Specially for En...

Though this may be a stupid way of expressing myself on the friendship we shared, but i hope that this will be kept close to your heart for this is just dedicated to you only. Sorry that i didnt prepare anything in advance for your leaving.

Known her for 3 whole years le, and times really flies by fast and it has also impoves our friendship. From an unknown stranger to classmate, to friends and then to good friends and eventually become part of the inseparable gang with shari, keng and me.

we have spent almost everyday (other than weekends) together, be it for lunch, for classes or even for projects. She was the hardworking kind that will try to do her tutorial and always listen to class attentively and taking notes diligently. she can be called our secretary becos of her fast writing of notes ans always lend us when we need it. not only that, she is also so helpful in helping us with our things and without any complaints. so far, i have yet to see her been angry or wat. just seen her very pissed only once or twice. just a good tempered person is so hard to find and i'm so fortunate to have know her.

she is always been said by me for something for i think become a habit. hope that she will know and remenber what it is as i was the one that force her to do it. haha =p after the first say about her for the thing, everytime whenever i see her doing the thing, i will just call her and she know le, haha.

she is a good team member who is punctual with her work and also always go the extra miles for projects even if her work is done. went out with her alot of times. went singing where she will always entertained us with her cute singing that will both entertain and irritate me. such a time seems so short and now she is leaving us le.

just hope that she will not forget us, used to the new environment, meet new friends and stay happy! Wish you all the best and good luck! keep in contact or i will pester and flood your mail!

Will miss youand gooebye, my good friend...

signing off with love,
hong

below are the jokes i found cos i'm not doing anything hai..

WHAT WOMEN SAY & REALLY MEAN:

CAN'T WE JUST BE FRIENDS?
There is no way in hell I'm going to let any part of your body touch any part of mine,again.

I JUST NEED SOME SPACE....
without you in it.

DO I LOOK FAT IN THIS DRESS?
We haven't had a fight in a while.

I DON'T KNOW, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?
I can't believe you have nothing planned.

YOU NEVER LISTEN.
You never listen.

I'LL BE READY IN A MINUTE.
I'm ready, but I'm going to make you wait because I know you will.

OH, NO, I'LL PAY FOR MYSELF.
I'm just being nice; there's no way I'm going dutch.

See how funny the jokes is! haha. lame but quite true!

by the way, today i kind of down, cos en is leaving and didnt tell us at all. i know it may seems like u haven't confirm but can still tell us first ma. we (the gang) are upset as we only know now plus we haven't got anything for u. for we want u to remenber us ma. sob sob. hope that u will be happy there. we meet u on thurs ok?

hope to have a farewell dinner with u.

guess at the end of the day i will meet up with diana rather than going steamboat with my colleagues as they are celebrating my 'head' Paul's b'day. they bought him a watch and tomolo will be a cake from secret receipe if i'm not wrong and if they didnt change.

diana if u all dunno, was my good cum best fren since primary school till now. even hardly meet up, we still know each other. however, i feel we have drift apart ever since we went different sch, led a different life She rarely tells me her xin shi one, which i dun understand why. she should know i will be by her side whenever she need me. but it seems like that sentence didnt get to her mind. she chose to hide it from me, and makes me feel that i'm forever the last one to know. hai. just hear that she got break up not long ago, maybe today meet up can cheer and console her bah.

just wan her to know that no matter wat happen., i will be with her and hope that she will tell me how she feel all that.

the graduation letter has arrived and at first i thought i cant go to the graduation cos of work, but now can. not to be bad or bad spolit, just dun feel like going, cos i have to think wat to wear all that and also after the ceremony i have to rush back to my event which is at expo, damn sian loh. plus my mum still ask me if she can dun go for the ceremony ma? hai... just dunno what they want.

these few days have been a bad day for me as i have been quarreling with my dear for the past three days. hai always becos of small matters. he just give me the feeling that what have happen is all i wan or is me who created one. but the fact is not. all those things just come naturally.. hope he just simply understand that. hai. simply sorry about it. i hope u wont keep thinking about it anymore. take those things as over ok?

