Exams in two month and have yet to prepare for it and have to do a project this term. hope that i can just buck up and excel in everything i do. i dun wan the history to repeat itself nor i want to have the same feeling again. hai
One page write up is due tomolo and have yet to start have to start soon. recently, things arent getting the way i wanted and i'm pissed with everything. why all these things happen to me? Physical and mental strength are weakening and i dunno what i can do to boost it and definitely not going to let it drop till 0 too. hai. Project, results for last term, jap, uni, jlpt and work are piling up that i cant breathe.Is like i'm carrying tons of burden that is 1000 times than my strength and on the verge of been crushed to death by them hai. someone help pls.
きょからがんばります！
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Bad Start
F**k, ealry in the morning quarrel with my mum. I should have go to work instead of staying at home to do my research. Every time stay with her alone at home nothing good will come out, alway end up quarrel as usual. She think she is so big ah, always just know how to say me all tat, bias towards the other two sis. Say she bias she always say where got. Bloody hell, just faking on things that you did for them and denying it. What have you done for me? Nothing, i only when i need $ very desperately for fees all that then i find you other than that what have i ask from you.
Always say my attitude sucks wat about yourself. my attitude and character is all been brought up by you or else why they say like father like son, like mother like daughter. only know how to praise yourself, you really think you know it all? You dun even know what i like or dislike about food. so simple thing you also dunno, whereas sis all tat wat they like all tat you know. This two years, only buy clothes during new year time or sometime only yet you keep saying i buy alot. Go see all the cousins around my age and then define your alot. Always say they are they, wat about me, i am who i am, why you keep using your damn old and traditional thinking to judge me. Go ask anyone who would lend them the jacket or accessories that their bf buy to mother and sister. I may be selfish but wat about you, did you think wat you do is right ma? Asking people to lend their bf's gift to their siblings is that the right thing to do also.
Just becos of a jacket and you quarrel with me and say i side my bf, go think wat you say does it make sense ma. i just treasure things he buy and you are all out to insult me all tat. even if i end up with him or not in the future is my problem, even if future have to stay with his parents all that also my problem, why you care so much. If you really care, you wont insult me at all be it you very angry or wat.
Say wat only ring and necklace cant be borrow out, what kind of crap is this, only this two cant borrow out, then borrow out all others can ah. Bet you also never share things with your siblings too and now expect me to do. what the hell.
How i wish i can be in those drama, or come from rich family, stay by my own or study overseas without you being around, just give me allowance and all those monetary can le, dun need your care and concern, seem so worthless....
Always say my attitude sucks wat about yourself. my attitude and character is all been brought up by you or else why they say like father like son, like mother like daughter. only know how to praise yourself, you really think you know it all? You dun even know what i like or dislike about food. so simple thing you also dunno, whereas sis all tat wat they like all tat you know. This two years, only buy clothes during new year time or sometime only yet you keep saying i buy alot. Go see all the cousins around my age and then define your alot. Always say they are they, wat about me, i am who i am, why you keep using your damn old and traditional thinking to judge me. Go ask anyone who would lend them the jacket or accessories that their bf buy to mother and sister. I may be selfish but wat about you, did you think wat you do is right ma? Asking people to lend their bf's gift to their siblings is that the right thing to do also.
Just becos of a jacket and you quarrel with me and say i side my bf, go think wat you say does it make sense ma. i just treasure things he buy and you are all out to insult me all tat. even if i end up with him or not in the future is my problem, even if future have to stay with his parents all that also my problem, why you care so much. If you really care, you wont insult me at all be it you very angry or wat.
Say wat only ring and necklace cant be borrow out, what kind of crap is this, only this two cant borrow out, then borrow out all others can ah. Bet you also never share things with your siblings too and now expect me to do. what the hell.
How i wish i can be in those drama, or come from rich family, stay by my own or study overseas without you being around, just give me allowance and all those monetary can le, dun need your care and concern, seem so worthless....
