1more post to go for my 100th entries.

forgot when i first started to blog, but definitely is i got influenced by friends. haha. to think is so long time ago. haha

just officialy finish my auditing, damn tired cos the counting of books are irritating and what's more i have to shift the books to new location, from the back to the front, and worse still NO ONE TO HELP!!! SHIT MAN! lucky i got one helper who does not help much, is the trolley!!!! yeah! thank god that i at least got that or i will be dragging my feet and using up all my strength to shift. thanks ah trolley.

now feel very tired more than satisfaction cos i still got alot to do hai....
very tired and body aching now, die le, later still got jap class... hai dunno can hold on for 3 hours ma? hai...

sob sob, now still got a lot of thing to do, dun think can relaxed during the long weekend le hai...

tomolo still got to come to work at 8.30. hao mei ren xin...!!!!

cya, await for my 100th entries hor!!!
tata

today finally can blog le... was intending to blog yesterday, first thing when i come into the office but then the internet was not working. at first thought was the company's server down but later heard was the undersea cables in taiwan got damaged and hence stop the connection.

got a lot to say. got accuse by my dad, these few mornings over stupid thing. first is the heater spoilt then i got to bath in cold water for these 2 days, damn freaking cold cos these two days keep on raining so very cold. next was he sudden ask for the camera that he lend me and say i spolit the cover and say the camera got virus. stupid ah, camera how to got virus one, i dun get it. maybe his laptop got virus say the camera got virus hai dunno him lah. think he got MENOPAUSE!!!! anyhow accuse, then he do wrong thing won't say, i didnt do anything yet got say you say i angry a not hai. stupid....

audit is half way thru, thanks to dear who came down to help me but in the end got accuse and got scolded by parents. sorry dear. bu thanks for coming down to help me, at least i left half to do and i will buck up ok? so that i can go out with you tonight. ok? must push me ah. haha.

2 more posts to go....
3 more days to year 2007...
20 more days to leaving company (minus 6 days of weekend) =14days more.

wahaha!!!!!

4 more entries to go....

today i make a so call christmas lunch for dear to celebrate christmas, can say that this is so call the first time that we celebrate together on that day cos normally he is busy going to cck and celebrate.

today make pasta for him with the ingredients we bought last night and dear was kind of satisfied with the pasta. ( can he make a fuss ma? cos he came to my house so late and when come can eat le, don't you think is xin fu ma?)

then we at first wanna watch death note but in the end didnt so stay at my place. took out game of life to play( i bought like 3-4 years ago when i see this game in overtime, japanese drama and feel it's fun so buy it cost me $60), dear never play before so we play. in the end i won wahaha... can see that dear has no planning...

dear also try new game like crazy taxi and fighting games that he never play before and can say that he enjoy playing but looks dun seems like. haha. then he has kou fu loh, today my grandma cook curry vegetables and dear say that he will never eat curry veg one tried and said is nice, can say that my grandma's curry veg is so delicious that dear agree hehe. and he enjoy quite much despite sore throat and coughs.

then we began to glue our eyes onto my laptop, cos we are watching bleach (jap anime) so nice and funny. too bad dear cant bring home cos his com cant play dvd version. hai

tomolo working again and the start of audit and i can say that tomolo will be busy and stress hai. yet to do the things that my manager wan me to submit tomolo. going to do now. hai.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

yesterday went to dear house to pei him cos he is sick hai. to think he always fall sick when he is off and on leave, so suai of him haha.

went to his place about 1 plus, take cab go cos i lazy haha then went to tiong bahru to buy luch for him. bought yong tau foo and carrot cake for him and myself and it is so full... he so sick and i buy so much haha. then we watched shin chan crayon and he was laughing so bad cos it's so funny and also becos shin chan is his favourite character, we also watched SCV, went to watch harlem's school, (dunno which channel) then it was so lame and stupid loh. haha. to think that those celebrity as constantants didnt even see clesrly on the question, so obivious and yet all think the same thing... -_-''

then play with willy (his dog), willy like so much and dear kind of jealous, keep askin me that i go his place is to pei him or play with willy haha.

dear's dog: 'willy'

'willy' and i

dear and 'willy'

at night went to dinner with dear @ cityhall and we ate thai express again, yes again. hai. but we try different variety. so overall quite ok. shop shop and then went home.

simple dating i would say during christmas eve. haha.

today was in quite a busy day, thought that i can relaxed first before the audit but i was wrong again hai. by right morning is no class one but pop out some students making the library noisy and i'm unable to do my things as i wanted to go to the back of the library to do stock take, then in the end i cant hai. sian.

then afternoon when i came back from i decide to count the back of the books no matter wat. so i just dump every books in the cupboard and put all on the floor, i was nearly covered by them hai. flooded with books.

then at night got lesson, before that there was a so called christmas buffet dinner at the sales side, at first dun wan to eat but was drag there hai. there was a lucky draw and i only won a small cup with a scented candle only hai.. so lousy...

jap lesson was still ok but more things to be learn cant seems to cope le. learn new thing now, forget later hai. too stress le...

seems like the audit is so powerful enough to make me tense up for two weeks le and it is coming le.

6 more to go for my 100th entries and still counting down.

I HAVE TENDERED RESIGNATION!!!

Feel so relaxed after giving her the letter, never feel this great before. you may think i'm crazy but it really feel like you have drop a huge burden in your heart. wahaha. now counting down for end of work.

Leaving in : 29 days.

Met dear on sat, at first want to watch movie and go ikea, but in the end, we done nothing for these. wewent to vivo again... yes again, i dunno what' s so nice there and dear like to go there hai. do walk walk there, have lunch and dinner there. finally first time got down with dear at coffee bean to sit down and relaxed. want to talk things but in the end turn out to me doing my jap hw and he busy drawing a hippo for me. hehe. quite cute the hippo.

sun went to help my old pal to do her project, was raining heavily when we went ps and i can say that u wear the most worst outfit ther. cos i was like wearin kind of beach wear there and my pal wore a black blouse, skirt and point shoes. dear and i guess that we may wear extremely opposite of ohers and it turns out to be true. haha, anyway enjoy outing with her as we never really have a chance to do that. then we went to pasar malam walk walk and eat eat haha.

last nite meet with the gang to watch eragon, thanks to ms oh who has free tickets from her company and treat us to watch movie. haha. thanks ms oh, the show was great but the gathering was even better. how i wish en was here with us and hang out like in the past.

got to do thing le or else i wont be able to leave the company on time =p

counting down: 7

dear yesterday came down to my workplace and surprise me. he was standing outside my library entrance and i took no notice of him as i was busy talking with my colleague regarding some stupid issues and this dear in order for me to take note of him keep giving me missed calls despite he know that i'm talking hai... just dunno what he is thinking.

went out to meet him a while but laterask him to come in but he refused, until nearly 45 min later then come in. hai. initially want to bring him in but i scare of the risks of been discovered he is not a student. so with my part timer and one of the colleague 'encouragement', i asked him in haha. you can imagine how it is like doing something secretly yet dun wan people to know about. haha. =p

i was touched by him as he came down without even going ho,e to put down his stuffs before coming down and also he waited till i knocked off cos he knows that every friday whenever i got japanese lesson, i didnt take my dinner, but just some snacks only, so he came down to pei and supervise me to eat my dinner.

went to eat subway with him at republic plaza @raffles places. and was eating in a rush, manage to reach my school on time. and while walking to the schoool, dear is doing his piao-yi as usual, brining me around to cut people's lanes, haha. silly him.

the class was ok but eventually i was killed by a short test cos i didnt remenber the character for all katakana so leave lots of blanks =(

after class ended, one of the classmate was suggesting that i take cab with her but i say anything, so i pei her wait loh. she saw a cab, was wlking towards it when one ang moh came out of nowhere run past my classmate and cut her queue and got on the cab. the cabby was in a surprise look that this ang moh didnt give to my classmate as we spot him first. hai. somemore this ang moh is a guy, cant even let a girl to go home first. (cos my school that side got pub then we end class ard 9.45pm so should let us first ma)hai.

now working but i hope to tender soon. i keep saying and do nothing not only irritate myself as those i have told i going to register haha. i everytime say dear that he say thing but never do, might as well dun say. now it sems like i'm the one saying and doing nothing about it so must say and do or else dear will keep saying i keep say him but not myself haha.

back to work again le....