sat: went to have dinner with his dad and mum. meet them at tiong bahru, at first say eat steamboat at bugis but later switch to marina square (cos no parking lots). just as we are about to give up searching and looking for parking lots (also happen in marina carpark), just as we were going to exit the carpark, we manage to find a lot as the driver is about to drive off. haha so lucky man, or else we have to go suntec and later if same problem happen, we guess we will go back his home there to takeaway (that's what dear and his dad sad.) haha i was like -_-'' haha, came all the way from AMK just to eat takeaway food. in the end, we went there (marina square) to have seoul garden... hai. so sian right, but nvm, got treated by his mum again. so pai sei. hai.

everytime go with the parents sure get treated and always very expensive food, hardly hawker centre food. dear was still so cheeky that he suggest going to paris to eat, i aws like, what the hell, so expensive loh! hai, lucky we didnt, cos i calculate if we eat at paris, the cost for per person after service charges and GST, think it will add up to 40-42 bucks per person! hai.

at first after eating divnner, dear wan to send me home by himself, but his mum say no, saying that his dad will drive me home, so buo pian, have to follow them lo.wen to shop shop but most of the time stay at Home Fix store as his mum wan to buy thing. dear saw alot of thing to buy, but got pissed off by his mum as she say either, at home got this, or why waste money to buy. hai... make him so fed up.

to make thing worse, when i get home, after doing my stuff, i sat to watch tv, but when dear called, he hear that i wasm't concentrating what he say, he got pissed and hang up the phone. hai. dear i'm sorry. and at 2.50am, he msg me saying that he still angry and couldn't get to sleep, i was like, does that matter of not concentrating on the phone can ,make him ngry for so long? hai i dunno. just feel that he nowadays not just easily pissed but also anyhow throw temper and be angry for small things... hai

dear can u please change, u know that i dun like it, so do u right ok?

sunday went to watch da vinci code at amk, i know it's stupid to keep going to neighbour area to watch movie or eat but becos amk cinea is not very crowded ulike PS or marina, where only first few rows is empty for the show. hai. the story is more or less the same but (below is only my view means no harm) they have cut kind of those details that i feel important for the audience to know but they didnt show. overall is nice loh. can watch cos is 2.5 hr haha. worth the money.

also at amk, we saw his uncle's family, i was like very shocked as dear is cos his uncle is staying at Chua Chu Kang but went to amk to make spec cos his uncle's fren shop. If that is me, sorry loh, i just go nearby, unless the nearby is so lousy that i cant stand then i will go further a bit but not to the extent of from west side to the north east side of singapore. haha

went to mac eat, cos dear wan to try the new dish, the black pepper chicken wings (or should i say is drumlets) the manager pissed me off loh. tell him he dun understand what i mean but his staff know. hai.. it goes like this., dear's meal wwas standard, think is $6.85, but he upsize so become about $7.35, i wnated to order a mac spicy meal but wan to change the fries to twister fries so i have to pay forty cents which makes it $6.35 (i think) but beocs other than the black pepper meal., there is another meal which is on promotion is the mac spicy meal but it consist of the twister fris and green tea as drink and cost $6.60. and of cos, for me i rather chose the cheaper one ma, so i so call tell the manager off but in the end he still charge me $6.60. WAh lao, cheat me 25 cents more, but to dear, he simply dun care, just say to me, is correct what. so i ignore it too cos dear pay ma haha.

today totally late for office for half an hour, i took the bus at ard 7.55am (normally but it came very late today) nevermind, but jam so long. end up reach at 9am, the worse timing i have hai.
got alot of things to do, not office jobs i mean, cos even my 'head' (the person i am under) dun have anything for me to do.

one fo my fren is celebrating b'dae before he went ns, hope that i will go, so i tell him i'm going. is this fri but i haven buy present for him. he say no need cos he also haven buy mine loh, i was like wat thinking, u invite me to ur b'dae but i went empty-handed seems kind of rude but he say nvm. no way loh, even u give me priviledges, cos i mind what others think of me even though i dunno his fren. (he is actually my good fren's ex bf) haha so fun nao, dunno when free to go buy for him and wat to buy for him cos i also broke le. hai. then somemore need to renew my PDL as i will be having my driving lesson again(after resting for 3 months, after my TP) hai sian. damn sian. for driving drag too long too long le. maybe i should say long long ago, long long ago.

