aunt who was late. so he wasn't happy that he rush down and yet have to wait (i think).

taking a pic with my cousins, sis, dear and my cute niece!

after our cycling, went to the beach for a soak, got wet and sandy by the so call quick sand but it's refreshing. then while i ws cleaning out the 'sandy' thingy i got, dear was playing badminton with my sis and cousin. later we went to play with my niece and i got so pai seh becos when i trying to beat up the beach ball (my cousin bring) that was on the ground, i try to bounce the ball up, in the end i got hit, and everyone saw it and was laughing, including dear and dear still sacarastic say oh, we never see how, where got where got. -_-''''

these two days have been doing nothing and stayed at home and be pig, haha becos is pig year! wahaha.

Hereby wishing to all a belated HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i got some resolutions that i hope to fuifill:
- get my driving license
- buy a laptop
- study hard together with dear
- find a new good job.

that's all.... cya

2006-12-29T16:49:00.000+08:00

1more post to go for my 100th entries.

forgot when i first started to blog, but definitely is i got influenced by friends. haha. to think is so long time ago. haha

just officialy finish my auditing, damn tired cos the counting of books are irritating and what's more i have to shift the books to new location, from the back to the front, and worse still NO ONE TO HELP!!! SHIT MAN! lucky i got one helper who does not help much, is the trolley!!!! yeah! thank god that i at least got that or i will be dragging my feet and using up all my strength to shift. thanks ah trolley.

now feel very tired more than satisfaction cos i still got alot to do hai....
very tired and body aching now, die le, later still got jap class... hai dunno can hold on for 3 hours ma? hai...

sob sob, now still got a lot of thing to do, dun think can relaxed during the long weekend le hai...

tomolo still got to come to work at 8.30. hao mei ren xin...!!!!

cya, await for my 100th entries hor!!!
tata

2006-12-28T10:19:00.000+08:00

today finally can blog le... was intending to blog yesterday, first thing when i come into the office but then the internet was not working. at first thought was the company's server down but later heard was the undersea cables in taiwan got damaged and hence stop the connection.

got a lot to say. got accuse by my dad, these few mornings over stupid thing. first is the heater spoilt then i got to bath in cold water for these 2 days, damn freaking cold cos these two days keep on raining so very cold. next was he sudden ask for the camera that he lend me and say i spolit the cover and say the camera got virus. stupid ah, camera how to got virus one, i dun get it. maybe his laptop got virus say the camera got virus hai dunno him lah. think he got MENOPAUSE!!!! anyhow accuse, then he do wrong thing won't say, i didnt do anything yet got say you say i angry a not hai. stupid....

audit is half way thru, thanks to dear who came down to help me but in the end got accuse and got scolded by parents. sorry dear. bu thanks for coming down to help me, at least i left half to do and i will buck up ok? so that i can go out with you tonight. ok? must push me ah. haha.

2 more posts to go....
3 more days to year 2007...
20 more days to leaving company (minus 6 days of weekend) =14days more.

wahaha!!!!!

2006-12-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

4 more entries to go....

today i make a so call christmas lunch for dear to celebrate christmas, can say that this is so call the first time that we celebrate together on that day cos normally he is busy going to cck and celebrate.

today make pasta for him with the ingredients we bought last night and dear was kind of satisfied with the pasta. ( can he make a fuss ma? cos he came to my house so late and when come can eat le, don't you think is xin fu ma?)

then we at first wanna watch death note but in the end didnt so stay at my place. took out game of life to play( i bought like 3-4 years ago when i see this game in overtime, japanese drama and feel it's fun so buy it cost me $60), dear never play before so we play. in the end i won wahaha... can see that dear has no planning...

dear also try new game like crazy taxi and fighting games that he never play before and can say that he enjoy playing but looks dun seems like. haha. then he has kou fu loh, today my grandma cook curry vegetables and dear say that he will never eat curry veg one tried and said is nice, can say that my grandma's curry veg is so delicious that dear agree hehe. and he enjoy quite much despite sore throat and coughs.

then we began to glue our eyes onto my laptop, cos we are watching bleach (jap anime) so nice and funny. too bad dear cant bring home cos his com cant play dvd version. hai

tomolo working again and the start of audit and i can say that tomolo will be busy and stress hai. yet to do the things that my manager wan me to submit tomolo. going to do now. hai.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

2006-12-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to dear house to pei him cos he is sick hai. to think he always fall sick when he is off and on leave, so suai of him haha.

went to his place about 1 plus, take cab go cos i lazy haha then went to tiong bahru to buy luch for him. bought yong tau foo and carrot cake for him and myself and it is so full... he so sick and i buy so much haha. then we watched shin chan crayon and he was laughing so bad cos it's so funny and also becos shin chan is his favourite character, we also watched SCV, went to watch harlem's school, (dunno which channel) then it was so lame and stupid loh. haha. to think that those celebrity as constantants didnt even see clesrly on the question, so obivious and yet all think the same thing... -_-''

then play with willy (his dog), willy like so much and dear kind of jealous, keep askin me that i go his place is to pei him or play with willy haha.

dear's dog: 'willy'

'willy' and i

dear and 'willy'

at night went to dinner with dear @ cityhall and we ate thai express again, yes again. hai. but we try different variety. so overall quite ok. shop shop and then went home.

simple dating i would say during christmas eve. haha.