8 more post to go... yeah!!! now is the middle of the week le so fast. hai yet to finish my japanese hw.

think i finaly know why the days past faster than the time i took jap ele 1, becos: ele 1 is on sun, which means that outing with dear has past or meet dear after class so is still within 1 day. however, now is on fri, which means that there is 2 days for me to hangout with dear so i will take for granted. haha that's why leave only weekdays to do hw haha. then weekdays work tend to drag and drag haha. call me slack lah. haha.

last night was on the way home, then see that amk that side got pasar malam so went to walk walk. see quite alot of new things haha. so buy shin chan vcds haha, in the end the vcds got problem hai. sian...

dear now is in jungle with his boss haha thurs then coming back, so in the mean time have to be alone hai so sian without him haha.

christmas coming le but yet to buy any gifts for dear so have to think wat to buy, sian... maybe dun buy haha treat him.

9 more to go for my 100th entries. haha.

been busy for the weekend, going out with dear and tidying up my things.

sat went to The Cathy to watch movie, haven been there to watch but the ambience is very good, relaxing. watched The Holidays, quite a nice show and somemore is free cos i use gift voucher. to think that dear still want to pay the staff even though is a gift voucher. so blur of him haha.

there still wasn't much shops open @ the place but we did saw one wedding and it was held at bens' & jerry. kind of funny but think is a fun experience just for engagement party. the movie was nice cos is a romance comedy. quite funny, quite worth the money. next sat dear wont be free cos he has to attend a briefing @ NTU about 3 plus, so by the time it end thinks will be about 6-7 plus, dunno will be meeting a not, cos we want to break record, watch movie every week for the last month of dec too . haha.

last nite was busy packing my desk, too messy and dusty time to do it. yet to finish my work but hope tat i can finish my jap tonight so i will have more time to study yeah!

today as usual is a sian day. been very confused cos if i resign now, i have to look for job, then before chinese new year i have driving test so dunno if i can have off if i am able to find a new job. hai. but perhaps i should die die resign and maybe find a part time first to work with. sian sian hai.

lat nite act kind of impulse, and went to buy 2 japanese books for refernce. more to travel guide that kind but i think it's helping as i cant find any dictionary plus it's very ex, 60 plus per book. but i manage to but 2 handy book @ $20, 10 each. haha . quite a good buy. hope it's useful. will post the pic.

i see that i need about 10 more blog before i hit hundred, so i hope that i will hit it by the end of this year, yipee...
haha

thought of going to chalet at the year end, intending to go with dear, but dunno can book a not, cos last min haha. if not i go for hangout @ mt emily, haha, expensive, but i think the ambience is nice. can try out bah haha. but a bit ex. =(

but nvm, once a while only, must have the first time for everything haha.

jya.

back to blogging le. now very free haha got time to watch anime though my com is mute, cos i finish doing my stuff le haha. being left alone is a good thing but at times is too lonely, luckily i know how to ease my boredom haha.

last nite was my dad's b'day, and we went to soup restaurant with my aunt and her boss. the food there was quite nice but the place is kind of small and crampped hai. service wise is ok but it seems like they dun have enough staff as it's hard to call for them when you need help. finish the dinner quite fast ate only 1 hour or even less. at first was intending to treat my dad but it turn out to be my aunt's boss (family fren) treating cos he was the closest to the counter and he just walk there and pay the bill. i cant even pay hai.... in the end still got said by my dad who say why i didnt foot the bill. unreasonable. hai.

dear was suppose to be off today but didnt everytime got trick one. hai just dun understand why he so unlucky like me, i fail my driving test but he like he keep striking duty hai. so many people in the army, same rank as he, same branch or company as he, people all got only 1 guard duty, he got 2. people got off despite these few weeks busy, he got but later got to cancel. -_-'' hai, dunno ah.

think all my unluckily thing he passed to me one since he went into army earlier than i take my driving test haha. this is wat i say contagious. haha. dear, just kidding ah!

boss is back and seems like a lot of thing to ask her but maybe tomolo, better get the things done she want first rather than she ask me. did i say before? she say that i am hardworkin (during appraisal) but not driven!!! ALL THE THINGS SHE ASKED ME TO IMPROVE IS TO BE MORE DRIVEN, so have to show her HOW DRIVEN I WAS before i leave the company. hai

today got facial but maybe not going cos they didnt call to remind and i have yet to finish up my japanese sukudai (homework) got to finish since friday is coming and i'm still in the midst of lost and slacking, must buck up or else i cant catch up with others.

going to have a test on friday must pass cos in order to pass this ele 2, i must have at least 75% of attendance and passing of tests to proceed to intermediate. hai. she is going to test us on katakana, where i cant even remenber, think i need 48 hr than 24 hr to catch up. hai

why so many things happen to me these days? why??? i'm busy and i cant seem to get my things done and feel so tired everyday, worse than before. is it becos i started to have lesson on weekday (fri) and plus i cant cope nor i didnt find time to study for my japanese? hai how how? anyway to help me!!!!

I NEED HELP URGENTLY AND BADLY!!!!

early in the morning initially was a fine day but after just quarrel with one uncivilised person on the phone dampened my moods. still say that the rule are dead but human are flexible. what the heel, if all rules are to be bend, why will they have the rules in the first place, they just cant take advantage that they are the customers mean that we have to give in to them wat. wat kind of logic is that. just becos i'm the provider, doesn't mean i have to tolerate the nonsense wat. think you so big, then dun call to renew,still need my help and act so arrogant. i hate this kind of people, spoit my day!!!

anyway, enough of that stupid person. think i will resign soon as the students here are unreasonable.hai need to find a new job sian sian sian. realy regret accpeting the job, should look for another hai. no prospect, noisy boss hai. better faster sack me off. haha

anyway, yesterday meet dear and we went for movies again and dear informed me that we have been watching movie for 4 weeks continously. we watched flushed away, just friends, happy feet and lastly open season. haha very rich, he is hinting to cut down on movies cos expensive *(even though he is using SAFRA card got discount to $8.)

but we still have more shows to watch, death note 2, deck in the hall , maybe harry potter (dunno is it this yr and many more haha) alot of nice shows now.

by the way i have bought a new spec, transition lens, lens plus frame cost only 120, will put up the pic soon. dear and i also bought a pair of speakers together, it's chip & dale haha. he got chip and i got dale. kind of expensive but is cute haha. waste a lot of money recently. hai.

japanese class is getting harder and harder and i am still in the slacking mood, guess to pass and move on to intermediate is hard if i continue slacking hai. i want to pass and take test!!!

today makes the first day of the month and and the last month of the year. 30 days ahead we will be welcoming the year of 2007. so fast.

like my new blogskin? i like it alot cos now other than blue, orange is my second option.

have you thought of what have you done for this year ma?

i have thought some and these all some of the main things that accompany thru this year.
- having to graduate from poly
- looking for job
- starting to work
- planning for my near future and far future
- taken driving test for thrice and still cmi (hai, think this is my regrets for the year)
- do alot of different things with dear
- doing decorative spray for christmas (for my library)
- taking japanese lesson (drag for a long time, now ele 2)
- hanging out with frens.

think i didnt have any interesting things and i am going to make sure that i will spend my fullest next year, travelling, shopping and everything!

harlow, back again and i have broke the ice between dear and me lah. so now is ok as usual. as those who knows me well, sure know i keep quarrelling with him. siao one lah for both of us. perhaps i'm a loner, needs people to pei me loh. haha.

just hear from one of my jap fren saying that the jap teacher jumping to another company, she say now that she know, think i haven sign out, wanted to ask me to jump there too since it is quite near to where i am studying now. (still in orchard). i told my fren, if we cant take what we learn here, then when we intend to proceed to another level, we jump there and she was laughing haha. she is really a great teacher but maybe is the course itself too rush and she dun like it. i also have a hard time absorbing as it is not the same as in the poly one. hai. so still trying my best.

not happy with my ele 1 result cos i last min now learn lesson le, have to really study hard, got motivated by en, so must study as hard as she is. to be frank, she really motivate me to study in poly that's why i can score good. haha thanks, en.

going to change my skin soon but need advice from those who view my blog, which skin is nicer?

this is no 1

this is no. 2

this is no. 3

this is no 4

this is no 5

this is no 6

help me see which is nice ok? thanks

siging out...

today is the third day of cold war with dear. just dunno what have happen to us. hai. he just dun bother to call just msg me when he is going to sleep only. i really dunno what he wants nor do. he just seems to do nothing about it and expect the problems to go away by itself. it's just a selfish and irresponsible thing to do it and that is wat i hate about him the most. hai...

today late for work, think i am the boldest to do that. haha. haven hear anything about my lateness but sure will get it later. really feel very pissed nowadays. with relationship, work to worry about, my japanese i have to worry too for i cant find a good timeslot for my next commencement hai sian...

going to act busy and do things or else i will have a parrot for the whole of today nagging at me. hai...

this will be my second blog for the day. not that i free but somehowno mood in working so come here to relax and vent things out wahaha...