just now was lookin at the usual blog and i was surprise to see that en today has blogged early in the day about her today's luckily thing, haha, she is forever so cute one (there is no ugly in the dictionary), she always can say thing that can make people laugh out loud or let people feel so cold as in lame thing. think for the cold and lame things all that, she can compete with my boy le, who is an expert loh. (but now hardly have any lame jokes le)

just now came in office late as usual and i was more afraid than the other days i was late, as like my previous email said, the GM has send an email saying about the punctuality all that. hai. so i scare i may have the same fate as others. (see previous post)

by the way i have finish my 'the da vinvi code" le. i dun think i have tell u but yes, i buy the book and read it from page 1 till the end. guess this is the first book after i have finish my studies and i'm so interested to read. the book no doubt is exciting and at some point of time, i find it's kind of dry and boring. hai. the ending is quite funny in that sense i feel that it's no link loh. but i hope that th emovie will make it more exciting bah. now awaiting to watch it in the movies, maybe this weekend bah. but i'm drained in my pockets after the facial package. can anyone who is kind to sponsor me with money, hehe =p

again doing wat i hate most now: slacking slacking and slacking.
Again i feel that some of u who read my blog may feel that it is a wonderful thing to do in the office as u can slack and at the same time get your pay, BUT it also depends where u are seated, the computer you are facing and also the people in the office. like the 3 main factors i said, i didnt managed to get what i want.

- i'm seated at the entrance of the door (like a receptionist as well as a 'bell girl' as i have to open to the people who are stuck outside if no one open the door for them as i'm sitting nearest to the door.

- my computer is only window 98 (oh my goodness!!!! excuse me, just in which era am i in? still window 98???? hai, so ke lian right! and my com is facing to the back of the office where people walking past me will know what i doing. So how to play games???

- the GM maybe is too free and nothing to do, like to walk around anytime as he wished. hai and some time he will look so close as what u doin now (becos he dunno me so well, so he didnt really see what i'm doin but for sure, i guarantee, plus warranty and plus chop, he for sure got glance wat i been doing since i always slack one.

so do u think that u can still envy me? hai... sian sian and sian, can anyone please tag me a website that can keep me entertain when i'm slacking. no blog pls thanks (P.S. i'm so bored that i even read everyday's news!!!!

today is late for work again, but many of the coleagues are not here yet so is ok. first thing in the morning is that the GM has send an email to all saying about puntuality, leave, dress code and claims. kinds of unreasonable as said by the colleagues as is kind of unreasonable cos for co-ordinators, we are suppose to wear causal, if wear formal how to do things? one of the colleagues even say that we are not going to see clients so why must wear so nice, plus what we do in the office is just type confirmation, fax and update system, so what for wear so nice to go to work when u are just doin simple thing and have to wear suits all that. just dun understand.
anyway one of the colleague (part time and this is i hear one) has been fired, think he come in very late, slack and do nothing so got fired when he is suppose to leave end of the may. Not that i bad or wat, but maybe this will be good for the company and himself, for he takes the job for granted le, like to come when as he like, as if the company is open by his dad.

this two days start to be busy as i no longer helping shihui le, but helping another collague doing another event which is the same day and side by side. hai. at first not very "good" with him, but no choice have to work mah, but he is ok now loh. he keep on giving me work and keep me busy loh. -_-' lol thanks alot loh. just no so bo liao, so ask him to pass me the floor plan for the event and i colour another set for myself cos i free le, finish what he gave me le loh.

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last nite when to new york skin solutions to do facial. at first was seeing that they are having promotion of $18 and shari cjoi me go one so went for a try. Wah i got a real shock in my life, the consultant say my face very bad and alot of areas are clogged, and need to clean up hai.. in the end, i not only didnt get to do the $18 but i have to do a $90 (usual is 180) cos the 18 is just like a basic wash up and mask only. sian very sian upon hearing that.

in the end, i seems like so conscious and thensign up a course with them that costs $400+, i know is ex, but at first, she was askin me to go sign up for the treatment course that i do ealrier that cos $1800 for 10 sessions and she will give me a price of $1000. How can i afford ma, hai, i just step up of school to work not even three months and ask me to fork out this much which is equal to my one month 's pay seems unrealistic ma. hai...

