Today is monday le, so fast, the weekends has pass just at a blink of eye. hai... Now i back in the office, guess slacking again till the end of today? You may think is good but for me is not. Not for me, and never occur to me. If it is just a while, i dun mind but not for the whole 8.5 hours in the office, begging people to give me things to do. I know is bored and i need not go to tat extend but, i really cant stand it le. Started to feel sick and tired with this kind of life. I started to ponder and perhaps wish i have not take this job, for it seems like nothing to do and what they can do is have so call everything ready and ask the temp to come in. Others who are temp and attachment dun mind and seems to get past the free time easy, but definitely not for me. Perhaps the place i'm sitting is too obivious to do anything le...

Am i expecting alot from everyone, or have i change so much that i become intolerable for others to stand me? Or has i been putting faces to the people whom i want attention or is it they are the one that cant even do or bother to do things for me. Is it i asking too much, or is it becos the thing i want is so simple that no one can give or understand except me? hai...

Sat: Spend whole day at home with my bf, who came to tution my sis calculus, mine!, the calculus for engineering is so damn hard and they discuss it for a long period. Unlike the calculus i took last year, which is much easier to understand. After that, he just stay at my place to watch Full metal Alchemist cos his house, neither his com nor the player can play it. So lousy. Cook for him dinner and he take for granted, scold him for not listening to what i told him and do thing in his way and he dun bother to apologise (and still watching for the vcd) till i so pissed off with him that i clear my stuff with anger and dump the things on the floor so loud then he start to switch off and then console me. Just becos i ask him to go watch the vcd, does it means he must follow? Sometimes, i just dunno what he is trying to do or if he know what i want from him ma? Playing reverse psychologic maybe the bad thing after all as he is so slow hai... -_-'' just dunno what to say...

Sun: Stay at home and slack thru out then till evening then began to iron my clothes =p After which watch the scoody-doo movie and it seems so silly show but still enjoyable.

Now still waiting for him to msg me but he didnt.... =(

Today, alot of thing pissed me off, just early in the morning. I missed my bus, then i had to wait for another one which came in so late and the bus is three quarter fill le. Then nevermind, a lady who was behind me keep squeezing me and then keep swinging her hair as she tie her hair ponytail... Keep squeezing, already no space and keep doing it, think is fun ah. Cant consider for others one lei. Keep on knocking me and didnt say sorry. Just what she want, so bog ah. Then nevermind, next i saw an old lady and a man trying to squeeze in as well, but upon seeing that the frontcouldn't get in, so they use the back door to get in. How unreasonable of them to do that. If you want to get into the bus then get out of the house early, so that u need not have to be squeeze with others and need not have to get into the bus from behind and had a free ride ma. How irresponsible of them to do that. Without getting paid the bus fare and get to travel to their destination..

Actually got alot of thing to say out, my views all that, but now in the office is inconvenient and i feel that i shouldn't say more anymore cos i also dun have any mood le...

i'm quite in a bad mood, as my last night is not a good one... Quarrel with my bf and we are having cold war... Hai, call him, he dun answer, msg him, he dun bother to reply. Call him about 1 hour plus before i fall asleep. Even when i in the night wake up, i still call him but still... no answer...

Until this morning, when i was about to reach my office, then he reply me. Hai, i dunno what's wrong with me. But 1 thing for sure is that, i pissed him off badly. I've been unreasonable, mu zhong wu ren and i always want him to give in, what else? hai... Maybe like what i told him, he shouldn't give in too much that will results me in too overbearing and take him to for granted le.. i just dunno what i want from him, make his life so difficult and refused to give in to him. Afterall, he has been sandwiched between his mum and me and now becos of small things, i keep quarreling with him, causing our relationship to suffer and led us to quarrel that sometimes, we cant even stand each other no longer more... Dear, i'm sorry, really sorry, forgive me ok?