just now my manager gave me a performance form and ask me to fill it up, says it is for my confirmation and from my colleague say this is also to determined that if i am able to get the bonus in april. but the times is still long, still got nearly 5 months to go before the bonus and i not sure if i am able to cope with it. my probation ends in jan 07, which means even pay increase, i have to wait till feb which is three months later and i dun think i can last so long, so i ask some of my frens, including lecturer.

the lecturer ask me to follow my heart to make the choice, if i were to do it i will chose to quit, but i haven find a job, somemore now end of the year le hard to find a job hai.

frens some told me, not happy then dun work there what for force urself to do it; others say just work a bit longer and wait till you got the increment and the bonus then leave. this is good as got money to push you thru the months, but how long can the money push? not as if it is 2k or wat for the increment to push you thru. hai i think at most only plus $100 so if i guess correctly then will i still stay? hai another thing is that my resume will not be nice with the library executive cos one is not office , two i not going to work in library anymore, three like kind of wastetime working here without learning any new thing. hai headach. all blame to me.

if times can turn back, i wanna change a lot of things really. i want to study hard for my o'level, after O's find a good job and learn japanese, driving learn early too, score well for my poly results, and planned well for my time to do all things and go exercise. Who knows by that time, i may even be taking jap JLPT Level 2 and even driving on the road and even slimmer than now hai. all is just dream hai....

everything (including nightmare) is just the beginning....

i really cant take it anymore but wat can i do? have to work damn sian. me and 1 of the colleagues cant take it anymore. she is so unreasonable and unbearable. as long as is library thing everything push to me. wat else can she do... hai i really hope that i will resign now so that i dun need to do audit and got shot by her again. she just thought everything is so easy to be done, might as well you do it urself before concluding then. hai

maybe is she tends to compare me and the ex librarian as she is very experience and when she leave, they even order a buffet for her as farewell, see that is how she means to her. i dun think is becos of she work here long but the fact they like wat she do. please lah, dun compare me with others. others may be good at some strength and i may be good at some too. just dun use becos of the same job to measure. like apple and oranges are fruits but why cant you use apple to compare with oranges, same logic ma hai.

getting pissed every single day when that is work. hai really want to quit!!!! people bonus in DEC but we bonus in APRIL. What the HELL. hai so if want me to wait for that might as well i quit. still have to put up face with her and tolerate her nonsense, still say that listen to suggestions. dun bluff lah.

i dun like this job, dun like the environment, dun like the people, dun feel part of the company, dun feel the importance in this company, but more to a anger ventalitor machine. so you expect me to stay loyal, wait long long...

she only know how to say me when students complaint. please lah also see situation ma, she ah, people complaint about library computer slow, tell her about becos of the ram only 128 how to go fast? then she say is still ok with her. i was like, wat the hell, of cos student compare with their house computer slow then complain ma, no brain. still want me to put good mouth to them. wtf. all she scare is student complain then the higher position ask her then now she push all blames to us the lower than her one. sad right, well that is the fact of life. REALITY!!!! WELCOME !!!

i never felt so demoralised before even before my previous companies. make mistakes, they wll help you to cover and prevent it to happen again, tell you that is ok, just do it again. but here, no loh. seems like once you make mistake you are condemn. ask you all lah, if make mistake at least say nice nice lah, but no loh she just want to blame you and piss you off. ask her things that you dunno, she ask you to find out yourself. then wat for i ask you if i know how to find. stupid right. this kind of manager i rather scak her then she fired me. for this i rather earn 1 month less then having her stepping on my tail and keep harping things on me. wait till i vent everything out then you know 老虎不发威当我是病猫. this phrase le. hai

still need to work. i hate it!!!!!

i pass my elementary test for japanese le. however i have to proceed on and i wont be getting the teacher that taught me in ele 1 cos the schedule is not nice hai =( but no matter wat, i am going to continue to study to fuifill what i want in my goal. haha

friday meet up with my 13 years best friend and her ex and sister to go kbox. at first was only me, her and her ex, but her sis came along so no choice. went to the new kbox in amk, but their songs not very updated and the staff is not knowledgable about their things, even the in-charge. waste about 10 mins at the counter and rushes us out at exactly 10pm. what the hell. cant even let us sing a bit more hai... sian. my fren's sis sing like nobody 's business, at one go key in 10 + songs for herself and all same singer like jolin anf FIR. hai... but a good gathering for me and my fren as we walked home together chatted alot. we are those who hardly meet but know what's each other is thinking and alot of thing to talk about. nice chatting with her.

last nite went to PS with dear, watch a movie and have whole spread of chicken dishes for dinner, feel like we are carnivores haha. we went to watch "just friends" which is a romantic comedy, kind of like " Along came Polly" but is nice, quite funny and lame haha. then we went to thai express for dinner, he order a thai laska with chicken and potato while i order a yellow curry with rice, order a chicken broth and a popiah. later when came, turn out out of 4 dishes we ordered, 3 dish have chicken and two with potato... -_-'' have kind of a hard time eating it...

then went to careffour(dunno speel correct ma) and i saw a hippo cushion and dear buy for me. 1 more added to my collection. perhaps one days must take phtos of all hippo i have and post it.haha then became hippo world!!!

last nite bught a pizza and just now just have pizza too haha. my younger sis treat us and my aunt cos her b'day coming then got some hong bao le haha. kind of relaxed after the test but when i think of i have to work tomolo, i very the sian. really want to quit cos the environment is very the not good and the people as well hai. but my mum suggest me finding a job before jumping to another company, and she say it's end of the year le, most company will be giving bonus le so no one will resign nor recruit. hai

think still have to bear with it le.

one week never blog le and i feel kind of exhausted nowadays. intending to look for a new job. i hate my current one, really. it's sux, stupid and nothing to learn. really regret taking this jobs up in the first place. ANybody with job lobang tell me lei!

i seriously cant stay here anymore. like du ri ru nian. hai... today the manager still tell me one thing that i was so fed up with but wat can i do. just find her know how to say only but is not feasible nor realistic. she ask me to sit by the door and become a "security guard". not that i despise security job, but i'm employed as an executive not that lah. the company jusy too stingy le. next year budget cant bring forward ah. they jus dun understand one. they think i can split myself into twos or threes to watch the whole library ah.

damn pissed with them and i still have to bear with it if i wan to quit cos one month notice. hai.
why this kind of thing always happen to me. lousy work. hai. really waiting for them to sack me off and everything will be just ok. really wish.

my japanese is coming and at tomolo but i have yet to finish up studying for it. too much to learn yet little time. i think i have myself to blame with. spend so much of time to slack around and study last min. really kind of scare what will happen if i study my degree course hai....

i'm back after a day break. today is a quiet day cos morning there is no class and no one is able to disturb or distrupt me. boss went on holiday add on to the quietness i longed for. my boss's voice to me was a noise, even though she may not talk to me but whenever she was talking to other colleague and i can hear her, it pissed me off. hai.

kind of good today as i am able to finish what i wanted to finish for a long time. hope that i will be able to be guai these days and faster get my things done submit to her and boss won't pester me anymore. but i'm scare, the faster i do, the more thing she will ask me too. hai how?i just dunno just what is the right approach to tackle this problem. guess next month i'll burying my head in the stock-taking. i feel that the books again had feets and ran off le. hai. this time boss say it will be my responsibility for the loss books. i want to protest!!! i have told her dozen of times that the library need a security system to 1 - track books, 2 - act as security and 3 - help out in the procedures of borrowing, returning books. cos the current system is not good at all. cant track which books missing, no picture of the books, so even missing i also dunno for i may never ever seen the book before, you'll never know.

feel like quiting but i scare i wont be able to find a job that i want and long for plus i going to study next year and some company may not want me at all due to that problem. hai. my head is cracking out soon..

anybody can help me??? hai btw i'm having my japanese test next week hope that i can passed and proceed to the next level!

sudden have a wishlist in my head: 1- pass jap test, 2-pass driving, 3- go for a holiday, 4- earn more money and spend less, 5- give myself a long long break!, 6- have dear to accompany more and go to places we never been. haha

tooo greedy le... wahaha... save money first...

haven been blogging for a long time but all i have are bad news for you all. i have failed my driving again and all thanks to a just learning motorcyclist and a tester that forced me to do the very 'incredible' things when in fact i should'nt have done it at all. i guess my failure has been repeated by myself to over 30 ++ people and i dun wish to say it again so dun ask ok? i'll be taking again in feb 07. hope that time really can passed. sick of waiting. i can even tell you that i took only 5 months to learn everything but i took 10 months to take my test (cos each interval from first test to another is about 3 months, so i now not only wasting my time for the test to come, i'm also waiting for my money to be waste. hai. why all these things have to happen to me????

