Friday, October 28, 2005

END OF IPP!

Finally ipp has ended. But for me, it has ended on wednesday. Why? Cos my supervisor say really nothing for me to do le, then plus i got so called one more off day so he let me off the other remaining day. Thanks him.

Think i have been on leave for a long time cos my OT has make up nearly 1 week plus i think. Slack alot haha. But come to think of it, it was a fun and enriching attachment.

I even got treat by my colleaagues on wednesday. We went to tony romas for dinner @ orchard hotel. Just 3 dishes of the appetizers had already killed us (7 of us, and make us half-full). Then when the main course is here, we like been forced to eat like that, have to struggled. Have to see our expressions that time. Have a lot of fun though it's quite awkward.

Will miss u all badly, cityneon concepts colleagues! Here, i would like to thanks all the colleagues in cityneon concepts. Thanks for all your help, patience and advices for us. Thanks for treating as part of ur family. Especially to my two jie jies there, one is same surname with me, and one is who taken very good care of me during event, and worry about me when we are on different sites.

Thanks for everything...
Days to ipp: 0
Days till dear is back: 15 days
Days to sch starts: 3 days

Sian, school is starting le, without giving us break like a few days, even holiday also got class, sian hai...

*dear, faster come back, miss u badly!

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Not in mood...

Hasn't been in the mood to do anything after my dear went Taiwan. Sob sob... Miss him so much... Dunno if he is ok at this point of time, as he will be in Taiwan's jungle.

Hai, hasn't been in any mood to do anything. just hope to slack whole day all that, though i still go for tution and driving lesson. Hai.. without him by side, make me feel very dependent on him and dun feel like doing anything. (Can't blame right, cos he with me so long, first time abroad, left my side ma.) Not use without him, it's seems like i'm still struggling loh... Hai dunno how long i can withstand the waiting (3 weeks) when my days seems like chinese proverbs: du ri ru nian ah. hai.. sian

Not in mood to concentrate on driving (usually i very talkative when driving, cos ask this and that but maybe the previous lesson was that my instructor so also didnt speak much. Really wasn't in any mood loh hai.
Just hope that he will come back asap, and safe and sound.

Ipp countdown: 4 days
School starts: 8 days (cos mon is half day)
Dear coming back: 18 days

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Back to work!

Harlow, back to the office again after the long weekend plus a moday blues. haha Guess those who see these sure will be envy cos i got off why u are dun have! haha. To make u all more envy, i got 4 more off days coming up. It will be this thursday all the way to next tuesday so i doubt i will blog till i'm back in the office haha.(cos i work OT during the events ma, just a payback only) so no need to envy.

Time flies real fast, 1 more week to go before ipp really ends. Think of it, when we first came to the company, we have been counting down on when the ipp will end, but now, it is going to be over, so would anyone actually miss it? I guess i will bah. Cos i have experience that will make this ipp a memorable, both the good and bad, my colleagues and the things we do during event.I'm actually feeling quite contradict with my words, cos i would like and like not to leave the company, becos of the colleagues and the job nature (that i like). Hai

Been doing stuff that i have yet to do it long time ago,.
On sat, meet up with my old fren, jiayi to pass thing to her, long time no see yet she looks no different, whereas she think i fat le cos more chubby. -_-'' sob sob so have to train and exercise le. I went to squash after that, and i was like omg, i have become so rusty after resting for 2 months plus, now must train up le. Brush up my squash skills to it used to be. So that can play with others without embarrassing myself haha. Then after that went to jog. Omg again, since sec 4( i think), i have yet to really go jogging (dun say all those chasing after the bus all that loh). That is rusty too, no stamina and easily take rest, unlike last time, when i still run third place for the sch's cross-country. hai xiang dang nian, i still a bit more slimmer and fitter than now. Now is like what the people that goes for slimming, the before and after effect, but is opposite lah, of cos. Is before slim, after fat. -_-''. Then at nite go home help dear to do paper cuttings for him so that can meet and pass to him or else i can meet him for the week. hai. My sis also intro me a game which i guess i have already addicted. The game is called fire emblem (if spell correct) then like rpg. Addictated till i think this will last me quite long. even my sis who has completed and lose interest again, got influence and play my game -_-''

Sunday i only meet dear for 2 hours, think that is the shortest meeting between us, hai. Cos he has to book in at nite and in the morning doing his stuff hai... Felt that we spent even shorter time even before he's going to taiwan soon. Hai... counting down is 3 days (taken form today) then on his b'dae, he is going taiwan, what the hell man...