2006-12-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

today was in quite a busy day, thought that i can relaxed first before the audit but i was wrong again hai. by right morning is no class one but pop out some students making the library noisy and i'm unable to do my things as i wanted to go to the back of the library to do stock take, then in the end i cant hai. sian.

then afternoon when i came back from i decide to count the back of the books no matter wat. so i just dump every books in the cupboard and put all on the floor, i was nearly covered by them hai. flooded with books.

then at night got lesson, before that there was a so called christmas buffet dinner at the sales side, at first dun wan to eat but was drag there hai. there was a lucky draw and i only won a small cup with a scented candle only hai.. so lousy...

jap lesson was still ok but more things to be learn cant seems to cope le. learn new thing now, forget later hai. too stress le...

seems like the audit is so powerful enough to make me tense up for two weeks le and it is coming le.

2006-12-19T11:43:00.000+08:00

6 more to go for my 100th entries and still counting down.

I HAVE TENDERED RESIGNATION!!!

Feel so relaxed after giving her the letter, never feel this great before. you may think i'm crazy but it really feel like you have drop a huge burden in your heart. wahaha. now counting down for end of work.

Leaving in : 29 days.

Met dear on sat, at first want to watch movie and go ikea, but in the end, we done nothing for these. wewent to vivo again... yes again, i dunno what' s so nice there and dear like to go there hai. do walk walk there, have lunch and dinner there. finally first time got down with dear at coffee bean to sit down and relaxed. want to talk things but in the end turn out to me doing my jap hw and he busy drawing a hippo for me. hehe. quite cute the hippo.

sun went to help my old pal to do her project, was raining heavily when we went ps and i can say that u wear the most worst outfit ther. cos i was like wearin kind of beach wear there and my pal wore a black blouse, skirt and point shoes. dear and i guess that we may wear extremely opposite of ohers and it turns out to be true. haha, anyway enjoy outing with her as we never really have a chance to do that. then we went to pasar malam walk walk and eat eat haha.

last nite meet with the gang to watch eragon, thanks to ms oh who has free tickets from her company and treat us to watch movie. haha. thanks ms oh, the show was great but the gathering was even better. how i wish en was here with us and hang out like in the past.

got to do thing le or else i wont be able to leave the company on time =p

2006-12-16T11:19:00.000+08:00

counting down: 7

dear yesterday came down to my workplace and surprise me. he was standing outside my library entrance and i took no notice of him as i was busy talking with my colleague regarding some stupid issues and this dear in order for me to take note of him keep giving me missed calls despite he know that i'm talking hai... just dunno what he is thinking.

went out to meet him a while but laterask him to come in but he refused, until nearly 45 min later then come in. hai. initially want to bring him in but i scare of the risks of been discovered he is not a student. so with my part timer and one of the colleague 'encouragement', i asked him in haha. you can imagine how it is like doing something secretly yet dun wan people to know about. haha. =p

i was touched by him as he came down without even going ho,e to put down his stuffs before coming down and also he waited till i knocked off cos he knows that every friday whenever i got japanese lesson, i didnt take my dinner, but just some snacks only, so he came down to pei and supervise me to eat my dinner.

went to eat subway with him at republic plaza @raffles places. and was eating in a rush, manage to reach my school on time. and while walking to the schoool, dear is doing his piao-yi as usual, brining me around to cut people's lanes, haha. silly him.

the class was ok but eventually i was killed by a short test cos i didnt remenber the character for all katakana so leave lots of blanks =(

after class ended, one of the classmate was suggesting that i take cab with her but i say anything, so i pei her wait loh. she saw a cab, was wlking towards it when one ang moh came out of nowhere run past my classmate and cut her queue and got on the cab. the cabby was in a surprise look that this ang moh didnt give to my classmate as we spot him first. hai. somemore this ang moh is a guy, cant even let a girl to go home first. (cos my school that side got pub then we end class ard 9.45pm so should let us first ma)hai.

now working but i hope to tender soon. i keep saying and do nothing not only irritate myself as those i have told i going to register haha. i everytime say dear that he say thing but never do, might as well dun say. now it sems like i'm the one saying and doing nothing about it so must say and do or else dear will keep saying i keep say him but not myself haha.

back to work again le....

2006-12-13T12:05:00.000+08:00

8 more post to go... yeah!!! now is the middle of the week le so fast. hai yet to finish my japanese hw.

think i finaly know why the days past faster than the time i took jap ele 1, becos: ele 1 is on sun, which means that outing with dear has past or meet dear after class so is still within 1 day. however, now is on fri, which means that there is 2 days for me to hangout with dear so i will take for granted. haha that's why leave only weekdays to do hw haha. then weekdays work tend to drag and drag haha. call me slack lah. haha.

last night was on the way home, then see that amk that side got pasar malam so went to walk walk. see quite alot of new things haha. so buy shin chan vcds haha, in the end the vcds got problem hai. sian...

dear now is in jungle with his boss haha thurs then coming back, so in the mean time have to be alone hai so sian without him haha.

christmas coming le but yet to buy any gifts for dear so have to think wat to buy, sian... maybe dun buy haha treat him.

