lat nite act kind of impulse, and went to buy 2 japanese books for refernce. more to travel guide that kind but i think it's helping as i cant find any dictionary plus it's very ex, 60 plus per book. but i manage to but 2 handy book @ $20, 10 each. haha . quite a good buy. hope it's useful. will post the pic.

i see that i need about 10 more blog before i hit hundred, so i hope that i will hit it by the end of this year, yipee...
haha

thought of going to chalet at the year end, intending to go with dear, but dunno can book a not, cos last min haha. if not i go for hangout @ mt emily, haha, expensive, but i think the ambience is nice. can try out bah haha. but a bit ex. =(

but nvm, once a while only, must have the first time for everything haha.

jya.

back to blogging le. now very free haha got time to watch anime though my com is mute, cos i finish doing my stuff le haha. being left alone is a good thing but at times is too lonely, luckily i know how to ease my boredom haha.

last nite was my dad's b'day, and we went to soup restaurant with my aunt and her boss. the food there was quite nice but the place is kind of small and crampped hai. service wise is ok but it seems like they dun have enough staff as it's hard to call for them when you need help. finish the dinner quite fast ate only 1 hour or even less. at first was intending to treat my dad but it turn out to be my aunt's boss (family fren) treating cos he was the closest to the counter and he just walk there and pay the bill. i cant even pay hai.... in the end still got said by my dad who say why i didnt foot the bill. unreasonable. hai.

dear was suppose to be off today but didnt everytime got trick one. hai just dun understand why he so unlucky like me, i fail my driving test but he like he keep striking duty hai. so many people in the army, same rank as he, same branch or company as he, people all got only 1 guard duty, he got 2. people got off despite these few weeks busy, he got but later got to cancel. -_-'' hai, dunno ah.

think all my unluckily thing he passed to me one since he went into army earlier than i take my driving test haha. this is wat i say contagious. haha. dear, just kidding ah!

boss is back and seems like a lot of thing to ask her but maybe tomolo, better get the things done she want first rather than she ask me. did i say before? she say that i am hardworkin (during appraisal) but not driven!!! ALL THE THINGS SHE ASKED ME TO IMPROVE IS TO BE MORE DRIVEN, so have to show her HOW DRIVEN I WAS before i leave the company. hai

today got facial but maybe not going cos they didnt call to remind and i have yet to finish up my japanese sukudai (homework) got to finish since friday is coming and i'm still in the midst of lost and slacking, must buck up or else i cant catch up with others.

going to have a test on friday must pass cos in order to pass this ele 2, i must have at least 75% of attendance and passing of tests to proceed to intermediate. hai. she is going to test us on katakana, where i cant even remenber, think i need 48 hr than 24 hr to catch up. hai

why so many things happen to me these days? why??? i'm busy and i cant seem to get my things done and feel so tired everyday, worse than before. is it becos i started to have lesson on weekday (fri) and plus i cant cope nor i didnt find time to study for my japanese? hai how how? anyway to help me!!!!

I NEED HELP URGENTLY AND BADLY!!!!

early in the morning initially was a fine day but after just quarrel with one uncivilised person on the phone dampened my moods. still say that the rule are dead but human are flexible. what the heel, if all rules are to be bend, why will they have the rules in the first place, they just cant take advantage that they are the customers mean that we have to give in to them wat. wat kind of logic is that. just becos i'm the provider, doesn't mean i have to tolerate the nonsense wat. think you so big, then dun call to renew,still need my help and act so arrogant. i hate this kind of people, spoit my day!!!

anyway, enough of that stupid person. think i will resign soon as the students here are unreasonable.hai need to find a new job sian sian sian. realy regret accpeting the job, should look for another hai. no prospect, noisy boss hai. better faster sack me off. haha

anyway, yesterday meet dear and we went for movies again and dear informed me that we have been watching movie for 4 weeks continously. we watched flushed away, just friends, happy feet and lastly open season. haha very rich, he is hinting to cut down on movies cos expensive *(even though he is using SAFRA card got discount to $8.)

but we still have more shows to watch, death note 2, deck in the hall , maybe harry potter (dunno is it this yr and many more haha) alot of nice shows now.

by the way i have bought a new spec, transition lens, lens plus frame cost only 120, will put up the pic soon. dear and i also bought a pair of speakers together, it's chip & dale haha. he got chip and i got dale. kind of expensive but is cute haha. waste a lot of money recently. hai.

japanese class is getting harder and harder and i am still in the slacking mood, guess to pass and move on to intermediate is hard if i continue slacking hai. i want to pass and take test!!!

today makes the first day of the month and and the last month of the year. 30 days ahead we will be welcoming the year of 2007. so fast.

like my new blogskin? i like it alot cos now other than blue, orange is my second option.

have you thought of what have you done for this year ma?

i have thought some and these all some of the main things that accompany thru this year.
- having to graduate from poly
- looking for job
- starting to work
- planning for my near future and far future
- taken driving test for thrice and still cmi (hai, think this is my regrets for the year)
- do alot of different things with dear
- doing decorative spray for christmas (for my library)
- taking japanese lesson (drag for a long time, now ele 2)
- hanging out with frens.

think i didnt have any interesting things and i am going to make sure that i will spend my fullest next year, travelling, shopping and everything!