I took nearly a week off for the test and when i come back to work, i thought that the trip to Phuket will be proceed as per normal but i hear a bad news, they are cancelling the trip due to unable to book tickets. i was like wah lao, i really must salute them. last min buy tickets think got meh, use backside think also know what, you 1 month before the trip to book tickets, chances of buying it i feel is less than 50% le, you still last min buy. hai. really no brain. think that only you are the only company going to holiday ah. For ur info, Secondary school already having holidays and next week i think, primary sch also having holidays too, parents have already book tickets le, wait for you meh. in the end, they have a stupid gathering session and a buffet at an itatlian restaurant and they think that is already ok le. hai... by the way, i didnt even went for the buffet.

alot of unhappy things dunno why happen to me and my family. first is i fail test, next is my parents' holiday trip end early due to my mum have a fall and got 3 stitches on the back of her head. hai dunno what's going to happen. i can just say this year is not for me. hai...

met up with an ex colleague from renn thai and went out to orchard with him. he seems very moody and hagged after the breaking up with his gf. hai. feel sad for him and i cant do anything to help him. just only able to lend ear to him. i think is a huge impact for him as his ex like someone else and lie to him. how can she do this to him? after all they have been together for 3 years. i know that long distance relationship is hard to maintain but my fren is trying his best hai. (they are from malaysiaand my fren is workin here. hai just hope that he pull himself up. dunno i just feel that the thing he do now is to make his ex realise that he got everything that she wan him to have like having a car, laptop and he intend to buy a house next year. hai. he dun even have money and he is so ambitious about it. if i didnt tell you he is just 21 this year. hai

i feel that he is using all these goals to make him busy and to prove that he can have all these when he wanted it. but i scare he may overwork himself hai.... hope he take care.

need to work le hai... got any lobang for jobs tell me, i wanted to switch jobs!

I took a quiz just now. it's about the five love language and the results is shown below

The Five Love Languages
Your primary love language is probably Quality Time
with a secondary love language being Physical Touch.

Complete set of results
Quality Time: 9
Physical Touch: 7
Acts of Service: 6
Words of Affirmation: 5
Receiving Gifts: 3

perhaps i really need i really need more time and attention from my dear. hope that he is able to give me. can he???

today will be my last day in the office before i went for my leave. taking leave to prepare myself for the driving again.. sian

yesterday was dear's b'day. didnt really do anything haha. we just meet and went to escape theme park for the day. it was great but then very warm and stuffy becos of the haze. we reach about 12 plus and then began our 'adventure'.

first we went to play go kart but maybe we are so excited, we didnt realise that we may be queuing at least 45 min for a ride. cos can also say got alot of people. the track is for beginner and family one, so when it's our turn, they request either we both take one kart or we have to go for the advanced tracks to have the individual ride. so in the end we take together, it was a fun experience cos dear drive me for the first time. it was a very good experience despite he drive a bit reckless say want to be jay chou, to do piao yi... haha =p

next we went to play 360 degree coaster , i was the one to persuade dear to play but in the end i was the one to be scare of. came down with a fright and a bit headach. hai... so useless le. unlike in the past. we only play a few items as some are for kids and not many attractions to began with. so we keep on playing the karts.

this is my present for him.

photo taken while waiting...

the karts we been waiting for...

the long queue before us.... hai sian

i'm the chauffeur for dear.

my big candy floss

cotton wool and sugar cube...

this is my halloween monster that i made from candy floss (erh... i know is digusting but it's cute)

before transformation..

After transformation (with ears)....

Why are you staring at me???

Melting out, the brain and tail is exposed...

Eating out last bit of 'it'

After our adventures ends, at the bus stop. (exhausted and sian look)

that's the end. btw all these photos are taken from my new phone hehe... (K800i)

I'm stressed out wont be lasting long le... forever alot of things to do, endless and to make the things worse, i cant even cope with my japanese and still watching tv when reach home. hai.

make dear very pissed with me last nite, now not really talking to each other sad. =(
hai. just hope that everything will turn out fine.

i hvae to have a tracking list to make sure that i do all these things before i got haunt by my manager again. i really dunno how all can stand her. so demanding and think others got nothing to do like that one.

Tracklist: - do up the website
- search for search engine
- check out the vcds
- do up a booklist for books to be bought

sound easy yet is hard as there is forever surprise on the way.. hai...

dear's birthday is coming soon and i more or less have plan wat i want to do but have yet to decide what present to give him hai..

All these things are making my head big big.

i dunno what to write these days as too many things happen and very sian. just show you all my latest hippo collection haha. enjoy!





this hippo cushion is dear buy for me de. cute right?





these are bought when we went to the zoo...



this is my present for today!!! i even got it in key chain form as couple but i place in my box too bad haha.

tat's it so far. haha. got time i'll diplay all my collection. so please have the patience...

Hippo talking: Pls wait, I'LL BE BACK!!! WAHAHA

I saw two email saying about meaningful things and i like to share with you all here.


Love ... it's a kind of feeling that most of us can't really control.
Sometimes it just happen when you least expected it to happen.

What Is Love?

It is a mystery why we fall in love.
It is a mystery how it happens.
It is a mystery when it comes.

It is a mystery why some love grows
and it is a mystery why some love fails.
You can analyze this mystery and
look for reasons and causes,
but you will never do anymore
than take the life out of the experience.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life -
the gift of love will come to you in full flower,
and you will take hold of it
and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty.

This is the dream we all share.
More often, it will come and take hold of you,
celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When people fall out of love,
they want answers where there are no answers.
They want to know what is wrong
in them that makes the other person no
longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change,
thinking that if some small things were different,
love would bloom again.

They blame their circumstances
and say that if they go far away and start
a new life together,their love will grow.
They try anything to give meaning to what has happened.

If you find yourself in love with someone
who does not love you, be gentle with yourself.
There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in
the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love
with you and you don't love him,
feel honored that love came and called at your door,
but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage; do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you,
and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys,
even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another,
and he falls in love with you,
and then love chooses to leave,
do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame.
Let it go .....

There is a reason and there is a meaning.
You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love.
Love chooses you.

The secret of love is that it is a gift,
and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.

If you keep your heart open, it will come again!

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After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said I love you but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you.

The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my MOTHER, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally.That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie."What's wrong, are you well," she asked? My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news."I thought that it would be pleasant evening with you," I responded. "Just the two of us."She thought about it for a moment, and then said, "I would like that very much."

That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house,I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary.She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's."I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed, "she said, as she got into the car. "They can't wait to hear about our meeting". We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady.

After we sat down, I had to read the menu.Large print. Half way through the entries, I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips."It was I who used to have to read the menu when you were small," she said."Then it's time that you relax and let me return the favor," I responded.During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation - nothing extraordinary, but catching up on recent events of each other's life.We talked so much that we missed the movie.As we arrived at her house later, she said, "I'll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you." I agreed.

"How was your dinner date?" asked my wife when I got home."Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined," I answered.

A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't do anything for her.Some time later,

I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined.An attached note said: "I paid this bill in advance. I wasn't sure that I could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two plates one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you, son."At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time: "I LOVE YOU!" and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve.

Nothing in life is more important than God and your family. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till "some other time."

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By the way i think i will change another blogskin cos i hear from my librarian that her mum also use the same blogskin as me. -_-''

does that mean that my taste so aunite? -_-'' will find one asap

Today has been quite a hectic day. first thing in the morning when i come to the office i have heard that some student's art piece are missing and to make the thing worse, the art pieces are for their art exam and the lecturer has yet to mark and grade them. the students are very upset and demand what has happen.

we have check the CCTV and found out that some of the part time students are suspicious so the outcome is yet to know have to wait for my colleague to do the investigation. i sometimes wonder, this is a school for the adults to study yet these things still may happen. it's such a shame that some of the adults steal things for their own uses even up to now. just hope that they will know that it is wrong and be responsible for what they did. i know that books that are relevant and sacred in the library is limited but they also ought to spare a thought for others. if you want the book then buy it. maybe the price may be much cheaper than you expected. i recently help a group of students to buy a resource book which is helpful to them. And guess how much is the book? $ 60? $70? the original price is $70 and i only get for $35 per book! 35!!! wherer can you get such a offer and it's half price of the original of the book.

so i just hope that they can ask if they want to buy and not resort to stealing. if cannot afford, at least inform us and we will see how to help them right? there's a saying: tian wu jue neng zhi ru right?

enough of saying that. today i have been doing quite a number of books. have to catalogue them in the system. and i have yet to do one-tird of it becos of the previous incident that i mention. not to mention that i have alot of photocopying to do for the lecturer.