2006-12-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

9 more to go for my 100th entries. haha.

been busy for the weekend, going out with dear and tidying up my things.

sat went to The Cathy to watch movie, haven been there to watch but the ambience is very good, relaxing. watched The Holidays, quite a nice show and somemore is free cos i use gift voucher. to think that dear still want to pay the staff even though is a gift voucher. so blur of him haha.

there still wasn't much shops open @ the place but we did saw one wedding and it was held at bens' & jerry. kind of funny but think is a fun experience just for engagement party. the movie was nice cos is a romance comedy. quite funny, quite worth the money. next sat dear wont be free cos he has to attend a briefing @ NTU about 3 plus, so by the time it end thinks will be about 6-7 plus, dunno will be meeting a not, cos we want to break record, watch movie every week for the last month of dec too . haha.

last nite was busy packing my desk, too messy and dusty time to do it. yet to finish my work but hope tat i can finish my jap tonight so i will have more time to study yeah!

today as usual is a sian day. been very confused cos if i resign now, i have to look for job, then before chinese new year i have driving test so dunno if i can have off if i am able to find a new job. hai. but perhaps i should die die resign and maybe find a part time first to work with. sian sian hai.

2006-12-07T12:11:00.000+08:00

lat nite act kind of impulse, and went to buy 2 japanese books for refernce. more to travel guide that kind but i think it's helping as i cant find any dictionary plus it's very ex, 60 plus per book. but i manage to but 2 handy book @ $20, 10 each. haha . quite a good buy. hope it's useful. will post the pic.

i see that i need about 10 more blog before i hit hundred, so i hope that i will hit it by the end of this year, yipee...
haha

thought of going to chalet at the year end, intending to go with dear, but dunno can book a not, cos last min haha. if not i go for hangout @ mt emily, haha, expensive, but i think the ambience is nice. can try out bah haha. but a bit ex. =(

but nvm, once a while only, must have the first time for everything haha.

jya.

2006-12-06T14:29:00.000+08:00

back to blogging le. now very free haha got time to watch anime though my com is mute, cos i finish doing my stuff le haha. being left alone is a good thing but at times is too lonely, luckily i know how to ease my boredom haha.

last nite was my dad's b'day, and we went to soup restaurant with my aunt and her boss. the food there was quite nice but the place is kind of small and crampped hai. service wise is ok but it seems like they dun have enough staff as it's hard to call for them when you need help. finish the dinner quite fast ate only 1 hour or even less. at first was intending to treat my dad but it turn out to be my aunt's boss (family fren) treating cos he was the closest to the counter and he just walk there and pay the bill. i cant even pay hai.... in the end still got said by my dad who say why i didnt foot the bill. unreasonable. hai.

dear was suppose to be off today but didnt everytime got trick one. hai just dun understand why he so unlucky like me, i fail my driving test but he like he keep striking duty hai. so many people in the army, same rank as he, same branch or company as he, people all got only 1 guard duty, he got 2. people got off despite these few weeks busy, he got but later got to cancel. -_-'' hai, dunno ah.

think all my unluckily thing he passed to me one since he went into army earlier than i take my driving test haha. this is wat i say contagious. haha. dear, just kidding ah!

boss is back and seems like a lot of thing to ask her but maybe tomolo, better get the things done she want first rather than she ask me. did i say before? she say that i am hardworkin (during appraisal) but not driven!!! ALL THE THINGS SHE ASKED ME TO IMPROVE IS TO BE MORE DRIVEN, so have to show her HOW DRIVEN I WAS before i leave the company. hai

today got facial but maybe not going cos they didnt call to remind and i have yet to finish up my japanese sukudai (homework) got to finish since friday is coming and i'm still in the midst of lost and slacking, must buck up or else i cant catch up with others.

going to have a test on friday must pass cos in order to pass this ele 2, i must have at least 75% of attendance and passing of tests to proceed to intermediate. hai. she is going to test us on katakana, where i cant even remenber, think i need 48 hr than 24 hr to catch up. hai

why so many things happen to me these days? why??? i'm busy and i cant seem to get my things done and feel so tired everyday, worse than before. is it becos i started to have lesson on weekday (fri) and plus i cant cope nor i didnt find time to study for my japanese? hai how how? anyway to help me!!!!

I NEED HELP URGENTLY AND BADLY!!!!