just blame myself for not saving and not taking good care of my face and this will happen hai. dear isn't happy with me going to facial in teh first place and plus i say that i sign up for a course, he more unpleased. then we quarrel again becos of this. hai....
but luckily, not everything is ok le, so hope he will understand. i do it for the sake of myself and maybe a bit for him ma. =p

he want me to learn to mae up and slim down all that, of cos i have to slowly do ma, now first step is go facial to make my face better before i can make up wat, so else later i allergy all that. hai.. dunno what he wan, like he say one thing and do another way for the same thing. hai..

slackin, slackin and slacking...

today was late for work, later by five to seven min than usua. Thanks to the bus driver who fail to drive fast and the bus was stopped for 3 red traffic lights. hai damn sian, coming to the office as nothing to do again but to wait for things to be tasked to me. damn sian... wanted to read da vinci code but cant as the GM as usual will make his round anytime he likes and i dunno when he will come out as back of my head has no eyes! =p

just saw dear's blog, he put his frens' link in the blog, and i dun understand why. to mi, i dun wish others to know about my blog as i feel that is my personal things and i dun wish alot of people to see as it wont concern about them. i dun like to blog for others to see as i dun see the need. daear, pls understand that and remove my blog address fro ur blog if u want to keep ur fren one ok? Afterall, my blog address is so easy to remenber, dun tell me u will forget or dun remenber hor!

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talk about thurs, first outing with colleagues with outing turn out to be very fun and very late, reach home about 2.40am, mum was worried sick and as for dear, he has started sleeping since 11 plus, hai, just didnt wait for me and not worried about me one. Wanted to blog alot for thurs but dunno where to start it out, can just simply say, after work, we just went to have dinner and after tat went to kbox to sing. Start the session at around 8 plus and sing till one plus. And the charges is $21 ++ and only 2 drinks! very the expesive! but thanks to my colleague who drove me home as he still have to drive another 3 more before goin home. Thanks!

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Friday slack at home doing nothing and i wake up at ten plus but sleep again till two plus in the afternoon after talking to dear on the phone for nearly 2 hours. First time wake up so late despite is just a holiday, maybe is due to the previous nite sleep so late, but sometime stay up around the same time yet i dun feel tired that much too. just dunno why. Slack at home loh and cant talk to dear at note cos he got a gathering with his JC's mates, i was angry with him for some reasons ( yah, i was always angry one, that is what u all think right?) . he jus not auto one, just dunno what he is thinking and what he will do, but that nite, he sure surprise me one, he came down at 11 plus to come down to apologise to me and bought me a bracelet to make up, silly him. at first thought he was joking as he called and ask if i wan to eat supper a not, but as i thoiught he reach home le and then still wan to come out so i stop him and hang up the phone. After a while, he ask me to open my living room's window and know what he did. I was so touched but i just simply cant display how touched i am... hai... sorry dear...

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sat, upon dear meeting me late last nite, i decide to give him surprise, partially was to make up for upseting him in the morningand so after i ate my lunch (mum cooks, so must eat, cos she hardly cook), bath le and went to buy chicken cutlet and then take cab to his house. he looked stunned as he never thought i will go look for him as i lied to him that i will meet him at 4 at city hall to meet and watch movie. haha. so glad that he like the surprise.

in the end, we leave his place nclose to 5 and had to catch movie at tiong bahru instead. never know he will drag his time, and he still got time to watch tv after eating the cutlet i bought. so sian in his place and only his dog entertain me. hai... watch poseidon, it's a really nice show but to me is cruel as it showed what human can do in order to survive and sacrifice others. hai.

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sunday went to grandma house to celebrate mothers' day (cos there alot of mums) haha. wanted to entertain and play with niece and nephew but they dun seem interested hai.. they are actually quite cute in their way like my nephew will only call u if he has some benefit like sweets or food. then wan to bring him to ntuc, he shakes his head, but when ask him he wants sweet then he nod, so cute! haha

i just reach the office not long ago, feeling so tired and sian, at first dun even wan to come to the office, but wat to do, sure have to do that for sure. haiz... it's not up to what u want. hai... sian... wonder if the colleagues will be going to tonight (they wan to have a small gathering).