Yesterday, i think my day quite fulfilling, as if. Ealry in the morning, wake up then play the game le till one plus then my sis help mi buy lunch and after that play for a while then before i go bath and get ready for my driving lesson. Learnt 11/2 lessons for the day, after which i went to tution and about 7, my parents came and fetch me to take me to see car, cos dad buying a new car! so thrill, BUT the car is AUTO!!! WHAT THE HELL! I learning manual yet the car is auto, how can i drive??? But i like the car color, is bluish grey, sorry unable to get the pic, maybe buy le then i put. We went to eat early supper nearby, which i treat my parents, cos got 2 pays le yet haven treat them; treat them a crab, hor fun, tofu. Like that nearly $50 le, but nvm, it is worth it, cos they are going to treat my dear after he returned from taiwan, so i also get to eat back, maybe double haha.

Then my dear msg and tell me that he has to do paper cutting, will call me late. When he called, he told me that he cut 4000 paper cutting in less than 2-3 hrs, (i think) but i took so long to cut 1000 pieces, hai... Looks as if i so useless in helping him hai. He told me he will be taking his soc today, so all the best to him. If he didnt pass, he no need to graudate for the current rank he is now.... Hai

3 more days to his b'dae and going to taiwan. Will pei him on both thurs and friday. Tata

Friday, October 14, 2005

WHY? WHy? Why? why?

Why everything has gone so wrong just because i say something tat has already upsetu for the whole day? I know that u are upset about it, but have you ever tried ur best for that? I really dunno... Just becos u have no pacer to pei u and u have lose ur motivation to run le is it? I thought u have say that u will run for my sake then why it seems like at that point of time, i have been forgotten by u. Is not that, i have not been there for u is u have forgotten my existence....

Must we really have to end it this way becos of what i say. I am very angry with u no doubt, but when i too angry, i tend to lose my temper nor my mind, saying hurtful things to u. I know i'm in the wrong but does that costs me a death sentence by u? I dun think so. And what did u do throughout the conversation? U just keep quiet and say nothing, as if i 'm talking to the wall...

I never know that becos of this, we can quarrel so much. Say u cant promise me on anything anymore.I dunno what u eanr. I just feel that we have drift apart alot till we dun even realise it. Now that u feel that, does it means is the end of us? Does it means that we cant do anything but to let it end?

U msg me just now and from ur msg, i feel that u are still yet to cool down and instead very angry and pissed at my words. Call u no answer... I guess i cant even have a chance to explain to u what my msg actually means instead of wat u think... I just dun want to disturb u then. Perhaps both of us should cool down... Perhaps...

Just read betsy blog, have a quiz and i took it and i guess the analysis is really true to my moods now here is what it says:

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. You are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

You are experiencing extreme frustration at this point of time, trying to achieve security and peace of mind, but whatever you seem to do doesn't effect the situation. You are worn out and your energy is being seriously depleted. You may be experiencing what is known as 'heartache' - both mentally and physically. You are a listener and you listen and respond to everything that is going on around you. You feel that all that life has to offer should be within your grasp and you would like to participate in every part of it but the situation is such that every door seems to be closed to you. You just can't understand why that is. But it is - and what's more you feel powerless to change it.

You are completely worn out and you are not in the mood for any further demands on your resources. The situation - such as it is - has rendered you quite helpless, unable to continue the mental battle that you have been pursuing for some considerable time. Enough is enough. All you would like to do now would be to have some time for yourself, to find a peaceful situation where you can recuperate in your own time.

This above is before writing this blog. The one below is after writing, see the difference? And it still means the bad side of life i'm facing.

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.
You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.

Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.

All i want to do now, is to keep myself and occupied as i dun want to break down in the office. is not the last thing that i would be doing...

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

These two weeks' schedule...