2006-12-04T10:52:00.000+08:00

early in the morning initially was a fine day but after just quarrel with one uncivilised person on the phone dampened my moods. still say that the rule are dead but human are flexible. what the heel, if all rules are to be bend, why will they have the rules in the first place, they just cant take advantage that they are the customers mean that we have to give in to them wat. wat kind of logic is that. just becos i'm the provider, doesn't mean i have to tolerate the nonsense wat. think you so big, then dun call to renew,still need my help and act so arrogant. i hate this kind of people, spoit my day!!!

anyway, enough of that stupid person. think i will resign soon as the students here are unreasonable.hai need to find a new job sian sian sian. realy regret accpeting the job, should look for another hai. no prospect, noisy boss hai. better faster sack me off. haha

anyway, yesterday meet dear and we went for movies again and dear informed me that we have been watching movie for 4 weeks continously. we watched flushed away, just friends, happy feet and lastly open season. haha very rich, he is hinting to cut down on movies cos expensive *(even though he is using SAFRA card got discount to $8.)

but we still have more shows to watch, death note 2, deck in the hall , maybe harry potter (dunno is it this yr and many more haha) alot of nice shows now.

by the way i have bought a new spec, transition lens, lens plus frame cost only 120, will put up the pic soon. dear and i also bought a pair of speakers together, it's chip & dale haha. he got chip and i got dale. kind of expensive but is cute haha. waste a lot of money recently. hai.

japanese class is getting harder and harder and i am still in the slacking mood, guess to pass and move on to intermediate is hard if i continue slacking hai. i want to pass and take test!!!

2006-12-01T14:56:00.000+08:00

today makes the first day of the month and and the last month of the year. 30 days ahead we will be welcoming the year of 2007. so fast.

like my new blogskin? i like it alot cos now other than blue, orange is my second option.

have you thought of what have you done for this year ma?

i have thought some and these all some of the main things that accompany thru this year.
- having to graduate from poly
- looking for job
- starting to work
- planning for my near future and far future
- taken driving test for thrice and still cmi (hai, think this is my regrets for the year)
- do alot of different things with dear
- doing decorative spray for christmas (for my library)
- taking japanese lesson (drag for a long time, now ele 2)
- hanging out with frens.

think i didnt have any interesting things and i am going to make sure that i will spend my fullest next year, travelling, shopping and everything!

2006-11-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

harlow, back again and i have broke the ice between dear and me lah. so now is ok as usual. as those who knows me well, sure know i keep quarrelling with him. siao one lah for both of us. perhaps i'm a loner, needs people to pei me loh. haha.

just hear from one of my jap fren saying that the jap teacher jumping to another company, she say now that she know, think i haven sign out, wanted to ask me to jump there too since it is quite near to where i am studying now. (still in orchard). i told my fren, if we cant take what we learn here, then when we intend to proceed to another level, we jump there and she was laughing haha. she is really a great teacher but maybe is the course itself too rush and she dun like it. i also have a hard time absorbing as it is not the same as in the poly one. hai. so still trying my best.

not happy with my ele 1 result cos i last min now learn lesson le, have to really study hard, got motivated by en, so must study as hard as she is. to be frank, she really motivate me to study in poly that's why i can score good. haha thanks, en.

going to change my skin soon but need advice from those who view my blog, which skin is nicer?

this is no 1

this is no. 2

this is no. 3

this is no 4

this is no 5

this is no 6

help me see which is nice ok? thanks

siging out...

2006-11-22T10:53:00.000+08:00

today is the third day of cold war with dear. just dunno what have happen to us. hai. he just dun bother to call just msg me when he is going to sleep only. i really dunno what he wants nor do. he just seems to do nothing about it and expect the problems to go away by itself. it's just a selfish and irresponsible thing to do it and that is wat i hate about him the most. hai...

today late for work, think i am the boldest to do that. haha. haven hear anything about my lateness but sure will get it later. really feel very pissed nowadays. with relationship, work to worry about, my japanese i have to worry too for i cant find a good timeslot for my next commencement hai sian...

going to act busy and do things or else i will have a parrot for the whole of today nagging at me. hai...

2006-11-21T16:20:00.000+08:00

this will be my second blog for the day. not that i free but somehowno mood in working so come here to relax and vent things out wahaha...

just now my manager gave me a performance form and ask me to fill it up, says it is for my confirmation and from my colleague say this is also to determined that if i am able to get the bonus in april. but the times is still long, still got nearly 5 months to go before the bonus and i not sure if i am able to cope with it. my probation ends in jan 07, which means even pay increase, i have to wait till feb which is three months later and i dun think i can last so long, so i ask some of my frens, including lecturer.

the lecturer ask me to follow my heart to make the choice, if i were to do it i will chose to quit, but i haven find a job, somemore now end of the year le hard to find a job hai.

frens some told me, not happy then dun work there what for force urself to do it; others say just work a bit longer and wait till you got the increment and the bonus then leave. this is good as got money to push you thru the months, but how long can the money push? not as if it is 2k or wat for the increment to push you thru. hai i think at most only plus $100 so if i guess correctly then will i still stay? hai another thing is that my resume will not be nice with the library executive cos one is not office , two i not going to work in library anymore, three like kind of wastetime working here without learning any new thing. hai headach. all blame to me.

if times can turn back, i wanna change a lot of things really. i want to study hard for my o'level, after O's find a good job and learn japanese, driving learn early too, score well for my poly results, and planned well for my time to do all things and go exercise. Who knows by that time, i may even be taking jap JLPT Level 2 and even driving on the road and even slimmer than now hai. all is just dream hai....

everything (including nightmare) is just the beginning....