to add on, last night i have spend 2 and a half hours writing minutes for yesterday's meeting and i dun understand why i have spend such a long time when the format is there le haha. too long never touch typing thing le haha. tata

knocking off soon... =p

New Skin uploaded.

seein my blog sian le then i decide to change the skin. haha also see huai en and betsy change so also wan to change haha. my frequency to my own blog is like once a week while i see others like almost every day. hai so loyal to other blog but not myself. haha.

yesterday went for japanese course and it's as if i'm in a train, the teacher taught so much that i got blurred half way. to be frank, i never thought that it will be so taxing learning this jap compared to the one i learn in poly. though poly got quiz all that but what we learn we keep on practice but for this course no loh, every week learn new thing so kind of hard to absorb. last week studies didnt go home and revise and in the end i forget some le hai. feel like other class mates got study what have been taught, so i also have to improve le. must jia you so that i can be promoted to E2.

mooncake festival coming le so have to buy mooncake to eat. the long waiting for my black sesame mooncake from shangri-la is here. but the pice is more expensive now. it cost 39.80 for 4 normal size mooncake which equals to 10 per piece hai... must get dear to buy for me haha...

sept is ending soon and soon the driving test will be here. fail twice and get very demoralised dunno what happen, is it i think too much or is my over-confidence make me got killed by the test? i dunno just hope this will turn out fine and keeping my finger crossed. one more hour till i knock off. so jia you bah. haha

Abandon my blog for a long time now coming back once in a blue moon. haha =p

last nite went out with dear for shopping and for my lesson. went for my first japanese lesson, it's quite ok and the teacher quite friendly. though i learnt before but it seems like i return back to my teacher le haha. and also the way they pronounce is different too. wonder is it becos of the teacher themselves or have one teacher mispronounce haha i dunno.. but it's quite fun. that's a aunties sitting beside me at first was ok but when it come to rehearse what welearnt with each other i have to rehearse with her. hai and she will mispronounce and also say loudly. hai. haha

in the end dear has to wait for me for 3 hours. told him to go walk walk but he dun like to shop alone, ask him go home later meet me again then so ma fun. so in the end he just wait loh. ask him to go class with me and study together he dun wan, say will distracted and in the end leave me alone. all others in my class mostly come in pairs, like sisters, frens... unlike me hai...

then after the class, we went to shop and eat at pepper lunch. first time eat there and it's not bad but just a bit ex loh. (cos i'm broke le.. all the expenses is from my pay. didnt get any $$ from mum other than driving then others have to pay myself. like transport, phone bill, insurance and my jap course fee. ) So many to spend on yet so little money been earned. and i dun save much worse still haha...

went to taka after that and guess what i saw there? HIPPOS! and i drag dear down to see the hippo. hear from the staff that is pre-launch sales so if didnt buy now hard to buy in the future so i buy alot. spend about $70++ on it haha so happy. next time will put the photo in if i manage to remenber. i got a couple hippo piggy bank, key chain and a hippo cushions. at first wanted to buy the photo frame and stuff toys as well, but i feel that i dun wan so many of the same variety of the hippo so i turn dear down. i know he know that i like hippo alot and willing to spend on me but is too ex and i dun need so much. i once told him that if one day got one guy buy me a big big hippo (like those really big bear) i will marry the guy, so he saw two there and say if he buy for me will i marry him so i say is too small haha. cos it is really smaller than those i want and plus it's already cost 85 dollars so i think not very worth it haha... so that goes his chance cos singapore's hippo fant shop that sell the baby clothes have closed down (if i not wrong) so there is no other places that sell hippos haha.

after that we even went to J8 cos i wan to buy file for my jap class then in the end buy foolscap paper as well. alot of things in our hands yet we still go marketing in the NTUC supermarket. by the time we come out, the hands are so full that we cant even hold hands and the thing keep hitting us haha.

no choice and i scare later have to squeeze in the bus all that with these things so take cab home. really is a symptons i seen. when you need a cab, there's no where to been seen. when you dun need one, there is lots of it. -_-'' that's life (i guess)


enjoy my day and i guess it's the first ever time that we buy so many things together. haha cya

Let me first update the past few days on how I pass my days starting from my anniversary with dear. We at first intend to have dinner on that day itself but it turn out that dear is unable to meet up cos of his army stuff that have delayed him from booking out hai. In the end, I was so fed up that he dun even have the intention of coming down and also throw temper at me instead. In the end I went home without meeting him. Didn’t even bother to message him and can say practically ignore him. But he did came down after all with a puzzle that I have ask for a long time and with some food. No other gift from him =( so sad. So pei him at void deck till nearly midnight then go home. Hai.

Sat went to meet him. Went to his place with the lunch my mum cooks and eat together. As usual, his brother barks at me so loudly but seems so happy cos he is wagging his tail. Think he siao already doing contradicting things just like his older brother -_-‘’. Anyway we jjust shop around then I realize that I have leave my wallet at my workplace so went back to get. Dear was so fed up as we still have to go back and get it, plus the wallet I uase was not wat he bought for me so he is more angrier. Hai. Then went to J8 to cut my hair. Went to the EC House and wait about 20 min for my turn, then dear cant get into the shop cos he is not cutting so he wait outside. Haha then we went shopping and he buy me a ring for the 4th year together. Glad that is he who saw it and ask if I want, not I request from him. Haha. Went honme early cos he have to book in for the night to prepare himself for the army marathon on Sunday.

Today is a boring day for me. The sliding door for my counter spoil again and I thought on sat was ok so dunno who itchy hand make it spoil again and now it seems like I’m more restricted and no privacy cos the student can see my place more openly hai… sian…

i have been very unlucky and unhappy these few days. everything is simply just not right and it's not my day. is either i quarrel with my mum or bf or else is i'm late for work and i injure myself by knocking onto something. i haven been myself these few days i guess hai. got a lot to write but simply dunno where to start...

Shari intro me a job in her company makes me suddenly feel like jumping over but then my contract with the agent is 2 months, so i dunno now confuse. just dunno why inthe first place i took up the libarary job when is not related to what i learn at all hai.. very regret now... hai if i can turn back the time i wont take this job. maybe i take advantage of the time and the job scope tat's y hai... see how i really dunno, lost...

can seems to get someone to talk about it all tat. no even my bf cares, then forget it, just let the days passed

back! i just mange to find a suitable timeslot for my japanese course at my initial school! so happy but it will also mean tat my sub=nday will be burn cos it is on sunday and start from 2-5pm sian. the timing is kind of bad, but for the future of having a third language to show off next time, this is worth it. wahaha! -_-''

but anyway mange to have a seat for the slot is ok. after all is for 8 lesson and cost 200 bucks. so it's ok. as they have their own patented textbook, so i thought maybe something we use to study in nyp, but to my dismay is not and worse, the font is something like the chinese english tat is so stiff and i dun like it. sian...

the classroom is quite ok and it is quiet, but they are evenly disperse, not it the way tat the classroom are side by side unit, but is unit that are alternate, then when having lesson, the classroom door is open, dunno for wat? to show how they teach? no aircon? or to distract the student? haha just dunno, maybe when i start the lesson know why they do it then i tell u.

By the day i'm going to watch fireworks tonight!YEAH! have watch it during the preview, however, it is too fast and too short le, tonight will be fifteen minutes at one go, no interval! YEAH!!!

now in the library going for lunch, this blog should be done by 1130 but drag to now haha... tata

finally have the time to update my blog le. have started working for two weeks (in case anyone dunno about it!) I'm currently working as a library executive at tanjong pagar. The company i worked for say big not big, small not small. Is just simply another educational institution that have both courses to attend as well as childcare centres.

These two weeks have been quite ok but when my wsupervisor ask me to do audit, i began to have ??? in my head. First, why in the middle of the year and why must be after i come in then do? is it trying to show tat how good the ex-librarian is compared to me? i dunno just dun seems to like to be compare with others.

Today was kind of doing the audit and to my dismay, i guess some of the reference books are lost!!!! What the hell, why must all these things happen to me, not before nor after the ex-librarian left? WHY??? hai..

I have encounter so much problems in these two weeks! and to think i thought i can happy go merry, get my pay without doing much things. At first still thought that the ex-librarian have done a good job in the handover, but upon thinking twice, i guess not so. hai.

Am i getting anyone confused? The library is for the working adults or students like u and me that are interested of becoming child-care teacher. The company is offering cert, diploma and degree for early childhood education as well as psychology course.

Anyway as i am working from 10 to 6, all student are mainly full timers, and i get to know some who are friendly and nice to talk with, but others, some like shit as if i ought to do for them. luckily those i know ok one cos they know what they can do haha ....