harlow, back again and i have broke the ice between dear and me lah. so now is ok as usual. as those who knows me well, sure know i keep quarrelling with him. siao one lah for both of us. perhaps i'm a loner, needs people to pei me loh. haha.

just hear from one of my jap fren saying that the jap teacher jumping to another company, she say now that she know, think i haven sign out, wanted to ask me to jump there too since it is quite near to where i am studying now. (still in orchard). i told my fren, if we cant take what we learn here, then when we intend to proceed to another level, we jump there and she was laughing haha. she is really a great teacher but maybe is the course itself too rush and she dun like it. i also have a hard time absorbing as it is not the same as in the poly one. hai. so still trying my best.

not happy with my ele 1 result cos i last min now learn lesson le, have to really study hard, got motivated by en, so must study as hard as she is. to be frank, she really motivate me to study in poly that's why i can score good. haha thanks, en.

going to change my skin soon but need advice from those who view my blog, which skin is nicer?

this is no 1

this is no. 2

this is no. 3

this is no 4

this is no 5

this is no 6

help me see which is nice ok? thanks

siging out...

today is the third day of cold war with dear. just dunno what have happen to us. hai. he just dun bother to call just msg me when he is going to sleep only. i really dunno what he wants nor do. he just seems to do nothing about it and expect the problems to go away by itself. it's just a selfish and irresponsible thing to do it and that is wat i hate about him the most. hai...

today late for work, think i am the boldest to do that. haha. haven hear anything about my lateness but sure will get it later. really feel very pissed nowadays. with relationship, work to worry about, my japanese i have to worry too for i cant find a good timeslot for my next commencement hai sian...

going to act busy and do things or else i will have a parrot for the whole of today nagging at me. hai...

this will be my second blog for the day. not that i free but somehowno mood in working so come here to relax and vent things out wahaha...

just now my manager gave me a performance form and ask me to fill it up, says it is for my confirmation and from my colleague say this is also to determined that if i am able to get the bonus in april. but the times is still long, still got nearly 5 months to go before the bonus and i not sure if i am able to cope with it. my probation ends in jan 07, which means even pay increase, i have to wait till feb which is three months later and i dun think i can last so long, so i ask some of my frens, including lecturer.

the lecturer ask me to follow my heart to make the choice, if i were to do it i will chose to quit, but i haven find a job, somemore now end of the year le hard to find a job hai.

frens some told me, not happy then dun work there what for force urself to do it; others say just work a bit longer and wait till you got the increment and the bonus then leave. this is good as got money to push you thru the months, but how long can the money push? not as if it is 2k or wat for the increment to push you thru. hai i think at most only plus $100 so if i guess correctly then will i still stay? hai another thing is that my resume will not be nice with the library executive cos one is not office , two i not going to work in library anymore, three like kind of wastetime working here without learning any new thing. hai headach. all blame to me.

if times can turn back, i wanna change a lot of things really. i want to study hard for my o'level, after O's find a good job and learn japanese, driving learn early too, score well for my poly results, and planned well for my time to do all things and go exercise. Who knows by that time, i may even be taking jap JLPT Level 2 and even driving on the road and even slimmer than now hai. all is just dream hai....

everything (including nightmare) is just the beginning....

i really cant take it anymore but wat can i do? have to work damn sian. me and 1 of the colleagues cant take it anymore. she is so unreasonable and unbearable. as long as is library thing everything push to me. wat else can she do... hai i really hope that i will resign now so that i dun need to do audit and got shot by her again. she just thought everything is so easy to be done, might as well you do it urself before concluding then. hai

maybe is she tends to compare me and the ex librarian as she is very experience and when she leave, they even order a buffet for her as farewell, see that is how she means to her. i dun think is becos of she work here long but the fact they like wat she do. please lah, dun compare me with others. others may be good at some strength and i may be good at some too. just dun use becos of the same job to measure. like apple and oranges are fruits but why cant you use apple to compare with oranges, same logic ma hai.

getting pissed every single day when that is work. hai really want to quit!!!! people bonus in DEC but we bonus in APRIL. What the HELL. hai so if want me to wait for that might as well i quit. still have to put up face with her and tolerate her nonsense, still say that listen to suggestions. dun bluff lah.

i dun like this job, dun like the environment, dun like the people, dun feel part of the company, dun feel the importance in this company, but more to a anger ventalitor machine. so you expect me to stay loyal, wait long long...

she only know how to say me when students complaint. please lah also see situation ma, she ah, people complaint about library computer slow, tell her about becos of the ram only 128 how to go fast? then she say is still ok with her. i was like, wat the hell, of cos student compare with their house computer slow then complain ma, no brain. still want me to put good mouth to them. wtf. all she scare is student complain then the higher position ask her then now she push all blames to us the lower than her one. sad right, well that is the fact of life. REALITY!!!! WELCOME !!!

i never felt so demoralised before even before my previous companies. make mistakes, they wll help you to cover and prevent it to happen again, tell you that is ok, just do it again. but here, no loh. seems like once you make mistake you are condemn. ask you all lah, if make mistake at least say nice nice lah, but no loh she just want to blame you and piss you off. ask her things that you dunno, she ask you to find out yourself. then wat for i ask you if i know how to find. stupid right. this kind of manager i rather scak her then she fired me. for this i rather earn 1 month less then having her stepping on my tail and keep harping things on me. wait till i vent everything out then you know 老虎不发威当我是病猫. this phrase le. hai

still need to work. i hate it!!!!!