Tuesday blues

I just went for a haircut just now, trim my hair and cut more layers but my mum still think that it’s still long haha. Thought of cutting hair becos the weather is too hot, hair too heavy and I want to cut some hair to reduce my burden. Just like what they say: 三千烦恼思. Too many problems these days; with projects, homework, studying, work and relationship hai.

These days I dunno is becos I have been piling my feelings or I have changed or what. Hai feel so lost and isolated and no one to turn to but what to do. Forget it and get on with life. How they treat me I just bear with it. Things I hate most is being taken for granted and seems like a fool. Want to backstab or what say in front of me dun show me two side of you. You expect me to help you and when I need your help you turn your back against me, is it the way you ought to do? I’m sick of acting in front of you. Why cant I be the way I want to be. Just what you want me to do. I will try to learn to be smart and not be manipulated by you anymore. I’ve been truthful to you and this is what I get in the end, then fine. I got nothing to say and I will go with the flow then.

Now have to rush my assignment as I heard that one of my fren has completed her work and that’s so fast. Hai I have not do anything at all and I’m worried and panicking but nothing seems to go the way I wanted. Just what is happening to me, I’m lost hai. Been very tired these days and tends to get sleepy, perhaps my body is reaching its limit to my busy schedule hai. Didn’t even have the time to recover nor relax at all. Nothing seems to be helpful. Hai. Please give me more time and strength to get thru this period of time, though it may drag to year end.
The more I want the thing to do it my way, the worse it stray away from the course. What the hell hai.

Exams in 1 month’s time and I have done nothing,
AND I hope HISTORY WONT REPEAT ITSELF ANYMORE!!!

BYE TO HISTORY!!!