Quarrel with dear over his fren and his negligence. he ah everytime fren ask him to play game he will and forget about me. not that i mind him playing but he ought to have some restriction ma but he didnt. though he didnt sleep well was to wait for supper but u at least call or wat but he didnt just play, till i called him say him then he very bu shuang then hang my phone. Damn all to his GAY FREN. he just treat me as a spare, fren more important. Perhaps by changing to like gays may suit him more than liking gals. He just dun spare thoughts for me. I think his GAY fren ask him to die, he will do it, but for me, maybe just forget it or dun even care a damn. hai. that is how i feel from the way he treat me and his GAY frens! hai

Poor me, to be so stress up with work and still have to be neglect by bf.... Is this a retribution for throwing temper at him anyhow? hai who knows???

i fail my tp again and i so sian about it... i'm simply so disappointed and upset with myself... hai... such a failure... sian... dunno wat i can say about it. hai

Hi, i'm finally back!!! Fund a job le, starting to work on next monday. Is a library job but have to work on alternate saturday sian this mean that i cant take the japanese course hai sian. Tomolo is my tp hope that i can pass... hai just dun wanna think so much.

finally the day has come, last day in the work place, not that i am bad about the company or wat, is just tat is a relieve that i can finally rest and do the thing i want. ever since graduated, i have been looking for job, but in the end i work in the company that my aunt's fren is working inside,
the environment there is good as the company is small and i get to learn alot of things but becos of my wilfulness, i come to the current company to experience the job of a project coordinator as i have not really experience when i was in my internship. haha.

however, the thing done here is different than the internship. this is more to backstage and the setting up of booth all tat. so is totally different from the internship. this job is good but it is not the one i been asking for tat's y more or less there is a distance for me and the job. but i do enjoy the 2 months spending here and is one of the happiest moment tat i will remenber. hehe,=p

i got my pay yesterday and my taxi claim and i'm so happy about it. i earn more than i am given cos of OT and guess wat, i earn nearly 800++ for my OT and now it seems worthwhile as i have sacrificed alot of my time with my dear as well as sleep time. hehe

going to give dear a big big treat!

i'm damn pissed now. just now was writing the blog half way when the computer hang!!!! so stupid and hang at the wrong time. the more i bear with u, the worse i get and the more info i will lose. luckily, i only leave one and three quarter day when i can finally say good bye to the window 98 computer. it is antique now.

now not feelin very feeling well as the time of the month has come and dunno wat happen jus not well. very jia lat. hai luckily it come now then when i have my tp test. so more of less must say thanks. haha

oh ya, i intend to sign up for a jap course with my dear, force him to join with me, but he has not confirm with me yet but he also seems interested so lucky. can finally have a time with him to study together le haha. wait for quite a long time one. hai... miss him badly...

now i dunno wat to write le cos i forget wat i wrote just now and lazy to think le since i in pain haha so tata

haven been blogging for a long time le. hai. finally two more days before i leave the event company. learnt a lot of thing here as well as a lot of happy memories. guess this is one of the fun times i have thru out the works i have worked. think is kind of easier to click becos more or less they are about the same age, as well as we are alw together one. went to lunch together, go out together and doing the event together.

just finish doing the keying of the time card for the store people. quite tired and standardized and now i have to start slacking again hai. really dun like the feeling of slacking now. others may think that slacking is god as they are get paid without doing anything but for me is different. i rather busy cos i sitting so obivious place, cant play game or wat, so is terrible. really terrible.

I have worked hard for the past one month cos i overwork myself, been on site for about 3 weeks plus and everyday reach there abt 0830 and went home average after 2300. only when the event start then i go home early. been very shargged and hagged lately. now everyday went home is just eat, watch tv, sleep. it's been like a rountine and in this way, i dun think i can slim down even i want to.

At first thought that by doin event, once u are busy, you will be stress and eventually slim down but now i guess not for my case cos i still get to eat my meals on time and it didnt seems as busy as i have thought. hai that goes my wish of slimming down wahaha =p

haven meet up with shari they all as i have been busy lately with the event. think will have to meet them one of these days. missed those old days where we hang out together. at first was five of us (boon, en, keng, shari and i) then turn to 4 (boon, en, shari and i) now even worse, (andy, boon, shari and i, though we seldom meet up with andy) hai. i think maybe a few months later will be just shari and i cos boon will be going ns, andy may be busy preparing for his last sem as well as internship le. hai i dunno. it just seems getting more qi liang as times goes by. hai.

after the event, i have to concentrate on driving, really hope tat i can pass my tp asap so that i can drive ard with dad's car before he come back from shanghai. after all the car has been there dunno for how long le. hai

previous night when my mum was talking with my aunt, i heard my mum talking to my nephew so i wan to talk to him as well. he is so cute loh, call me and sing song for me. sang twinkle twinkle little stars and ke ren lai. hah. sing so cute and for the ke ren lai, he only sing: pa pa bu zai jia, haha. my mum say him sing as if the radio is spoit haha. For ur info he is just one years plus and can sing so well haha. so cute! Sun going to play with him and ask him to call me and sing song for me cos my cousin is getting married.

at first dun feel like writing alot but dunno why, just cant stop writing so i just simply write and write and write, so bear with me, let me say out everything for the 3 weeks haha.

My taxi claims are 132.65 which i freaked out, to think tat i'm one hundreds plus poorer in y bank these weeks. pay has yet to come, but i have the intention to buy new phone for my old one is getting worse! first is it black out itself, now is that when talkin, even u on the loudest ( without loudspeaker) it seems like u can only hear the person muttering. hai. seems like communication breakdown.

i know even i slacking now, i very lazy to blog le. so stop here...

Today is also a busy day in the office, i only manage to finish my tasks by 4 pm. hai. dear today didnt work cos his day have been replaced sat to mon. meaning he is going back to camp tonight.

Weekend has been great for me and i seems to enjoy it. Sat stay home all day and never go out cos keep eating medicine and feeling drowsy, that's why the day passed so fast. wahaha. sun was a nice day to start with, but dear called me early in the morning and wake me up, so tired cos i cant get to sleep the previous night. called at 7 am plus, chat for nearly one and a half hour before i get back to sleep again. hai. and in the end i slept till 11 am =p. dear call again and say that his mum invite me to his place for lunch as his mum will be cooking( she hardly cooks) alot and invite me. I was like how to reject since his mum ask le and is her first cooking like tat, and if i dun go like very pai sei and not sporting so in the end i went. BUT i was late reach nearly one and when dear went to fetch me from the bus stop (his place there), he told me that his dad was starving but cant eat first cos i haven reach. haha. and when his dad ask who is coming, his mum say that i 'm coming over and his dad keep quiet, haha so funny and so pai sei have to let his dad wait for me. sorry.

His brother (dog) willy, like miss me alot that he keep on pounding and wanting to lick me.. haha. stay at his place till three plus when we finally leave the house (cos he keep on dragging the time, slowly go bath and slack and slack =( ) and go bugis.

bought alot of things, two bottle of facial wash, one sling bag and a jacket (he buy for me) and a belt. waste alot of money. hai.. i now so poor and still got so many thing to buy. we also walk to the new library. thought it was supposed to be quite big, but in fact, (maybe we dunno) we only manage to visit one floor only and the books seems so little as wat we expect. hai.. next time will go again to explore!

went to aijisen to have the dinner. as the enterance of the restaurant was crowded with people watchin and playing xbox, we suggest to go inside of the restaurant to have our meal, but the layout deceived us, cos the inside is not separated by any glass panels, infact , is transparent, we were like -_-'' haha.

just enjoy my days as the time passed very slowly. miss you alot dear...

didnt get to blog these few days as i was busy and i dun wan to blog on weekends. alot of things happen and i think tat this may be the longest blog i may have write. hai. let's start with friday then.

friday: went out with the usual gang to Suntec(reach early as i have a free ride from my colleagues) to celebrate for en's farewell as well as for her birthday. but in the end didnt manage to buy her a cake as we are so full. Guess that day i have the ever first vegetarian food for a meal. There is mee goreng, bee hoon, fried rice, and kway tiao. All vegetarian loh! First time ever! It was so full that five of us ( en, shari, boon, andy and me) that we cant even finish it haha so funny cos boon have ulcers, then andy got toothache, so they didnt touch too much. Poor us, the three gals that have to finish all. but ultimately is en who finish off cos she cant bear to waste food. haha Bravo to en! after tat went to esplanade to have fondue. we talked alot of craps, take alot of photo and it's fun! Miss en cos she's leaving.