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
20 May 08
Just had a 3 days break but it seems that i haven been doing things that i ought to do. Have an assignment module this term and i have yet to find the company that i want to do and we have to submit the company chosen this week. Wanted to wait for lecturer to tell us the information before doing it but i guess it's hard and maybe will be good to do it before the announcement, at least have a headstart on what is going to happen hai.
This whole week will be only 2 modules inter-related and be taught by the same lecturer. hai. hopefully everything will turn out well and i will have motivation to study since i always have motivation to work haha. suppose to go work one but call office and no one pick up and i feel that when i go there will be late and wont be able to work long so cross out the mind of going in today hehe.
Exams in 2 months' time and i dunno what i have been studying, everything seem alien to me and i hope that i will grab hold of this alien's module and do well. When exam dates are close, it will also mean that the last term's result will be out soon. perhaps this few weeks and i do not want to receive it as i was covered with fear of not able to perform well due to my depression and last min studies. of cos, dun hope that the history will NOT repeat itself.
Busy busy and only leave 1 month of lectures and tutorials le. hope to maximise all my understanding! That's all for now.
This whole week will be only 2 modules inter-related and be taught by the same lecturer. hai. hopefully everything will turn out well and i will have motivation to study since i always have motivation to work haha. suppose to go work one but call office and no one pick up and i feel that when i go there will be late and wont be able to work long so cross out the mind of going in today hehe.
Exams in 2 months' time and i dunno what i have been studying, everything seem alien to me and i hope that i will grab hold of this alien's module and do well. When exam dates are close, it will also mean that the last term's result will be out soon. perhaps this few weeks and i do not want to receive it as i was covered with fear of not able to perform well due to my depression and last min studies. of cos, dun hope that the history will NOT repeat itself.
Busy busy and only leave 1 month of lectures and tutorials le. hope to maximise all my understanding! That's all for now.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Lots of thing has happened recently.
- Spent a bomb on 3 face products at body shop; spent $100 plus (+ mum's mother day gift)
- Wasted one week of break
- Started my jap class after 1 week break (got retain sob sob =( )
- Got my pay for the month (all 3)
- Got paid by govt
- Bought a $60+ textbook (so far the most ex textbook i bought)
- Chat with dear very long on the phone till wee hours
- Have not study what i learn for the 3 weeks of uni lessons
- Recovered from flu
- Went to eat Shokudo with jap frens
- Take various of bus to reach school from office
- Been extremely tired this week
- Finally mange to get hold of 恋空漫画1
- Waste a bomb on cab today (even took the most ex taxi starting @ $3.20. wth)
- Slimming down (haha hoping for more)
- Cook for the family on labor day (when mum is not around)
- Read thru the notes that i have photocopy
- Read and listen thru the jap conversation book that i have bought
- Starting to prepare for prep course for jap and starting soon for uni (hope will pass all last term's exam)
- Wash my pencil case, cloth and all
All this to start anew for a brand new life; more healthy, more well manage schedule and of cos happier life!
=) looking forward!
- Spent a bomb on 3 face products at body shop; spent $100 plus (+ mum's mother day gift)
- Wasted one week of break
- Started my jap class after 1 week break (got retain sob sob =( )
- Got my pay for the month (all 3)
- Got paid by govt
- Bought a $60+ textbook (so far the most ex textbook i bought)
- Chat with dear very long on the phone till wee hours
- Have not study what i learn for the 3 weeks of uni lessons
- Recovered from flu
- Went to eat Shokudo with jap frens
- Take various of bus to reach school from office
- Been extremely tired this week
- Finally mange to get hold of 恋空漫画1
- Waste a bomb on cab today (even took the most ex taxi starting @ $3.20. wth)
- Slimming down (haha hoping for more)
- Cook for the family on labor day (when mum is not around)
- Read thru the notes that i have photocopy
- Read and listen thru the jap conversation book that i have bought
- Starting to prepare for prep course for jap and starting soon for uni (hope will pass all last term's exam)
- Wash my pencil case, cloth and all
All this to start anew for a brand new life; more healthy, more well manage schedule and of cos happier life!
=) looking forward!
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