This week really slack like mad till i want to cry le hai. nothing to do then ask for half day off yet supervisor ask me to tae full day. What the hell! cant even give what i want. Say got things to do yet never assign just say say only and didnt do hai.... Ipp ending soon le, hope can score well to pull up my grades... Timetable come out le. it just simply SUCKS!!!

Mon 4-9pm
Tues 9-6pm
Wed 10-12pm
Thurs 2-5pm
Fri 9-1pm

Sucks right? Wed come two day only, tues one full day. After this came out i have to cancel all my driving lessons le sian... Damn sian! The past two driving lesson of mine was fun. first one i speed too fast then the metal part on the inside tyre got dented cos i hit the road kerb -_-'' hahah. the second one was last nite when i was learning slope haha.

Last week has been quite slack for me till thursday. Thursday to saturday can say quite a busy yet fulfilling day for me. Met with shari and boon to celebrate boon's very belated b'dae (both shari n i agree to treat him). Meet boon to go city hall to meet shari (cos boon's company beside mine; took his company's transport haha)

Anyway we went to suntec to go makan. Ms Oh has been keen of eating Thai Express de Phad Thai( thai stir-fried rice noodle) so bo bian loh, go with them. But later we went to the wealth of fountain (or fountain of wealth) to eat. Went to fish n co but boon say he dun want, so went to eat Renn Thai! (yeah! been waiting to go eat there so long le! hehe) Anyway eat about $50 think quite alright, afterall get pay so ok haha.








so mian qiang look of boon...



Then friday went to Ritz-carlton for an event. YCH 50th golden jubilee gala dinner.
Very grand loh. Took some pics on the tables










So grand right? Have a total of 49 tables and not only that, even the president, also attended it very the grand loh. I aslo manage to eat 2 course for the night after the event haha... Reach home at 12 am. So late! *I dun club all that so to me is late haha.

Saturday got driving and after that meet dear. Today got a small accident on the road while driving. My car was driving fast (due to the instructor's 'order') Then a slight turn on the steering wheel will cause a big turn on the car, so while turning to a slight bend, i think i turn too much then the wheels hit the kerbs and knocked onto it. The metal tip of the tyres even dented! think the impact is huge loh, even though the instructor say it's not that serious!

After that went to meet dear, as usual he is late loh. (cos his washing machines breaks down need him repair) Then i went shop shop, bought a new romance comic from my favourite author and another comic for dear.

Below is my comic's pic
(nice drawing right?)










Dear also bought me a notebook as promise (request by me) hehe.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Long time no see!

Haven been blogging for almost a week le. Kind of too lazy to blog le. Nah is becos i'm busy learning my driving and going out that's why. Ipp is ending soon but dunno why i'm getting more and more tired each day. Like i have been lacking of sleeps for the past weeks (after the ISO event) hai...

Alot of things have happen this one week. I make cookies, go out with my aunt, go shopping with my dear and make a record of not using the laptop at home for the one whole week except for yesterday.(Iriver spoilt so need to upgrade the software!)

I have passed my driving stage , now in stage 2 but guess has to make up for one of the lesson. Think i did badly so need to redo again. =( sian hai...

Last sat went with my aunt to buy ingredient for baking cookies. My aunt got the oven so i can bake le! finally, the time has come for me to really bake cookies on my own! Then bought a total of about 9 - 10 items and it's less than $16 bucks! Wah got a shock i still thought i have to pay a minimum of $20 bucks cos i need to buy some essential stuffs like the set of tablespoon, measuring cup, grease paper. Below are the photo, i didnt take photo of the cookies but i have take picture for the cookies i make for my dear haha. Then after that wanted to buy some foundation and also my facial wash, went to Watson and saw betsy, just one guess and i know, she waiting for yiling haha. They are such close fren!

Went back home 4 plus, make cookie and clean up till 9 sian. Really tiring. haha. Below are photos of the cookies i make for my dear haha...








before...








after...

Sunday - meet my dear, go tangs to buy nike stuff but end up nothing cos they dun have new stocks and also some dun have my size. Must go slim down. haha but always say say only didnt really do it so hope i will do that (provided i can)