Today is the first day of work, yet nothing to do. The environment seems so tense up and i dun feel comfortable. Perhaps is that the former job is in a small working environment that now coming to a big one seems kind of hard to cope with it. Hai. Not only that, today came too earlier already. Cos i rather i be early than be late so i leave house about 0720-0725, and i only got on the bus at 0745 that i kind of freak out cos i'm afraid that i will be late as the traffic where i'm waiting is jammed... However, it only took about 15-20 min to get here( though work in the same area before, but in the past, i took the company transport one, so can say is the first time gauging the time to come here.

So been bored and nothing to do, shi hui ask me to surf the net so i surf for a long time but dun really know what to surf as i'm sitting in a quite open space that i feel that it will be weird and awkward to go to crime library to see those gruesome murders or what. So in order to refrain myself from doing it, i went to browse the squash website. And there i found the below link to the web saying that squash is the healthiest sports activity. The other sports been in the top ten are:
1. Squash2. Rowing3. Rock Climbing4. Swimming5. Cross-country Skiing6. Basketball7. Cycling8. Running9. Modern Pentathlon10. Boxing

And they are based on the 6 criteria:
- cardiorespiratory endurance: 4.5
- muscular strength: 3
- muscular endurance: 5
- flexibility: 3
- calories/ 30 minutes: 5
and lastly - injury risk: 2.

Lucky, i'm not wrong to make my choice there. So cool, never know that squash can be so healthy! Below is the web about the healthiest sports...

http://www.squashplayer.co.uk/sp_latest/forbes_survey.htm

Just now saw my ex-colleagues, really must see when meet up for lunch or it will be so awkward to avoid them, as if i dunno them then it will be bad. Actually i quite like their companion during the attachment that time. tata

Today's blog has been drag for the whole of two days! Thought of writting it on friday when i was in the Sport's company for the last day. But sadly i dun have the time to write when i was in the office and two of my colleagues were on MC, so sad. One who was sick, was deston, our designer as well as our dj, cos he will keep us entertain with his music and songs. Last day without any music, makes the office seems so quiet and deadl (as the company itself is small...) And another one was the purchasing person. Total by right, the strength in the office (excluding the sales persons adn retail staff) should have 7 people one which is : lady boss, GM, my manager, 1 purchasing, 1 designer, 1 accountant and me. But on friday, only 3 of us, which are all from finance dept... -_-'' so sad...

Then exactly the environment is good as few people, however one thing i dun get it is that why the work load of the back logs is damn alot and it seems that it take very the long to clear up for about half a year delayed.

Enough of this. I have REBOND my hair yesterday, the effect was good, look very natural but i hate my fringe cos i heard the wrong thing and the hairdresser cut it wrong. She say cut straight is it, i thought she meant the back so i was like ok, cos i dun wan to cut layer, scare later hair dun look straight, but instead of cutting the back first, she cut my fringe and now it look so nerd and short... -_-''' hate the fringe, if not, all will be perfect...

Tues will be starting new job, hope everything is ok. dun have mood to write le, so i go play game le. tata

I’m back to blog le. Nowadays even though busy, when I reach home, I’m damn shagged already, power has been draining off ever since I start work in this current company. A lot of things to do each days and it seems endless. Luckily, I’m ending the job soon but I will soon miss them as I like the working environment and the colleagues here, all are friendly and nice. Always like to say dirty jokes all that, but all got backfired as my manager ask them to stop influence me haha… Leave only two days before I leave the company and here I like to thank everyone for taking good care of me and treating me to lunch (especially lady boss and my manager.) Thank you, will not forget you all one.

These days happen a lot of things but I cant remember and I dun wan to remember anyone of them. Be it good or bad…. Just hope that I will like my new company and if possible to convert to permanent rather than just a temp, or else, I have to restart my searching for job again which is so tedious and I dun really like.