2006-11-21T11:31:00.000+08:00

i really cant take it anymore but wat can i do? have to work damn sian. me and 1 of the colleagues cant take it anymore. she is so unreasonable and unbearable. as long as is library thing everything push to me. wat else can she do... hai i really hope that i will resign now so that i dun need to do audit and got shot by her again. she just thought everything is so easy to be done, might as well you do it urself before concluding then. hai

maybe is she tends to compare me and the ex librarian as she is very experience and when she leave, they even order a buffet for her as farewell, see that is how she means to her. i dun think is becos of she work here long but the fact they like wat she do. please lah, dun compare me with others. others may be good at some strength and i may be good at some too. just dun use becos of the same job to measure. like apple and oranges are fruits but why cant you use apple to compare with oranges, same logic ma hai.

getting pissed every single day when that is work. hai really want to quit!!!! people bonus in DEC but we bonus in APRIL. What the HELL. hai so if want me to wait for that might as well i quit. still have to put up face with her and tolerate her nonsense, still say that listen to suggestions. dun bluff lah.

i dun like this job, dun like the environment, dun like the people, dun feel part of the company, dun feel the importance in this company, but more to a anger ventalitor machine. so you expect me to stay loyal, wait long long...

she only know how to say me when students complaint. please lah also see situation ma, she ah, people complaint about library computer slow, tell her about becos of the ram only 128 how to go fast? then she say is still ok with her. i was like, wat the hell, of cos student compare with their house computer slow then complain ma, no brain. still want me to put good mouth to them. wtf. all she scare is student complain then the higher position ask her then now she push all blames to us the lower than her one. sad right, well that is the fact of life. REALITY!!!! WELCOME !!!

i never felt so demoralised before even before my previous companies. make mistakes, they wll help you to cover and prevent it to happen again, tell you that is ok, just do it again. but here, no loh. seems like once you make mistake you are condemn. ask you all lah, if make mistake at least say nice nice lah, but no loh she just want to blame you and piss you off. ask her things that you dunno, she ask you to find out yourself. then wat for i ask you if i know how to find. stupid right. this kind of manager i rather scak her then she fired me. for this i rather earn 1 month less then having her stepping on my tail and keep harping things on me. wait till i vent everything out then you know 老虎不发威当我是病猫. this phrase le. hai

still need to work. i hate it!!!!!

2006-11-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

i pass my elementary test for japanese le. however i have to proceed on and i wont be getting the teacher that taught me in ele 1 cos the schedule is not nice hai =( but no matter wat, i am going to continue to study to fuifill what i want in my goal. haha

friday meet up with my 13 years best friend and her ex and sister to go kbox. at first was only me, her and her ex, but her sis came along so no choice. went to the new kbox in amk, but their songs not very updated and the staff is not knowledgable about their things, even the in-charge. waste about 10 mins at the counter and rushes us out at exactly 10pm. what the hell. cant even let us sing a bit more hai... sian. my fren's sis sing like nobody 's business, at one go key in 10 + songs for herself and all same singer like jolin anf FIR. hai... but a good gathering for me and my fren as we walked home together chatted alot. we are those who hardly meet but know what's each other is thinking and alot of thing to talk about. nice chatting with her.

last nite went to PS with dear, watch a movie and have whole spread of chicken dishes for dinner, feel like we are carnivores haha. we went to watch "just friends" which is a romantic comedy, kind of like " Along came Polly" but is nice, quite funny and lame haha. then we went to thai express for dinner, he order a thai laska with chicken and potato while i order a yellow curry with rice, order a chicken broth and a popiah. later when came, turn out out of 4 dishes we ordered, 3 dish have chicken and two with potato... -_-'' have kind of a hard time eating it...

then went to careffour(dunno speel correct ma) and i saw a hippo cushion and dear buy for me. 1 more added to my collection. perhaps one days must take phtos of all hippo i have and post it.haha then became hippo world!!!

last nite bught a pizza and just now just have pizza too haha. my younger sis treat us and my aunt cos her b'day coming then got some hong bao le haha. kind of relaxed after the test but when i think of i have to work tomolo, i very the sian. really want to quit cos the environment is very the not good and the people as well hai. but my mum suggest me finding a job before jumping to another company, and she say it's end of the year le, most company will be giving bonus le so no one will resign nor recruit. hai

think still have to bear with it le.

2006-11-15T12:00:00.000+08:00

one week never blog le and i feel kind of exhausted nowadays. intending to look for a new job. i hate my current one, really. it's sux, stupid and nothing to learn. really regret taking this jobs up in the first place. ANybody with job lobang tell me lei!

i seriously cant stay here anymore. like du ri ru nian. hai... today the manager still tell me one thing that i was so fed up with but wat can i do. just find her know how to say only but is not feasible nor realistic. she ask me to sit by the door and become a "security guard". not that i despise security job, but i'm employed as an executive not that lah. the company jusy too stingy le. next year budget cant bring forward ah. they jus dun understand one. they think i can split myself into twos or threes to watch the whole library ah.

damn pissed with them and i still have to bear with it if i wan to quit cos one month notice. hai.
why this kind of thing always happen to me. lousy work. hai. really waiting for them to sack me off and everything will be just ok. really wish.

my japanese is coming and at tomolo but i have yet to finish up studying for it. too much to learn yet little time. i think i have myself to blame with. spend so much of time to slack around and study last min. really kind of scare what will happen if i study my degree course hai....

