After writing the previous blog to daear, now time for me to write mine! i'm feeling moody and moodless these two days, have been going out with shari to buy present and 1 more thing is that i dun wan to go home that early so that my mum wont ask if anything happen or wat. I tried to put a brave front in front of others, but i guess the brave front will shatter soon as i dun think i can hold on to that much. Just now seeing dear's blog, i feel anguish, and feel like crying, but i'm in the office so i wont, fought hard with my tears to avoid crying. i wanted to cry becos to me, crying out will be a better way of venting my anger out.

i've been having a stone in my heart that is weighing heavily every second. eventually, the stone may crushed my heart, breaking into pieces. so to save myself, best thing to do is to sort thing out, but i'm not going to sort myself out ma, right? so if he dun wan to have a good talk with me then is fine with me, just let the stone crushed bah. can say that i dun want nor wish to bother things with him anymore. i'm tired of it, really tired of it. i dun want to keep myself from thinking all these things. It brought me fun nao, really fun nao till i cant stand. take it that i'm grumpy just like an old grandma bah.

i dun wan to do anything, perhaps it's the best way out bah. at least it wont cause any other conflicts to top up the current one lo. tonight going to J8 again with shari oh, she wan to go try out the new york skin solution inside seiyu, saying that they are having promotion. Luckily that these few days, she wan to go out or i think i will go home after work and force myself to be happy in front of my mum.. hai. lucky she let me vent out my thoughts out. even she listen quietly without saying anything is ok for me. i feel better, much better. I always hope that dear will also do this listening for me, listen to what i say and remneber, not listen from left ear and out from the right. i really hope he can listen atentively to what i have to say.. hai...

slacking again in the office.... tata, going to J8 again, sian sian sian...