i dunno wat have happen these days between my boy and i. have been drifting apart and now it seems like so hard to maintain it and continue. after all 5 years together may mean that we are getting tired and not been able to meet each other's need as we are too in to our own needs and neglect each other. now is meet less, shorter time, hug less, kiss less, concern less and talk less. everything is cutting down dunno for wat reason. perhaps is me who are too packed with my things and neglect his needs. too hard in working and neglect him and studies. but wat to do need $$$ to survive, now practically is really damn poor student. all expenses bear by myself.

want to earn more money to survive and study hard is not an easy task to do. if given a choice, perhaps i will work and do part time studies but then alot say part time is hard and i think it is wat to do. cant ask mum for daily expenses as i still have 2 sister have to spare a thought hai. life is not as smoothly as it seems and i think i start hating myself for that.

too tired for everything and no one seems to understand and i myself dunno wat have happen. damn tired of living like tat now and seems like when u need someone by the side to support is hard too sob sob.

braking down...