2006-11-08T14:05:00.000+08:00

i'm back after a day break. today is a quiet day cos morning there is no class and no one is able to disturb or distrupt me. boss went on holiday add on to the quietness i longed for. my boss's voice to me was a noise, even though she may not talk to me but whenever she was talking to other colleague and i can hear her, it pissed me off. hai.

kind of good today as i am able to finish what i wanted to finish for a long time. hope that i will be able to be guai these days and faster get my things done submit to her and boss won't pester me anymore. but i'm scare, the faster i do, the more thing she will ask me too. hai how?i just dunno just what is the right approach to tackle this problem. guess next month i'll burying my head in the stock-taking. i feel that the books again had feets and ran off le. hai. this time boss say it will be my responsibility for the loss books. i want to protest!!! i have told her dozen of times that the library need a security system to 1 - track books, 2 - act as security and 3 - help out in the procedures of borrowing, returning books. cos the current system is not good at all. cant track which books missing, no picture of the books, so even missing i also dunno for i may never ever seen the book before, you'll never know.

feel like quiting but i scare i wont be able to find a job that i want and long for plus i going to study next year and some company may not want me at all due to that problem. hai. my head is cracking out soon..

anybody can help me??? hai btw i'm having my japanese test next week hope that i can passed and proceed to the next level!

sudden have a wishlist in my head: 1- pass jap test, 2-pass driving, 3- go for a holiday, 4- earn more money and spend less, 5- give myself a long long break!, 6- have dear to accompany more and go to places we never been. haha

tooo greedy le... wahaha... save money first...

2006-11-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for a long time but all i have are bad news for you all. i have failed my driving again and all thanks to a just learning motorcyclist and a tester that forced me to do the very 'incredible' things when in fact i should'nt have done it at all. i guess my failure has been repeated by myself to over 30 ++ people and i dun wish to say it again so dun ask ok? i'll be taking again in feb 07. hope that time really can passed. sick of waiting. i can even tell you that i took only 5 months to learn everything but i took 10 months to take my test (cos each interval from first test to another is about 3 months, so i now not only wasting my time for the test to come, i'm also waiting for my money to be waste. hai. why all these things have to happen to me????

I took nearly a week off for the test and when i come back to work, i thought that the trip to Phuket will be proceed as per normal but i hear a bad news, they are cancelling the trip due to unable to book tickets. i was like wah lao, i really must salute them. last min buy tickets think got meh, use backside think also know what, you 1 month before the trip to book tickets, chances of buying it i feel is less than 50% le, you still last min buy. hai. really no brain. think that only you are the only company going to holiday ah. For ur info, Secondary school already having holidays and next week i think, primary sch also having holidays too, parents have already book tickets le, wait for you meh. in the end, they have a stupid gathering session and a buffet at an itatlian restaurant and they think that is already ok le. hai... by the way, i didnt even went for the buffet.

alot of unhappy things dunno why happen to me and my family. first is i fail test, next is my parents' holiday trip end early due to my mum have a fall and got 3 stitches on the back of her head. hai dunno what's going to happen. i can just say this year is not for me. hai...

met up with an ex colleague from renn thai and went out to orchard with him. he seems very moody and hagged after the breaking up with his gf. hai. feel sad for him and i cant do anything to help him. just only able to lend ear to him. i think is a huge impact for him as his ex like someone else and lie to him. how can she do this to him? after all they have been together for 3 years. i know that long distance relationship is hard to maintain but my fren is trying his best hai. (they are from malaysiaand my fren is workin here. hai just hope that he pull himself up. dunno i just feel that the thing he do now is to make his ex realise that he got everything that she wan him to have like having a car, laptop and he intend to buy a house next year. hai. he dun even have money and he is so ambitious about it. if i didnt tell you he is just 21 this year. hai

i feel that he is using all these goals to make him busy and to prove that he can have all these when he wanted it. but i scare he may overwork himself hai.... hope he take care.

need to work le hai... got any lobang for jobs tell me, i wanted to switch jobs!

2006-10-25T11:53:00.000+08:00

I took a quiz just now. it's about the five love language and the results is shown below

The Five Love Languages
Your primary love language is probably Quality Time
with a secondary love language being Physical Touch.

Complete set of results
Quality Time: 9
Physical Touch: 7
Acts of Service: 6
Words of Affirmation: 5
Receiving Gifts: 3

perhaps i really need i really need more time and attention from my dear. hope that he is able to give me. can he???

today will be my last day in the office before i went for my leave. taking leave to prepare myself for the driving again.. sian

2006-10-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday was dear's b'day. didnt really do anything haha. we just meet and went to escape theme park for the day. it was great but then very warm and stuffy becos of the haze. we reach about 12 plus and then began our 'adventure'.

first we went to play go kart but maybe we are so excited, we didnt realise that we may be queuing at least 45 min for a ride. cos can also say got alot of people. the track is for beginner and family one, so when it's our turn, they request either we both take one kart or we have to go for the advanced tracks to have the individual ride. so in the end we take together, it was a fun experience cos dear drive me for the first time. it was a very good experience despite he drive a bit reckless say want to be jay chou, to do piao yi... haha =p

next we went to play 360 degree coaster , i was the one to persuade dear to play but in the end i was the one to be scare of. came down with a fright and a bit headach. hai... so useless le. unlike in the past. we only play a few items as some are for kids and not many attractions to began with. so we keep on playing the karts.

this is my present for him.

photo taken while waiting...

the karts we been waiting for...

the long queue before us.... hai sian

i'm the chauffeur for dear.

my big candy floss

cotton wool and sugar cube...

this is my halloween monster that i made from candy floss (erh... i know is digusting but it's cute)

before transformation..