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sat: went back for my ever-first driving lesson after i fail my first tp in march. The feeling to drive again is good, or even better i should say than before. for this time after lapse for 3 months, i still remenber the steps and the way to park car except for directional change that need second try. my dad also came back from overseas for a week of rest. didnt went to fetch him cos i having driving lesson. and my dad didnt buy me anything for me . hai.

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sun: slack at home, very slack and sian, didnt meet dear cos he cant go out. hai

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mon: been very busy and not even a min to slack and moreover i have to work OT. work and work but luckily manage to finish the things given to me by the end of the day. =)

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tues: also busy, colouring floor plan, doing updates and replying mail. didnt even have a chance to surf net.

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wed: has not been at my desk for the whole day, in the conference room looking at all the files and halls that i'm in charge and sort out to find all the electric plan, floor plan, etc.

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thurs: manage to catch up with my blog. hai. seems so rush. last nite suffer breakdown with my dear, now we agree to cool down and stop cntact for a while as i know that we really need time to cool before we get things worse. hope time will heal everything and we will try to work things out as time goes by and hope to be like in the past.

tata...

Specially for En...

Though this may be a stupid way of expressing myself on the friendship we shared, but i hope that this will be kept close to your heart for this is just dedicated to you only. Sorry that i didnt prepare anything in advance for your leaving.

Known her for 3 whole years le, and times really flies by fast and it has also impoves our friendship. From an unknown stranger to classmate, to friends and then to good friends and eventually become part of the inseparable gang with shari, keng and me.

we have spent almost everyday (other than weekends) together, be it for lunch, for classes or even for projects. She was the hardworking kind that will try to do her tutorial and always listen to class attentively and taking notes diligently. she can be called our secretary becos of her fast writing of notes ans always lend us when we need it. not only that, she is also so helpful in helping us with our things and without any complaints. so far, i have yet to see her been angry or wat. just seen her very pissed only once or twice. just a good tempered person is so hard to find and i'm so fortunate to have know her.

she is always been said by me for something for i think become a habit. hope that she will know and remenber what it is as i was the one that force her to do it. haha =p after the first say about her for the thing, everytime whenever i see her doing the thing, i will just call her and she know le, haha.

she is a good team member who is punctual with her work and also always go the extra miles for projects even if her work is done. went out with her alot of times. went singing where she will always entertained us with her cute singing that will both entertain and irritate me. such a time seems so short and now she is leaving us le.

just hope that she will not forget us, used to the new environment, meet new friends and stay happy! Wish you all the best and good luck! keep in contact or i will pester and flood your mail!

Will miss youand gooebye, my good friend...

signing off with love,
hong

below are the jokes i found cos i'm not doing anything hai..

WHAT WOMEN SAY & REALLY MEAN:

CAN'T WE JUST BE FRIENDS?
There is no way in hell I'm going to let any part of your body touch any part of mine,again.

I JUST NEED SOME SPACE....
without you in it.

DO I LOOK FAT IN THIS DRESS?
We haven't had a fight in a while.

I DON'T KNOW, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?
I can't believe you have nothing planned.

YOU NEVER LISTEN.
You never listen.

I'LL BE READY IN A MINUTE.
I'm ready, but I'm going to make you wait because I know you will.

OH, NO, I'LL PAY FOR MYSELF.
I'm just being nice; there's no way I'm going dutch.

See how funny the jokes is! haha. lame but quite true!

by the way, today i kind of down, cos en is leaving and didnt tell us at all. i know it may seems like u haven't confirm but can still tell us first ma. we (the gang) are upset as we only know now plus we haven't got anything for u. for we want u to remenber us ma. sob sob. hope that u will be happy there. we meet u on thurs ok?

hope to have a farewell dinner with u.

guess at the end of the day i will meet up with diana rather than going steamboat with my colleagues as they are celebrating my 'head' Paul's b'day. they bought him a watch and tomolo will be a cake from secret receipe if i'm not wrong and if they didnt change.

diana if u all dunno, was my good cum best fren since primary school till now. even hardly meet up, we still know each other. however, i feel we have drift apart ever since we went different sch, led a different life She rarely tells me her xin shi one, which i dun understand why. she should know i will be by her side whenever she need me. but it seems like that sentence didnt get to her mind. she chose to hide it from me, and makes me feel that i'm forever the last one to know. hai. just hear that she got break up not long ago, maybe today meet up can cheer and console her bah.

just wan her to know that no matter wat happen., i will be with her and hope that she will tell me how she feel all that.

the graduation letter has arrived and at first i thought i cant go to the graduation cos of work, but now can. not to be bad or bad spolit, just dun feel like going, cos i have to think wat to wear all that and also after the ceremony i have to rush back to my event which is at expo, damn sian loh. plus my mum still ask me if she can dun go for the ceremony ma? hai... just dunno what they want.

these few days have been a bad day for me as i have been quarreling with my dear for the past three days. hai always becos of small matters. he just give me the feeling that what have happen is all i wan or is me who created one. but the fact is not. all those things just come naturally.. hope he just simply understand that. hai. simply sorry about it. i hope u wont keep thinking about it anymore. take those things as over ok?

sat: went to have dinner with his dad and mum. meet them at tiong bahru, at first say eat steamboat at bugis but later switch to marina square (cos no parking lots). just as we are about to give up searching and looking for parking lots (also happen in marina carpark), just as we were going to exit the carpark, we manage to find a lot as the driver is about to drive off. haha so lucky man, or else we have to go suntec and later if same problem happen, we guess we will go back his home there to takeaway (that's what dear and his dad sad.) haha i was like -_-'' haha, came all the way from AMK just to eat takeaway food. in the end, we went there (marina square) to have seoul garden... hai. so sian right, but nvm, got treated by his mum again. so pai sei. hai.

everytime go with the parents sure get treated and always very expensive food, hardly hawker centre food. dear was still so cheeky that he suggest going to paris to eat, i aws like, what the hell, so expensive loh! hai, lucky we didnt, cos i calculate if we eat at paris, the cost for per person after service charges and GST, think it will add up to 40-42 bucks per person! hai.

at first after eating divnner, dear wan to send me home by himself, but his mum say no, saying that his dad will drive me home, so buo pian, have to follow them lo.wen to shop shop but most of the time stay at Home Fix store as his mum wan to buy thing. dear saw alot of thing to buy, but got pissed off by his mum as she say either, at home got this, or why waste money to buy. hai... make him so fed up.

to make thing worse, when i get home, after doing my stuff, i sat to watch tv, but when dear called, he hear that i wasm't concentrating what he say, he got pissed and hang up the phone. hai. dear i'm sorry. and at 2.50am, he msg me saying that he still angry and couldn't get to sleep, i was like, does that matter of not concentrating on the phone can ,make him ngry for so long? hai i dunno. just feel that he nowadays not just easily pissed but also anyhow throw temper and be angry for small things... hai

dear can u please change, u know that i dun like it, so do u right ok?

sunday went to watch da vinci code at amk, i know it's stupid to keep going to neighbour area to watch movie or eat but becos amk cinea is not very crowded ulike PS or marina, where only first few rows is empty for the show. hai. the story is more or less the same but (below is only my view means no harm) they have cut kind of those details that i feel important for the audience to know but they didnt show. overall is nice loh. can watch cos is 2.5 hr haha. worth the money.

also at amk, we saw his uncle's family, i was like very shocked as dear is cos his uncle is staying at Chua Chu Kang but went to amk to make spec cos his uncle's fren shop. If that is me, sorry loh, i just go nearby, unless the nearby is so lousy that i cant stand then i will go further a bit but not to the extent of from west side to the north east side of singapore. haha

went to mac eat, cos dear wan to try the new dish, the black pepper chicken wings (or should i say is drumlets) the manager pissed me off loh. tell him he dun understand what i mean but his staff know. hai.. it goes like this., dear's meal wwas standard, think is $6.85, but he upsize so become about $7.35, i wnated to order a mac spicy meal but wan to change the fries to twister fries so i have to pay forty cents which makes it $6.35 (i think) but beocs other than the black pepper meal., there is another meal which is on promotion is the mac spicy meal but it consist of the twister fris and green tea as drink and cost $6.60. and of cos, for me i rather chose the cheaper one ma, so i so call tell the manager off but in the end he still charge me $6.60. WAh lao, cheat me 25 cents more, but to dear, he simply dun care, just say to me, is correct what. so i ignore it too cos dear pay ma haha.

today totally late for office for half an hour, i took the bus at ard 7.55am (normally but it came very late today) nevermind, but jam so long. end up reach at 9am, the worse timing i have hai.
got alot of things to do, not office jobs i mean, cos even my 'head' (the person i am under) dun have anything for me to do.