Make up with my dear le, but then still feel that there are alot of things to settle and i guess it's good to have a face to face talk rather than talking on the phone. hai.. very sian and today one of the part-timers came in on the dot of time, not becos she come herself but becos got one intern went to fetch her and shi hui. -_-'' hai thought wat, then she say never know that they come in so early cos she always come in after 9. Wa lao, cant stand her hai... dunno lah.

Now still slacking with nothing to do, forever like this i will become fossil... Plus last night before the dismissal of work, i shifted my computer with the help of shihui, now since the computer has been shifted, i look more like the receptionist and i have to open the door for the colleagues and the customers. so sian, become a receptionist -_-'', not only that the bell of the door is at the enterance and then the other door release is behind, quite far from my place... hai. sian

i seen ur latest blog that u have just updated. Well done, got the courage to write in the blog but no courage to msg or even call me and expect me to forgive u. Forget it then. just go on dreaming then. Dun expect me to forgive u so easily just becos u have written sorry and regrets in ur blog. i dun appreciate. by doing that only show me how coward u are and how reluctant u are in saying sorry. u are simply not sincere about it, what's the point.

i will continue with the cold war till u know what u should and ought to do. This will be the last chance, if u dunno how to cherish it, then the cold war will still continues and the ending u should know clearly well about it.

Dun tell me that u lose ur sense of direction all tat. i'm not a school teacher that spoon-feed student with answer for every questions asked and without any trying. If u continue to think that i will spoon-feed u even after we end the cold war, then from right now, stop dreaming and start to think and find your sense of direction.

by the way, the blog is not for replying, u wan, write to my email or msn me instead!

After writing the previous blog to daear, now time for me to write mine! i'm feeling moody and moodless these two days, have been going out with shari to buy present and 1 more thing is that i dun wan to go home that early so that my mum wont ask if anything happen or wat. I tried to put a brave front in front of others, but i guess the brave front will shatter soon as i dun think i can hold on to that much. Just now seeing dear's blog, i feel anguish, and feel like crying, but i'm in the office so i wont, fought hard with my tears to avoid crying. i wanted to cry becos to me, crying out will be a better way of venting my anger out.

i've been having a stone in my heart that is weighing heavily every second. eventually, the stone may crushed my heart, breaking into pieces. so to save myself, best thing to do is to sort thing out, but i'm not going to sort myself out ma, right? so if he dun wan to have a good talk with me then is fine with me, just let the stone crushed bah. can say that i dun want nor wish to bother things with him anymore. i'm tired of it, really tired of it. i dun want to keep myself from thinking all these things. It brought me fun nao, really fun nao till i cant stand. take it that i'm grumpy just like an old grandma bah.

i dun wan to do anything, perhaps it's the best way out bah. at least it wont cause any other conflicts to top up the current one lo. tonight going to J8 again with shari oh, she wan to go try out the new york skin solution inside seiyu, saying that they are having promotion. Luckily that these few days, she wan to go out or i think i will go home after work and force myself to be happy in front of my mum.. hai. lucky she let me vent out my thoughts out. even she listen quietly without saying anything is ok for me. i feel better, much better. I always hope that dear will also do this listening for me, listen to what i say and remneber, not listen from left ear and out from the right. i really hope he can listen atentively to what i have to say.. hai...

slacking again in the office.... tata, going to J8 again, sian sian sian...

SPECIALLY FOR DEAR!!!

Saw what dear wrote in his blog a while ago and i'm pissed with what he say. SAy as if i control him. Well, say whatever you like, i have no right to say or comment anything. At first thought that perhaps i'm really overboard but seeing wat he wrote " Over very small matter which meant a lot to her which i sometimies can't understand. Wanting to hang up to sleep early is a mistake. Morning going for excerise must report to her. Why? Funny, can't understand." i'm pissed. I was telling myself maybe i too sensitive over this kind of thing that he feel that it's not important, but then just cant u accomodate if u have already known that i care about all these details. For the cold war that i start, i'm not going to give in to him. Take it or leave it. I won't take the initative to apologise or do any form of contact to him, for i think is he who ought to apologise. Maybe those who read my blog feels that i'm unreasonable right, then tell u, I AM.