After transformation (with ears)....

Why are you staring at me???

Melting out, the brain and tail is exposed...

Eating out last bit of 'it'

After our adventures ends, at the bus stop. (exhausted and sian look)

that's the end. btw all these photos are taken from my new phone hehe... (K800i)

2006-10-11T10:34:00.000+08:00

I'm stressed out wont be lasting long le... forever alot of things to do, endless and to make the things worse, i cant even cope with my japanese and still watching tv when reach home. hai.

make dear very pissed with me last nite, now not really talking to each other sad. =(
hai. just hope that everything will turn out fine.

i hvae to have a tracking list to make sure that i do all these things before i got haunt by my manager again. i really dunno how all can stand her. so demanding and think others got nothing to do like that one.

Tracklist: - do up the website
- search for search engine
- check out the vcds
- do up a booklist for books to be bought

sound easy yet is hard as there is forever surprise on the way.. hai...

dear's birthday is coming soon and i more or less have plan wat i want to do but have yet to decide what present to give him hai..

All these things are making my head big big.

2006-10-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

i dunno what to write these days as too many things happen and very sian. just show you all my latest hippo collection haha. enjoy!

this hippo cushion is dear buy for me de. cute right?

these are bought when we went to the zoo...

this is my present for today!!! i even got it in key chain form as couple but i place in my box too bad haha.

tat's it so far. haha. got time i'll diplay all my collection. so please have the patience...

Hippo talking: Pls wait, I'LL BE BACK!!! WAHAHA

2006-09-22T14:21:00.000+08:00

I saw two email saying about meaningful things and i like to share with you all here.

Love ... it's a kind of feeling that most of us can't really control.
Sometimes it just happen when you least expected it to happen.

What Is Love?

It is a mystery why we fall in love.
It is a mystery how it happens.
It is a mystery when it comes.

It is a mystery why some love grows
and it is a mystery why some love fails.
You can analyze this mystery and
look for reasons and causes,
but you will never do anymore
than take the life out of the experience.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life -
the gift of love will come to you in full flower,
and you will take hold of it
and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty.

This is the dream we all share.
More often, it will come and take hold of you,
celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When people fall out of love,
they want answers where there are no answers.
They want to know what is wrong
in them that makes the other person no
longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change,
thinking that if some small things were different,
love would bloom again.

They blame their circumstances
and say that if they go far away and start
a new life together,their love will grow.
They try anything to give meaning to what has happened.

If you find yourself in love with someone
who does not love you, be gentle with yourself.
There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in
the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love
with you and you don't love him,
feel honored that love came and called at your door,
but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage; do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you,
and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys,
even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another,
and he falls in love with you,
and then love chooses to leave,
do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame.
Let it go .....

There is a reason and there is a meaning.
You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love.
Love chooses you.

The secret of love is that it is a gift,
and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.

If you keep your heart open, it will come again!

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After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said I love you but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you.

The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my MOTHER, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally.That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie."What's wrong, are you well," she asked? My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news."I thought that it would be pleasant evening with you," I responded. "Just the two of us."She thought about it for a moment, and then said, "I would like that very much."

That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house,I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary.She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's."I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed, "she said, as she got into the car. "They can't wait to hear about our meeting". We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady.

After we sat down, I had to read the menu.Large print. Half way through the entries, I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips."It was I who used to have to read the menu when you were small," she said."Then it's time that you relax and let me return the favor," I responded.During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation - nothing extraordinary, but catching up on recent events of each other's life.We talked so much that we missed the movie.As we arrived at her house later, she said, "I'll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you." I agreed.

"How was your dinner date?" asked my wife when I got home."Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined," I answered.

A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't do anything for her.Some time later,

I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined.An attached note said: "I paid this bill in advance. I wasn't sure that I could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two plates one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you, son."At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time: "I LOVE YOU!" and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve.

Nothing in life is more important than God and your family. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till "some other time."