I have some current plans on what I want to do:
- Rebond my hair
- Get my car license fast and then can drive
- Have at least 1k in both of my accounts (cos I dun save and keep spending)
- Hope to earn more money
- Sleep more
- Watch my diet and exercise (hardly exercise nowadays)
- Take care of my face and do bit of make-up

Hope all went well bah… =p

Went out to work and meet my dear after that. Quite tiring, but there is something to cheer me up! I like to do events things. Now i 'm given a chance to do it. Though it may be just temp but i hope at the end of the temp, i will be able to work there as full timer. That will be what i hope now. I have told my manager about me wanted to join there. She is happy for me, but at the same time, it means that i have to rush out all the things that she gave me before i change and it leaves me with only two weeks to complete all the tasks that she gave me.

Went to bugis with my dear and so qiao meet my sec school mates, and they are going to have dinner. Really long time never see them le. haha. Everybody change le bah except me, i mean in term of looks and image bah haha. I bought a book that i feel is so meaningful...

It goes like this...
只想跟你在一起

也许我只是一个非常平凡的人，
如果可以自私一次，拥有梦想，
那么，我希望爱你。

就好像天上的繁星，
有些星星虽然存在，我们却看不见：
而人也一样， 渺小地存在於浩瀚宇宙中。
唯有爱情，
可以让我们有如春天的芽，
拥有一袭翠绿的新。

人有千千万万，
能够在茫茫人海中遇见你，
这样的机率是科学都算不出来的！

如果，每个人都要刻骨铭心地爱一个人，
那么我希望， 那个人就是你。

Again long time never blog le, now in the office, maybe got backup turn very daring le. Or maybe I’m getting use of their culture of being causal and relax. I get to have my breakfast in the office after I start work (at 9am). Usually I only buy Bao to eat and then proceed working. Or maybe is becos GM not in the office more daring, (cos I sit directly outside the GM’s room.

Right now after lunch, I’m listening to my player while typing this. Will still feel scare of being discover but… hai.. I have a horrible experience while having lunch. I had Yong Tau Foo for lunch since I had my breakfast earlier. Just now while eating my Yong Tau Foo, there is a black black thing, thinking is the seaweed I just ignore it, cos I dun really eat so I just ignore, but when look at it more weird, cos it got two feeder. My colleagues and I looked in disgust and I nearly puck out cos I have a few bite of the food inside. Errhhh. Yucks! Now thinking of it makes me tremble. Shown it back to the stall, she just say I want money back or have another bowl and say is accident. What the hell man.

From then on, not going to eat any of it. I have phobia for it le… Going to work le. Cya.

Haven been blogging for nearly two weeks plus le. Have been quite depressing since i fail my TP. Have to retake TP and that means that more $$ will be spend, and more time will have to put in to prepare. hai... All thanks to the tester loh. hai, penalize too heavy le loh. But nvm, will try again, but it will be in JUN! Wat the hell loh... Still have to wait nearly 3 months, very sian. Not only that, i still have to renew my PDL AGAIN! $25 gone, then as i'm with the sch, need to renew my booklt, another $42 is gone, then plus the lesson and the test fee lei, think of this sian... Tat's why i been working hard to earn these.

Btw, i have found a job in sports company (intro thru my aunt, thanks) and the environment is quite good loh. Been working since last week. Pay is $6.50, not bad lah, but if performance good then increase. The staff here are friendly and helpful, considering very good for me le. And for your info, i'm writing this blog, right now in my office! cos i'm waiting for my supervisor, cum my mentor and my aunt's fren. She's quite good, treat me very well and help me always. Very grateful to be under her cos get to learn alot of things. Of cos, also hope to work here (i'm working temp here)

These two weeks has happened alot of unhappiness with my dear. Thinking of both parties has started to change since the day i start work. Dunno is he dun understand or i have change since start work. I been trying to work OT cos i get to have 1.5 time the per hour pay, but he feel that i force myself too much and lack of sleep, worried about me.

Dear, i know that tyou worried, but i also know my limits, but i hope i work won't affect our feelings if you happen to see this. Tata.