U are just dunno the details all tat, so i dun blame u all. The thing is not as simple as what u think. Even i dunno what i want from him and what can he do for me. It just seems like i cant demand anything from him. I just ask him to tell me that he is going to exercise all that is wrong is it? cant i just know that what he will be doing, for everytime contact and finding him seems so impossible as he dun ON his phone's vibration nor the ringtone and HE DUN EVEN BOTHER TO CHECK HIS PHONE! Like tat, what for bring a phone around when you dun even want to look at it. It depicts the purose of the phone what. Whatever i say, he just dun listen to me. Never a single time, he listen to what i say and he just do things his way. Then what u want mi to do? Tell him? Scold him? All no use loh. Tried all already and what did i get in return? Nothing.

He just think that i like to say him, but does he know that i dun like to say him all tat. Sick and tired of doing the same thing again and again each time. Just cant he be sensitive at times? He forever take too long to understand and know where the problem went wrong, and by that time i have already threw my temper. U know clearly my temper yet u still do thing to upset me, so is it my wrong?

At first thought he will do something about the cold war, like msg me or even come and find me, but i guess, i too naive le. All these he wont do one. HE WONT i repeat. Know him too well about what he will do. so fine with me, do it his way. to end the cold war or not depend on how initative he is, if he is not going to do anything, fat hope that i will do. Thru out the years we are together, i always take initative, now is his. if not going to do anything, at most say bye bye then! and i mean what i say. Whther the break will be a hard and cruel one to both of us a not!

just went to see others' blog. Sorry to hear from en that she not selected for the uni hse has applied, but glad to hear that she is happy with her current temp job. Wish u luck! Other blog i seen have yet to be update yet.

just now also went to see dear's(dunno should i call him this a not.) blog, his blog like got problem as the headings and the tag board is gone. dunno wat happen. tried to help him solve but it seems like only create a new blog then can. dunno is it he change the setting or wat cos i use the original blogskin's code and put it in his blog, but it seems like the original cant appear the heading too, so i dunno. o''o

we have a quarrel yesterday and now cold war... =(

last nite went out with shari to far east. wanted to get birthday present for shihui but it seems like either the clothes is too small, cant try or is too expensive and common. Saw one shirt is nice and think suit her but the problem is cant try (cos shari n shihui's build is the closest, compared to me. =p)

went home quite early, around 9.30pm reach home le. think is the first time that i went out with her after office hour. haha. Tonight guess will be going to j8 to find present bah. really dunno wat to get for her.

today i'm sad... very sad...

why cant we be like before, guess it's going to be hard, real hard this time, from the reaction he gave on the phone. first time he did this... hai, whatever then! sob sob...

Today is monday le, so fast, the weekends has pass just at a blink of eye. hai... Now i back in the office, guess slacking again till the end of today? You may think is good but for me is not. Not for me, and never occur to me. If it is just a while, i dun mind but not for the whole 8.5 hours in the office, begging people to give me things to do. I know is bored and i need not go to tat extend but, i really cant stand it le. Started to feel sick and tired with this kind of life. I started to ponder and perhaps wish i have not take this job, for it seems like nothing to do and what they can do is have so call everything ready and ask the temp to come in. Others who are temp and attachment dun mind and seems to get past the free time easy, but definitely not for me. Perhaps the place i'm sitting is too obivious to do anything le...

Am i expecting alot from everyone, or have i change so much that i become intolerable for others to stand me? Or has i been putting faces to the people whom i want attention or is it they are the one that cant even do or bother to do things for me. Is it i asking too much, or is it becos the thing i want is so simple that no one can give or understand except me? hai...

Sat: Spend whole day at home with my bf, who came to tution my sis calculus, mine!, the calculus for engineering is so damn hard and they discuss it for a long period. Unlike the calculus i took last year, which is much easier to understand. After that, he just stay at my place to watch Full metal Alchemist cos his house, neither his com nor the player can play it. So lousy. Cook for him dinner and he take for granted, scold him for not listening to what i told him and do thing in his way and he dun bother to apologise (and still watching for the vcd) till i so pissed off with him that i clear my stuff with anger and dump the things on the floor so loud then he start to switch off and then console me. Just becos i ask him to go watch the vcd, does it means he must follow? Sometimes, i just dunno what he is trying to do or if he know what i want from him ma? Playing reverse psychologic maybe the bad thing after all as he is so slow hai... -_-'' just dunno what to say...