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By the way i think i will change another blogskin cos i hear from my librarian that her mum also use the same blogskin as me. -_-''

does that mean that my taste so aunite? -_-'' will find one asap

2006-09-21T16:52:00.000+08:00

Today has been quite a hectic day. first thing in the morning when i come to the office i have heard that some student's art piece are missing and to make the thing worse, the art pieces are for their art exam and the lecturer has yet to mark and grade them. the students are very upset and demand what has happen.

we have check the CCTV and found out that some of the part time students are suspicious so the outcome is yet to know have to wait for my colleague to do the investigation. i sometimes wonder, this is a school for the adults to study yet these things still may happen. it's such a shame that some of the adults steal things for their own uses even up to now. just hope that they will know that it is wrong and be responsible for what they did. i know that books that are relevant and sacred in the library is limited but they also ought to spare a thought for others. if you want the book then buy it. maybe the price may be much cheaper than you expected. i recently help a group of students to buy a resource book which is helpful to them. And guess how much is the book? $ 60? $70? the original price is $70 and i only get for $35 per book! 35!!! wherer can you get such a offer and it's half price of the original of the book.

so i just hope that they can ask if they want to buy and not resort to stealing. if cannot afford, at least inform us and we will see how to help them right? there's a saying: tian wu jue neng zhi ru right?

enough of saying that. today i have been doing quite a number of books. have to catalogue them in the system. and i have yet to do one-tird of it becos of the previous incident that i mention. not to mention that i have alot of photocopying to do for the lecturer.

to add on, last night i have spend 2 and a half hours writing minutes for yesterday's meeting and i dun understand why i have spend such a long time when the format is there le haha. too long never touch typing thing le haha. tata

knocking off soon... =p

2006-09-18T16:54:00.000+08:00

New Skin uploaded.

seein my blog sian le then i decide to change the skin. haha also see huai en and betsy change so also wan to change haha. my frequency to my own blog is like once a week while i see others like almost every day. hai so loyal to other blog but not myself. haha.

yesterday went for japanese course and it's as if i'm in a train, the teacher taught so much that i got blurred half way. to be frank, i never thought that it will be so taxing learning this jap compared to the one i learn in poly. though poly got quiz all that but what we learn we keep on practice but for this course no loh, every week learn new thing so kind of hard to absorb. last week studies didnt go home and revise and in the end i forget some le hai. feel like other class mates got study what have been taught, so i also have to improve le. must jia you so that i can be promoted to E2.

mooncake festival coming le so have to buy mooncake to eat. the long waiting for my black sesame mooncake from shangri-la is here. but the pice is more expensive now. it cost 39.80 for 4 normal size mooncake which equals to 10 per piece hai... must get dear to buy for me haha...

sept is ending soon and soon the driving test will be here. fail twice and get very demoralised dunno what happen, is it i think too much or is my over-confidence make me got killed by the test? i dunno just hope this will turn out fine and keeping my finger crossed. one more hour till i knock off. so jia you bah. haha

2006-09-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

Abandon my blog for a long time now coming back once in a blue moon. haha =p

last nite went out with dear for shopping and for my lesson. went for my first japanese lesson, it's quite ok and the teacher quite friendly. though i learnt before but it seems like i return back to my teacher le haha. and also the way they pronounce is different too. wonder is it becos of the teacher themselves or have one teacher mispronounce haha i dunno.. but it's quite fun. that's a aunties sitting beside me at first was ok but when it come to rehearse what welearnt with each other i have to rehearse with her. hai and she will mispronounce and also say loudly. hai. haha

in the end dear has to wait for me for 3 hours. told him to go walk walk but he dun like to shop alone, ask him go home later meet me again then so ma fun. so in the end he just wait loh. ask him to go class with me and study together he dun wan, say will distracted and in the end leave me alone. all others in my class mostly come in pairs, like sisters, frens... unlike me hai...

then after the class, we went to shop and eat at pepper lunch. first time eat there and it's not bad but just a bit ex loh. (cos i'm broke le.. all the expenses is from my pay. didnt get any $$ from mum other than driving then others have to pay myself. like transport, phone bill, insurance and my jap course fee. ) So many to spend on yet so little money been earned. and i dun save much worse still haha...

went to taka after that and guess what i saw there? HIPPOS! and i drag dear down to see the hippo. hear from the staff that is pre-launch sales so if didnt buy now hard to buy in the future so i buy alot. spend about $70++ on it haha so happy. next time will put the photo in if i manage to remenber. i got a couple hippo piggy bank, key chain and a hippo cushions. at first wanted to buy the photo frame and stuff toys as well, but i feel that i dun wan so many of the same variety of the hippo so i turn dear down. i know he know that i like hippo alot and willing to spend on me but is too ex and i dun need so much. i once told him that if one day got one guy buy me a big big hippo (like those really big bear) i will marry the guy, so he saw two there and say if he buy for me will i marry him so i say is too small haha. cos it is really smaller than those i want and plus it's already cost 85 dollars so i think not very worth it haha... so that goes his chance cos singapore's hippo fant shop that sell the baby clothes have closed down (if i not wrong) so there is no other places that sell hippos haha.

after that we even went to J8 cos i wan to buy file for my jap class then in the end buy foolscap paper as well. alot of things in our hands yet we still go marketing in the NTUC supermarket. by the time we come out, the hands are so full that we cant even hold hands and the thing keep hitting us haha.

no choice and i scare later have to squeeze in the bus all that with these things so take cab home. really is a symptons i seen. when you need a cab, there's no where to been seen. when you dun need one, there is lots of it. -_-'' that's life (i guess)

enjoy my day and i guess it's the first ever time that we buy so many things together. haha cya