busy week

Have been helping my uncle and begin to work at his office more to data entry but then it is better than the bookshop (cos the $$ is more and better benefit haha - uncle drive me home so save $$ cos aunt's workplace at my house there haha. earning and saving $$ at the same time where got so good but indeed so good haha.) bookshop pay is only $5 and quite alot of work to do so not that good lo but there is livelier than mu uncle's cos there got 4-5 ppl while my uncle there only got 2, he and the accountant so kind of boring. haha.

been working hard to earn $$ so as to pay back wat i loan from mum and then can start to save $$ without any loan accumulated. things are ok so far but very tired cos didnt even got time to rest after the weeks' of preparing and taking exams so very tired. maybe he is right cos he is now enjoying his holiday at home and not working just playing games, watching anime and relaxing, while i have to work to earn $$$ different lives and perspectives hai. that's why we drift apart. dun wan to talk about him and just let the things goes it nature course since no one is doing anything. he is not doing the thing i want and i'm not taking the thing he is doing ( or never do at all). getting draggy and tired of it and wan to leave it as it is.

if we are fated to be together things will be done, changes will be made but if not too bad then. parting may be better for both of us then. i'm look very positively now towards this, not going to let myself have the excuse of i love him but i couldn't put down the relationship since we have been together so long hence thing have to be made and i have done it -> i have force myself to put down the relationship and not regret thinking that we have been so long and this happen. not going to let this go over me for this will only drag on and cause more pain and hurt between us that are so wounded already.

hence thinking positively ios the way to do it be it you like it or not and to get on with life. i have no life at all and now it is time for me to get some life out of myself!

school starting on mon and have to prepare anything cos too lazy and tired, rather watch manga or anime after coming home from work then to pack things hai. perhaps tomolo have to do it and have a clean desk before the start of new term. jia you bah!