Let me first update the past few days on how I pass my days starting from my anniversary with dear. We at first intend to have dinner on that day itself but it turn out that dear is unable to meet up cos of his army stuff that have delayed him from booking out hai. In the end, I was so fed up that he dun even have the intention of coming down and also throw temper at me instead. In the end I went home without meeting him. Didn’t even bother to message him and can say practically ignore him. But he did came down after all with a puzzle that I have ask for a long time and with some food. No other gift from him =( so sad. So pei him at void deck till nearly midnight then go home. Hai.

Sat went to meet him. Went to his place with the lunch my mum cooks and eat together. As usual, his brother barks at me so loudly but seems so happy cos he is wagging his tail. Think he siao already doing contradicting things just like his older brother -_-‘’. Anyway we jjust shop around then I realize that I have leave my wallet at my workplace so went back to get. Dear was so fed up as we still have to go back and get it, plus the wallet I uase was not wat he bought for me so he is more angrier. Hai. Then went to J8 to cut my hair. Went to the EC House and wait about 20 min for my turn, then dear cant get into the shop cos he is not cutting so he wait outside. Haha then we went shopping and he buy me a ring for the 4th year together. Glad that is he who saw it and ask if I want, not I request from him. Haha. Went honme early cos he have to book in for the night to prepare himself for the army marathon on Sunday.

Today is a boring day for me. The sliding door for my counter spoil again and I thought on sat was ok so dunno who itchy hand make it spoil again and now it seems like I’m more restricted and no privacy cos the student can see my place more openly hai… sian…

i have been very unlucky and unhappy these few days. everything is simply just not right and it's not my day. is either i quarrel with my mum or bf or else is i'm late for work and i injure myself by knocking onto something. i haven been myself these few days i guess hai. got a lot to write but simply dunno where to start...

Shari intro me a job in her company makes me suddenly feel like jumping over but then my contract with the agent is 2 months, so i dunno now confuse. just dunno why inthe first place i took up the libarary job when is not related to what i learn at all hai.. very regret now... hai if i can turn back the time i wont take this job. maybe i take advantage of the time and the job scope tat's y hai... see how i really dunno, lost...

can seems to get someone to talk about it all tat. no even my bf cares, then forget it, just let the days passed

back! i just mange to find a suitable timeslot for my japanese course at my initial school! so happy but it will also mean tat my sub=nday will be burn cos it is on sunday and start from 2-5pm sian. the timing is kind of bad, but for the future of having a third language to show off next time, this is worth it. wahaha! -_-''

but anyway mange to have a seat for the slot is ok. after all is for 8 lesson and cost 200 bucks. so it's ok. as they have their own patented textbook, so i thought maybe something we use to study in nyp, but to my dismay is not and worse, the font is something like the chinese english tat is so stiff and i dun like it. sian...

the classroom is quite ok and it is quiet, but they are evenly disperse, not it the way tat the classroom are side by side unit, but is unit that are alternate, then when having lesson, the classroom door is open, dunno for wat? to show how they teach? no aircon? or to distract the student? haha just dunno, maybe when i start the lesson know why they do it then i tell u.

By the day i'm going to watch fireworks tonight!YEAH! have watch it during the preview, however, it is too fast and too short le, tonight will be fifteen minutes at one go, no interval! YEAH!!!

now in the library going for lunch, this blog should be done by 1130 but drag to now haha... tata

finally have the time to update my blog le. have started working for two weeks (in case anyone dunno about it!) I'm currently working as a library executive at tanjong pagar. The company i worked for say big not big, small not small. Is just simply another educational institution that have both courses to attend as well as childcare centres.

These two weeks have been quite ok but when my wsupervisor ask me to do audit, i began to have ??? in my head. First, why in the middle of the year and why must be after i come in then do? is it trying to show tat how good the ex-librarian is compared to me? i dunno just dun seems to like to be compare with others.

Today was kind of doing the audit and to my dismay, i guess some of the reference books are lost!!!! What the hell, why must all these things happen to me, not before nor after the ex-librarian left? WHY??? hai..

I have encounter so much problems in these two weeks! and to think i thought i can happy go merry, get my pay without doing much things. At first still thought that the ex-librarian have done a good job in the handover, but upon thinking twice, i guess not so. hai.

Am i getting anyone confused? The library is for the working adults or students like u and me that are interested of becoming child-care teacher. The company is offering cert, diploma and degree for early childhood education as well as psychology course.

Anyway as i am working from 10 to 6, all student are mainly full timers, and i get to know some who are friendly and nice to talk with, but others, some like shit as if i ought to do for them. luckily those i know ok one cos they know what they can do haha ....

Quarrel with dear over his fren and his negligence. he ah everytime fren ask him to play game he will and forget about me. not that i mind him playing but he ought to have some restriction ma but he didnt. though he didnt sleep well was to wait for supper but u at least call or wat but he didnt just play, till i called him say him then he very bu shuang then hang my phone. Damn all to his GAY FREN. he just treat me as a spare, fren more important. Perhaps by changing to like gays may suit him more than liking gals. He just dun spare thoughts for me. I think his GAY fren ask him to die, he will do it, but for me, maybe just forget it or dun even care a damn. hai. that is how i feel from the way he treat me and his GAY frens! hai

Poor me, to be so stress up with work and still have to be neglect by bf.... Is this a retribution for throwing temper at him anyhow? hai who knows???

i fail my tp again and i so sian about it... i'm simply so disappointed and upset with myself... hai... such a failure... sian... dunno wat i can say about it. hai

Hi, i'm finally back!!! Fund a job le, starting to work on next monday. Is a library job but have to work on alternate saturday sian this mean that i cant take the japanese course hai sian. Tomolo is my tp hope that i can pass... hai just dun wanna think so much.

finally the day has come, last day in the work place, not that i am bad about the company or wat, is just tat is a relieve that i can finally rest and do the thing i want. ever since graduated, i have been looking for job, but in the end i work in the company that my aunt's fren is working inside,
the environment there is good as the company is small and i get to learn alot of things but becos of my wilfulness, i come to the current company to experience the job of a project coordinator as i have not really experience when i was in my internship. haha.

however, the thing done here is different than the internship. this is more to backstage and the setting up of booth all tat. so is totally different from the internship. this job is good but it is not the one i been asking for tat's y more or less there is a distance for me and the job. but i do enjoy the 2 months spending here and is one of the happiest moment tat i will remenber. hehe,=p

i got my pay yesterday and my taxi claim and i'm so happy about it. i earn more than i am given cos of OT and guess wat, i earn nearly 800++ for my OT and now it seems worthwhile as i have sacrificed alot of my time with my dear as well as sleep time. hehe

going to give dear a big big treat!

i'm damn pissed now. just now was writing the blog half way when the computer hang!!!! so stupid and hang at the wrong time. the more i bear with u, the worse i get and the more info i will lose. luckily, i only leave one and three quarter day when i can finally say good bye to the window 98 computer. it is antique now.

now not feelin very feeling well as the time of the month has come and dunno wat happen jus not well. very jia lat. hai luckily it come now then when i have my tp test. so more of less must say thanks. haha

oh ya, i intend to sign up for a jap course with my dear, force him to join with me, but he has not confirm with me yet but he also seems interested so lucky. can finally have a time with him to study together le haha. wait for quite a long time one. hai... miss him badly...

now i dunno wat to write le cos i forget wat i wrote just now and lazy to think le since i in pain haha so tata