Sun: Stay at home and slack thru out then till evening then began to iron my clothes =p After which watch the scoody-doo movie and it seems so silly show but still enjoyable.

Now still waiting for him to msg me but he didnt.... =(

Today, alot of thing pissed me off, just early in the morning. I missed my bus, then i had to wait for another one which came in so late and the bus is three quarter fill le. Then nevermind, a lady who was behind me keep squeezing me and then keep swinging her hair as she tie her hair ponytail... Keep squeezing, already no space and keep doing it, think is fun ah. Cant consider for others one lei. Keep on knocking me and didnt say sorry. Just what she want, so bog ah. Then nevermind, next i saw an old lady and a man trying to squeeze in as well, but upon seeing that the frontcouldn't get in, so they use the back door to get in. How unreasonable of them to do that. If you want to get into the bus then get out of the house early, so that u need not have to be squeeze with others and need not have to get into the bus from behind and had a free ride ma. How irresponsible of them to do that. Without getting paid the bus fare and get to travel to their destination..

Actually got alot of thing to say out, my views all that, but now in the office is inconvenient and i feel that i shouldn't say more anymore cos i also dun have any mood le...

i'm quite in a bad mood, as my last night is not a good one... Quarrel with my bf and we are having cold war... Hai, call him, he dun answer, msg him, he dun bother to reply. Call him about 1 hour plus before i fall asleep. Even when i in the night wake up, i still call him but still... no answer...

Until this morning, when i was about to reach my office, then he reply me. Hai, i dunno what's wrong with me. But 1 thing for sure is that, i pissed him off badly. I've been unreasonable, mu zhong wu ren and i always want him to give in, what else? hai... Maybe like what i told him, he shouldn't give in too much that will results me in too overbearing and take him to for granted le.. i just dunno what i want from him, make his life so difficult and refused to give in to him. Afterall, he has been sandwiched between his mum and me and now becos of small things, i keep quarreling with him, causing our relationship to suffer and led us to quarrel that sometimes, we cant even stand each other no longer more... Dear, i'm sorry, really sorry, forgive me ok?

Today is the first day of work, yet nothing to do. The environment seems so tense up and i dun feel comfortable. Perhaps is that the former job is in a small working environment that now coming to a big one seems kind of hard to cope with it. Hai. Not only that, today came too earlier already. Cos i rather i be early than be late so i leave house about 0720-0725, and i only got on the bus at 0745 that i kind of freak out cos i'm afraid that i will be late as the traffic where i'm waiting is jammed... However, it only took about 15-20 min to get here( though work in the same area before, but in the past, i took the company transport one, so can say is the first time gauging the time to come here.

So been bored and nothing to do, shi hui ask me to surf the net so i surf for a long time but dun really know what to surf as i'm sitting in a quite open space that i feel that it will be weird and awkward to go to crime library to see those gruesome murders or what. So in order to refrain myself from doing it, i went to browse the squash website. And there i found the below link to the web saying that squash is the healthiest sports activity. The other sports been in the top ten are:
1. Squash2. Rowing3. Rock Climbing4. Swimming5. Cross-country Skiing6. Basketball7. Cycling8. Running9. Modern Pentathlon10. Boxing

And they are based on the 6 criteria:
- cardiorespiratory endurance: 4.5
- muscular strength: 3
- muscular endurance: 5
- flexibility: 3
- calories/ 30 minutes: 5
and lastly - injury risk: 2.

Lucky, i'm not wrong to make my choice there. So cool, never know that squash can be so healthy! Below is the web about the healthiest sports...

http://www.squashplayer.co.uk/sp_latest/forbes_survey.htm

Just now saw my ex-colleagues, really must see when meet up for lunch or it will be so awkward to avoid them, as if i dunno them then it will be bad. Actually i quite like their companion during the attachment that time. tata