one fo my fren is celebrating b'dae before he went ns, hope that i will go, so i tell him i'm going. is this fri but i haven buy present for him. he say no need cos he also haven buy mine loh, i was like wat thinking, u invite me to ur b'dae but i went empty-handed seems kind of rude but he say nvm. no way loh, even u give me priviledges, cos i mind what others think of me even though i dunno his fren. (he is actually my good fren's ex bf) haha so fun nao, dunno when free to go buy for him and wat to buy for him cos i also broke le. hai. then somemore need to renew my PDL as i will be having my driving lesson again(after resting for 3 months, after my TP) hai sian. damn sian. for driving drag too long too long le. maybe i should say long long ago, long long ago.

just now was lookin at the usual blog and i was surprise to see that en today has blogged early in the day about her today's luckily thing, haha, she is forever so cute one (there is no ugly in the dictionary), she always can say thing that can make people laugh out loud or let people feel so cold as in lame thing. think for the cold and lame things all that, she can compete with my boy le, who is an expert loh. (but now hardly have any lame jokes le)

just now came in office late as usual and i was more afraid than the other days i was late, as like my previous email said, the GM has send an email saying about the punctuality all that. hai. so i scare i may have the same fate as others. (see previous post)

by the way i have finish my 'the da vinvi code" le. i dun think i have tell u but yes, i buy the book and read it from page 1 till the end. guess this is the first book after i have finish my studies and i'm so interested to read. the book no doubt is exciting and at some point of time, i find it's kind of dry and boring. hai. the ending is quite funny in that sense i feel that it's no link loh. but i hope that th emovie will make it more exciting bah. now awaiting to watch it in the movies, maybe this weekend bah. but i'm drained in my pockets after the facial package. can anyone who is kind to sponsor me with money, hehe =p

again doing wat i hate most now: slacking slacking and slacking.
Again i feel that some of u who read my blog may feel that it is a wonderful thing to do in the office as u can slack and at the same time get your pay, BUT it also depends where u are seated, the computer you are facing and also the people in the office. like the 3 main factors i said, i didnt managed to get what i want.

- i'm seated at the entrance of the door (like a receptionist as well as a 'bell girl' as i have to open to the people who are stuck outside if no one open the door for them as i'm sitting nearest to the door.

- my computer is only window 98 (oh my goodness!!!! excuse me, just in which era am i in? still window 98???? hai, so ke lian right! and my com is facing to the back of the office where people walking past me will know what i doing. So how to play games???

- the GM maybe is too free and nothing to do, like to walk around anytime as he wished. hai and some time he will look so close as what u doin now (becos he dunno me so well, so he didnt really see what i'm doin but for sure, i guarantee, plus warranty and plus chop, he for sure got glance wat i been doing since i always slack one.

so do u think that u can still envy me? hai... sian sian and sian, can anyone please tag me a website that can keep me entertain when i'm slacking. no blog pls thanks (P.S. i'm so bored that i even read everyday's news!!!!

today is late for work again, but many of the coleagues are not here yet so is ok. first thing in the morning is that the GM has send an email to all saying about puntuality, leave, dress code and claims. kinds of unreasonable as said by the colleagues as is kind of unreasonable cos for co-ordinators, we are suppose to wear causal, if wear formal how to do things? one of the colleagues even say that we are not going to see clients so why must wear so nice, plus what we do in the office is just type confirmation, fax and update system, so what for wear so nice to go to work when u are just doin simple thing and have to wear suits all that. just dun understand.
anyway one of the colleague (part time and this is i hear one) has been fired, think he come in very late, slack and do nothing so got fired when he is suppose to leave end of the may. Not that i bad or wat, but maybe this will be good for the company and himself, for he takes the job for granted le, like to come when as he like, as if the company is open by his dad.

this two days start to be busy as i no longer helping shihui le, but helping another collague doing another event which is the same day and side by side. hai. at first not very "good" with him, but no choice have to work mah, but he is ok now loh. he keep on giving me work and keep me busy loh. -_-' lol thanks alot loh. just no so bo liao, so ask him to pass me the floor plan for the event and i colour another set for myself cos i free le, finish what he gave me le loh.

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last nite when to new york skin solutions to do facial. at first was seeing that they are having promotion of $18 and shari cjoi me go one so went for a try. Wah i got a real shock in my life, the consultant say my face very bad and alot of areas are clogged, and need to clean up hai.. in the end, i not only didnt get to do the $18 but i have to do a $90 (usual is 180) cos the 18 is just like a basic wash up and mask only. sian very sian upon hearing that.

in the end, i seems like so conscious and thensign up a course with them that costs $400+, i know is ex, but at first, she was askin me to go sign up for the treatment course that i do ealrier that cos $1800 for 10 sessions and she will give me a price of $1000. How can i afford ma, hai, i just step up of school to work not even three months and ask me to fork out this much which is equal to my one month 's pay seems unrealistic ma. hai...

just blame myself for not saving and not taking good care of my face and this will happen hai. dear isn't happy with me going to facial in teh first place and plus i say that i sign up for a course, he more unpleased. then we quarrel again becos of this. hai....
but luckily, not everything is ok le, so hope he will understand. i do it for the sake of myself and maybe a bit for him ma. =p

he want me to learn to mae up and slim down all that, of cos i have to slowly do ma, now first step is go facial to make my face better before i can make up wat, so else later i allergy all that. hai.. dunno what he wan, like he say one thing and do another way for the same thing. hai..

slackin, slackin and slacking...

today was late for work, later by five to seven min than usua. Thanks to the bus driver who fail to drive fast and the bus was stopped for 3 red traffic lights. hai damn sian, coming to the office as nothing to do again but to wait for things to be tasked to me. damn sian... wanted to read da vinci code but cant as the GM as usual will make his round anytime he likes and i dunno when he will come out as back of my head has no eyes! =p

just saw dear's blog, he put his frens' link in the blog, and i dun understand why. to mi, i dun wish others to know about my blog as i feel that is my personal things and i dun wish alot of people to see as it wont concern about them. i dun like to blog for others to see as i dun see the need. daear, pls understand that and remove my blog address fro ur blog if u want to keep ur fren one ok? Afterall, my blog address is so easy to remenber, dun tell me u will forget or dun remenber hor!

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talk about thurs, first outing with colleagues with outing turn out to be very fun and very late, reach home about 2.40am, mum was worried sick and as for dear, he has started sleeping since 11 plus, hai, just didnt wait for me and not worried about me one. Wanted to blog alot for thurs but dunno where to start it out, can just simply say, after work, we just went to have dinner and after tat went to kbox to sing. Start the session at around 8 plus and sing till one plus. And the charges is $21 ++ and only 2 drinks! very the expesive! but thanks to my colleague who drove me home as he still have to drive another 3 more before goin home. Thanks!

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Friday slack at home doing nothing and i wake up at ten plus but sleep again till two plus in the afternoon after talking to dear on the phone for nearly 2 hours. First time wake up so late despite is just a holiday, maybe is due to the previous nite sleep so late, but sometime stay up around the same time yet i dun feel tired that much too. just dunno why. Slack at home loh and cant talk to dear at note cos he got a gathering with his JC's mates, i was angry with him for some reasons ( yah, i was always angry one, that is what u all think right?) . he jus not auto one, just dunno what he is thinking and what he will do, but that nite, he sure surprise me one, he came down at 11 plus to come down to apologise to me and bought me a bracelet to make up, silly him. at first thought he was joking as he called and ask if i wan to eat supper a not, but as i thoiught he reach home le and then still wan to come out so i stop him and hang up the phone. After a while, he ask me to open my living room's window and know what he did. I was so touched but i just simply cant display how touched i am... hai... sorry dear...

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sat, upon dear meeting me late last nite, i decide to give him surprise, partially was to make up for upseting him in the morningand so after i ate my lunch (mum cooks, so must eat, cos she hardly cook), bath le and went to buy chicken cutlet and then take cab to his house. he looked stunned as he never thought i will go look for him as i lied to him that i will meet him at 4 at city hall to meet and watch movie. haha. so glad that he like the surprise.

in the end, we leave his place nclose to 5 and had to catch movie at tiong bahru instead. never know he will drag his time, and he still got time to watch tv after eating the cutlet i bought. so sian in his place and only his dog entertain me. hai... watch poseidon, it's a really nice show but to me is cruel as it showed what human can do in order to survive and sacrifice others. hai.

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sunday went to grandma house to celebrate mothers' day (cos there alot of mums) haha. wanted to entertain and play with niece and nephew but they dun seem interested hai.. they are actually quite cute in their way like my nephew will only call u if he has some benefit like sweets or food. then wan to bring him to ntuc, he shakes his head, but when ask him he wants sweet then he nod, so cute! haha